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Sleeping Beauty â Bangchan
Summary â Arriving home overwhelmed by an all-consuming need, Chan crawls into bed with you, seeking desperate, quiet comfort in the middle of the nightâstruggling against his own restraint as his needy confessions and soft grinding bring him to a razor-thin edge.
Pairing â Chan x Reader
Genre â Domestic Fluff, Smut, Overstimulation, Sleepy Intimacy, Sensory/Verbal Praise, Interactive/Branching Story (Pick Your Ending)
Cw/tags â Sleepy sex/somnophilia elements (consensual/established), whining/crying kink(?), begging, praise kink, grinding/dry humping, Creampie (Ending B), accidental release/pant-spilling (Ending A), skin scent, emotional vulnerability, dirty talk, interactive ending.
Word count â 743 words (Main Post)
A/n â hi guysss so this is a 200 followers special thank you guys SOOOOO much for all of the support on almost every post I love you alll đđđđ so this is kind of an interactive kind of story where at the end of the post would be two options on how you want to continue it and they are going to be linked and highlighted!!! I donât know if anyone did this before honestly but if anyone does know or read something like this please tell me about it i want to check it out!!!! I did this because I kind of couldnât choose on how to end it so made it two options
The bed dipped, the cool scent of his clean skin and mint toothpaste cutting through the warm, sleepy fog you were wrapped in. You were deep under, consciousness a distant shore, your body heavy and pliant with true sleep.
He slid in behind you, his movements careful, trying not to jostle you. The heat of his freshly showered body was a brand against your back. He settled into the spoon, his chest flush against your spine, his legs curling to fit behind yours. One arm slid beneath your neck, the other wrapped possessively around your waist, his hand splaying over your lower belly, pulling you tight against him.
You murmured something unintelligible, shifting slightly in his hold, but didn't wake.
He buried his face in the back of your neck, right where your hairline met your skin. He inhaled deeply, a long, shuddering drag of breath that filled his lungs with the scent of your sleep-warm skin, your shampoo, the unique, comforting essence that was purely you. A soft, almost pained sound escaped himâa sigh of homecoming, of desperate relief.
His lips found the sensitive skin of your neck. Not a passionate kiss, but a series of soft, lingering presses. He kissed the knob of your spine, the slope of your shoulder, each touch feather-light and reverent, as if apologizing for his own need.
And he was needy. You could feel it even in your sleep. The hard, insistent length of him was pressed snugly against the curve of your ass, trapped between his body and yours. He was already half-hard, just from holding you, from breathing you in.
He nuzzled deeper, his nose in your hair, his breath hot and shaky against your scalp. His hips gave the faintest, most subtle rollânot a thrust, but a helpless, grinding press into the softness of your backside. A low, stifled groan vibrated against your neck.
A quiet, pathetic whine followed, so soft it was almost just a breath. "MmmhâŚ"
He did it again. A little less subtle this time. A slow, seeking rock of his pelvis, the hard ridge of his cock dragging against the thin fabric of your panties and his own sweats. Another whine, this one more distinct, tinged with frustration. "Nngh⌠babyâŚ"
He was chasing sensation, seeking comfort in your form, his body moving with a sleepy, instinctual hunger, his voice a quiet, broken counterpoint.
His arm around your waist tightened, his hand flexing against your stomach. His lips parted against your shoulder. "Need youâŚ" he whispered, the words a raw, sleep-thickened confession into your skin. He knew you couldn't hear him. That was the point. "Missed you⌠need you so muchâŚ"
Another slow, needy grind, this one with a bit more intention, a bit more ache behind it. He was fully hard now, the pressure against you unmistakable and urgent. A sharper, more pleading whine escaped him, muffled against your skin. "F-feels⌠too good⌠can'tâŚ"
He was riding the line between taking his own solace and waking you, torn between his desperate want and his desire to let you rest. Every slight movement, every quiet sound, was a testament to a need so profound it couldn't be contained even in the sanctity of your sleep.
He pressed his forehead between your shoulder blades, his whole body tense with the effort of holding back, of keeping his movements to these gentle, nocturnal worship, even as his quiet, desperate whines betrayed the war he was losing. He was a live wire of quiet desire wrapped around your sleeping form, finding his solace in the mere proximity, in the scent and the feel of you, and in the soft, helpless sounds he couldn't stop making.
