SPANK ME FIRM AND HARD

Imagine that every Tuesday at 8 p.m. you were required to report to my home. You were allowed to wear whatever you want externally, but you must be wearing a jockstrap underneath.

You know to be on time and freshly showered.

This is your weekly Discipline. This is your opportunity to experience the personal growth that you need.

I greet you at the door with a hug and a warm smile followed by a swift invitation to come inside. Without instruction, you know that you’re expected to remove all of your external clothing and fold It neatly on the table in the living room. Then you get down on your knees and wait silently in the middle of the living room on the soft carpet.

I eventually sit down on the couch and tell you to come over to me. You crawl between my legs. You’ve been here many times before. You know exactly what I’m going to ask. I’m going to ask you about your week thus far. I’m going to ask you if you have gotten to work on time. If you’ve completed your studies. If you cleaned your apartment. If you have been eating well. If you have been exercising. If you have been managing your money. If you have been kind to others. If you have remembered your responsibilities to your family and friends.

I will run my fingers through your hair as you talk. I will make you look in my eyes as you speak. When you answer a question that you know will not be a favorable response to me, I will not allow you to look at the ground. You will look at me and take ownership of your actions.

After we are done with the questions, I always utter a phrase that is similar. You will try harder next week. Or I am pleased with your progress. Or we have a lot to focus on tonight.

It always starts the same way. I ask you to stand up and lay across my lap on the couch. This is where we always begin. I give you a number. It is a number of what I expect you to work on for next week. If I’m less pleased with your responses, it will be a higher number. It would not be unusual to start out at 50.

It would be frustratingly slow. With each smacked of my hand, we would discuss your responses. The goal is never to hurt you, it is to help you learn from your behavior.

After we finish our conversation, I will give you an opportunity to share with me anything else that is on your chest. Anything else that you feel was not up to the standards that you have for yourself and that you know that I have for you.

If you have nothing else, I will allow you to choose what happens next. If you do, I will choose for you.

We will go back to my bedroom where all of my instruments are laid out. In my bedroom we will use the riding crop, the flogger, the paddles, and the belt if necessary. I will allow you to pick if there’s nothing else on your mind. Otherwise any and all of them are my choice.

This is the structure that you need. This is the discipline that you crave. You are not coming to my place to get fucked. You are coming to grow as a person. While I will expect you to say thank you, this is a time between the two of us to help you.

Cameron Never Learns Part 1

Men Behind Closed Doors