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i seriously cant anymore i cant i cant i cant i cant i just wish someone would listen to me i wish

time is my worst enemy i have the biggest headache ever every day is sobs please someone help me im begging im begging i have no friends i have nothing here its over it just gets worse and worse and worse and worse and worse and

i just need someone to listen someone i just want to be taken seriously why am i never taken seriously never

god my head hurts so bad

never in my life have i been so sad

i wish they could ask

and i wish they could listen

and i wish they could hug

foolish of me

nights terrorize me

my head pounds

i will always fill the air in every room

the wind blew our fence into my front yard

there’s a sort of isolating fear breezing around me, like that of wind eddies

you don’t realize how different things have become until it all accumulates at the deepest point of your gut

but everything continues to be structured how i’ve only ever known it

there’s a chiming in my left ear

and a sharp, retreating pain in my right

i live my life behind the authority of what has been written in

and it has continued so

there’s a persistent lack in any sense of control

despite the active

it always feels that i have been shut out from some grand, collective knowledge and conversation on how things are truly meant to be

until my ears bleed ,

i need to take more photos

i say this a lot

i shut it down most times

im too coy

not sure exactly what i’m afraid of, regarding

i made this today after listening to my mom say mean things about me

self portrait