The quiet whines became a continuous, soft soundtrack to the night. Each subtle grind of his hips against your ass drew another one out of himâa high, needy little sound that was pure, unfiltered want.
âAngelâŚâ he breathed into the nape of your neck, the word trembling. His hand on your stomach slid lower, just an inch, his fingertips brushing the lace edge of your panties. A full-body shudder wracked him. âGod, you have no idea⌠no idea how much I need you.â
He wasnât just talking about sex in that moment. The confession was wider, deeper. It spilled out in ragged whispers between kisses on your shoulder.
âI need you like I need air. Like I need the fucking beat in a track.â A slow, aching roll of his hips, the hard line of his cock straining against his sweats, seeking the heat of you through the layers. A whine caught in his throat. âMânothing without you. Just⌠noise. Empty noise.â
His nose pressed against your hair, inhaling like a man dying of thirst. âI came home and you were here⌠sleeping⌠perfect. And it wrecked me.â His voice broke on the last word. âJust the sight of you. I tried to be quiet. I tried to just hold you. But I canât⌠I canât ever get close enough.â
His movements became less subtle, more a consistent, gentle rocking, his body seeking a friction it couldnât quite get. His whines grew more frequent, more strained.
âNeed to be inside you,â he confessed, the words hot and damp against your skin. âNeed to feel you around me. Need to wake up with you on my tongue. Need to make you come so I can taste it⌠fuckâŚâ He bit back a louder groan, his teeth grazing your shoulder lightly. âIâm a fucking addict. Youâre my drug. My only drug.â
His hand slid back up to splay over your ribs, holding you as close as physically possible, as if he could fuse you together through sheer force of need. âIâm so hungry for you. All the time. It never stops. Even when Iâm full of you, Iâm starving for more.â He punctuated the sentence with a slightly harder press of his hips, a soft, desperate cry leaving his lips. âSee? Itâs a sickness. Youâre my beautiful, perfect sickness.â
He was lost in it, in the confession and the sensation, talking to your sleeping self as if it were the most sacred confessional.
âPlease,â he whimpered, the word so quiet it was almost inaudible, yet soaked in utter desperation. âPlease, baby. I need you. I need you so much it hurts.â His rhythm stuttered, his body trembling against yours. He was so wound up, so overcome with this late-night, lonely yearning that even this gentle, frustrated grinding against you was bringing him perilously close to the edge.
He buried his face completely, his next words muffled and thick with emotion. âI donât know how to exist without needing you. I donât want to know. Just⌠let me need you. Forever. Let me be like this. Always.â
He stilled then, holding you tightly, his frantic whispers dissolving into shaky, heated breaths against your neck, his hard-on a persistent, aching plea against your backside, his entire being a silent, throbbing prayer of devotion and desperate, unfulfilled want.
Ending A â He stays quiet and ends up spilling in his own pants while you sleep.
Ending B â You stir awake half-conscious, comfort him, and let him take his time with you.
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He didnât rush. His touch was a slow, maddening exploration. The pads of his fingers traced your slit over the damp silk of your panties, from the very bottom to the sensitive nub at the top. A high, thin whine escaped you, and you buried your face slightly against his shoulder, your grip in his hair tightening.
âDonât hide,â he coaxed, his voice a low, persuasive rumble. âGive it to the mic. Let it hear how good it feels.â His fingers slipped under the silk barrier, finding bare, wet skin. He repeated the motion, now skin to skinâa slow, slick pass from your entrance all the way up to your clit. Your legs trembled. The sound you made was a shuddering moan, less restrained this time.
âAgain,â he commanded softly, drawing the same torturous path, circling your clit once, lightly, before sliding back down to circle your entrance. He pressed there, just at the rim, applying a hint of pressure but not entering. It was unbearable. A sob of frustration caught in your throat.
âI know, baby,â he cooed, his lips moving against your neck. âI know itâs aching. But the best sounds⌠they come from the ache.â He pressed a little harder, stretching the tight ring of muscle just a fraction, and you cried out, a beautiful, broken sound. âYes. Just like that. Thatâs the pre-chorus.â
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Itâs not gonna be fucking thatâs one thing but his hands would be just as good
Sleeping Beauty â Bangchan (B)
Summary â Arriving home overwhelmed by an all-consuming need, Chan crawls into bed with you, seeking desperate, quiet comfort in the middle of the nightâstruggling against his own restraint as his needy confessions and soft grinding bring him to a razor-thin edge. (Ending B)
Pairing â Chan x Reader
Genre â Smut (PWP), Sleepy Intimacy, Sensory/Verbal Praise, Soft Dom Mix With Needy Sub Dynamics
Cw/tags â Semi-conscious/somnophilia (consensual/established) sex, fingering, oral tasting, slow penetration, spooning position, subby/needy crying Chan, praise kink, dirty talk, creampie, piv, unprotected sex, needy and desperate, emotional devotion.
Word count â 921 words
Before Reading
Your eyelashes fluttered, a soft sigh escaping your lips as the persistent, warm pressure and the sound of his ragged whispers began to seep into your dreams. You werenât fully awakeâyour mind was still cottony and slow, your body heavyâbut you were aware. Aware of his heat, his hardness, the desperate, worshipful litany against your skin.
You shifted, a small, sleepy sound of your own leaving you as you blinked slowly in the dark. He felt it. He froze, his breath catching.
Then he saw your eyes, glazed with sleep, barely open, but looking back over your shoulder at him in the dim light.
It was like a dam broke.
âBaby,â he choked out, the word a sob of relief. âYouâre awakeâŚ? Iâm sorry, Iâm so sorry, I tried to be quiet, I just⌠I need you. Please. I need you so bad it feels like Iâm dying.â The whines returned, higher, more frantic now that he had an audience, even a half-conscious one. âPlease, angel, just⌠let me⌠I canât think, I canât breathe, I just needââ
âShhh,â you murmured, your voice thick and slurred with sleep. You didnât turn over. You simply lifted your hand, finding his where it was splayed over your lower belly. Your fingers curled over his. âSâokay.â
You guided his hand, slowly, down. Past your navel, over the lace of your panties, until his palm was cupping you fully through the dampening fabric.
He went utterly still for a heartbeat. Then a shattered, grateful moan vibrated through his chest into your back. âOh, god⌠thank you⌠thank youâŚâ
He descended on your neck with a frenzy of open-mouthed kisses, whispering a stream of âthank youâ and âperfectâ and âmy angelâ against your skin. His other hand fumbled between your bodies, fingers hooking into the waistband of your panties. He peeled them down with a reverence that bordered on agony, sliding them slowly over your hips, down your thighs, letting them fall somewhere in the tangle of sheets at your feet.
You were drifting again, the edges of your consciousness softening, surrendering back to the warm, safe pull of sleep, trusting him completely.
He took the invitation. His hand, now free of your guidance, slipped between your thighs from the front. His fingers, long and clever, found your entrance, already slick with your sleep and his earlier attention. A choked sob of want escaped him as he pushed two fingers inside you, the hot, velvety clutch of your body around them making his hips jerk against your ass.
âSo perfect⌠so wet for me already⌠sleeping and still so perfect for meâŚâ he babbled, his fingers curling deep, seeking and finding that spongy, sensitive spot inside you. He pressed against it with practiced precision, a slow, corkscrew motion that drew a thick, silky rush of wetness around his fingers and a soft, sleepy moan from your lips.
His thumb found your clit, circling the swollen bud with a gentle, persistent pressure that made your hips push back against him instinctively, even in your semi-conscious state.
âThatâs it⌠just like that⌠give it to me, baby, even in your sleep,â he whispered, his own need reaching a fever pitch. He couldnât wait any longer.
He withdrew his soaking fingers, bringing them to his mouth with a desperate groan as he tasted you. Then he shoved his own sweats down just enough to free his aching cock. He was throbbing, the head slick with precum.
His hand went under your knee, lifting it up, opening you for him. He positioned himself, the blunt tip nudging against your drenched, welcoming entrance. He looked at your face, your eyes closed again, lashes fanning your cheeks, completely surrendered to him.
âI love you,â he breathed, a raw, broken confession. âI love you so much itâs killing me.â
And he pushed inside.
The slide was exquisite, a slow, seamless invasion into your hot, wet, pliant heat. He filled you completely in one smooth, deep stroke, sheathing himself to the hilt in the tight, sleeping clutch of your body. A guttural, trembling moan was torn from him, his forehead dropping to your shoulder as he was finally, finally where he needed to be.
He was home.
He didn't move for a long moment. He just stayed buried to the root inside you, trembling, letting the reality of itâthe incredible, hot tightness, the way your sleeping body instinctively clenched around his invading lengthâwash over him. A tear, hot and sudden, escaped the corner of his eye and landed on your skin.
âFuck,â he sobbed, the word a prayer of thanks. âFuck, you feel⌠angel, you feel like heaven.â
Then he began to move.
It was nothing like the frantic, driving pace he was capable of. This was slow, deep, and reverential. Each withdrawal was a gentle, aching pull, each thrust a smooth, penetrating slide back to the hilt. He kept the rhythm lazy, syrupy, designed not to wake you fully but to pleasure you in the twilight between sleep and waking.
His arm wrapped around you tighter, one hand splayed over your stomach. His lips were everywhereâyour shoulder, your neck, the shell of your ear.
âThatâs it,â he whispered, his voice a raw, worshipful rasp against your skin. âTake me in your sleep. Dream of me. Dream of my cock filling you up just like this.â He pressed a soft kiss below your ear. âYouâre so soft. So warm. Youâre milking me so good, baby. Even in your dreams, you know how to take me.â
His thrusts remained deep and steady, but a subtle tension began to coil in his belly. The sensation of you around him, so trusting and pliant, was overwhelming in its intimacy. His whines returned, softer now, mixed with his whispered praise.
âIâm so close⌠you feel too good⌠Iâm not gonna last,â he confessed, his hips stuttering. âMy perfect girl⌠my sleeping beauty⌠gonna make me come inside this sweet, sleepy pussyâŚâ
He shifted his angle minutely, and the next deep stroke brushed directly over that sensitive, internal spot. Even asleep, your body reacted. A soft, breathy moan sighed from your lips, and your inner muscles fluttered around him in a weak, unconscious clench.
It was his undoing.
âOh, godâ!â His cry was muffled against your neck as his control shattered. His hips snapped forward, burying himself as deep as he could go, and he held there, his body locking. A low, continuous groan was torn from his chest as he emptied himself inside you, pulse after hot, claiming pulse flooding your depths. It was a release that felt less like a climax and more like a soul-deep surrender, a pouring of his very essence into your keeping.
He collapsed against you, spent and shaking, his cock still twitching inside you as the last waves of his orgasm receded. He was breathless, tear-streaked, utterly wrecked.
For long minutes, he simply lay there, still joined to you, his nose buried in your hair, his breathing slowly steadying. He was surrounded by you, filled with you, saturated in your scent and your warmth. The frantic, starving need was gone, replaced by a profound, satiated peace.
He finally softened and slipped out of you, a fresh rush of wetness following. He didnât pull away. He simply adjusted the covers over you both, tucked himself back around your form, and pressed a final, tender kiss to your shoulder.
âMine,â he whispered into the dark, the word now full of quiet wonder instead of desperate hunger. âAll mine.â And with you safe and sated in his arms, and his own desperate thirst finally quenched, he let sleep claim him too.
Sleeping beauty â Bangchan (A)
Summary â Arriving home overwhelmed by an all-consuming need, Chan crawls into bed with you, seeking desperate, quiet comfort in the middle of the nightâstruggling against his own restraint as his needy confessions and soft grinding bring him to a razor-thin edge. (Ending A)
Pairing â A Little Subby! Chan x Reader
Genre â Smut, Angsty Fluff, Overstimulation(?), Sleepy Intimacy, Pant-Spilling / Accidental Orgasm (coming in his pants)
Cw/tags â Dry humping/grinding, pant-spilling, involuntary release, submissive/desperate Chan, reader is asleep (unconscious participation), overstimulation(?), crying/whining kink, begging, embarrassment/humiliation(?) (light/self-deprecating), pre-cum, post-orgasm clean-up, soft/contented ending.
Word count â 774 words
Before Reading
Ending A: he comes in his pants while youâre still asleep
In the deep, oblivious warmth of your sleep, you shifted. It was a natural, sighing turn towards the greater heat sourceâhim. You rolled in his arms, your back now to the room, your front now pressed flush against his chest.
Your head nestled perfectly into the hollow of his neck, your face turned into his chest. One of your arms slid around his waist, your hand coming to rest sleepily on the small of his back. His arm that was under your neck curled around you, cradling your head, his fingers threading into your hair. His other arm remained locked around your waist, holding you close.
The new alignment was pure, unconscious torture.
Your thigh slid between his, and in the same motion, the soft, warm juncture of your thighsâcovered only by the thin, dampened silk of your pantiesâcame to rest directly against the hard, straining outline of his cock, trapped in his sweats. They weren't just close; they were flush. The swollen heat of your pussy pressed right against the aching length of him, separated by two pathetic, insubstantial layers of fabric.
You let out a soft, sleepy murmur of contentment and nuzzled deeper into his chest, your body completely relaxed, completely trusting, completely asleep.
He froze.
A choked, strangled sound was ripped from his throat. Every muscle in his body went wire-tight. His breath hitched, then stopped altogether.
The feeling was⌠catastrophic. The soft, giving warmth of you, right there. The faint, sweet scent of your arousal from earlier, still lingering on your skin and the silk, now directly under his nose. Your relaxed, trusting weight against him, offering the very thing he was whining for, yet making it utterly, maddeningly inaccessible.
âOh⌠fuck,â he gasped, the words trembling with agony.
His hips gave a tiny, involuntary jerk, a spasm of need. The rough fabric of his sweats scraped against your silk-covered clit. Even in your sleep, your body responded, a soft, breathy sigh ghosting across his chest, your pussy pressing unconsciously a fraction closer.
He saw stars. A high, desperate whine built in his chest. âNo⌠no, baby, donât⌠donât move, please, Iâm begging youâŚâ
But you were asleep. You couldn't hear him. Your body, seeking comfort, shifted again, your leg hiking up slightly over his hip, opening yourself further, pressing the heart of you even more firmly against the rigid line of his erection.
It was the most exquisite, most devastating friction imaginable. He could feel every detailâthe soft swell of your lips, the damp heat seeping through the silk, the way your body yielded perfectly to his shape. He was surrounded by you, enveloped in the scent and feel of you, with the object of his desperate need right there, right there, and he could do nothing but feel it.
Tears of frustration pricked his eyes. His forehead dropped to your hair. âI canât⌠I canât take it,â he whimpered, his voice shattered. âYouâre gonna kill me. Youâre gonna make me come in my fucking pants like a teenager.â His body was trembling violently with the effort of holding still, of not grinding up against that perfect, sleeping warmth. Pre-cum soaked the front of his sweats, adding a new layer of damp, slick sensation to the torture.
He was panting, short, ragged breaths. âI need you⌠I need you so much itâs burning me up⌠right there⌠youâre right thereâŚâ He pressed a frantic, open-mouthed kiss to your hair. âGod, you have no idea⌠the willpower itâs taking⌠not to just⌠fuckâŚâ
He held you, trembling, achingly hard, pressed against the sleeping paradise of your body, riding the razorâs edge of his own control, whispered pleas and whines falling from his lips into the dark. The surprise wasn't that he didn't come; it was that he managed to withstand the sweet, silent agony of it for even a second longer.
That second stretched into an eternity of torment. He held himself rigid, a statue of desperate restraint, his jaw clenched so tight it ached. He focused on the rhythm of your breathing, on the soft flutter of your eyelashes against his chest, on anything but the devastating, soft heat pressed against his throbbing cock.
But his body was a traitor. A fresh, helpless roll of his hips betrayed himâa tiny, seeking grind against your sleeping form. The friction was a lightning bolt up his spine.
A ragged, punched-out gasp escaped him. "Nghâfuckâ"
It was the tipping point. The dam broke.
His control shattered not with a bang, but with a series of soft, helpless whimpers. His hips began to move in tiny, frantic circles, chasing the maddening, insufficient friction of fabric on fabric. The wet silk of your panties, the damp cotton of his sweatsâit was a poor substitute, but it was all he had, and his starved, overheated body took it greedily.
"Baby⌠oh god, baby, I'm sorry⌠I'm so sorryâŚ" he chanted, his voice a broken whisper against your hair, even as his movements grew more urgent. He was apologizing to your sleeping self, ashamed and utterly unable to stop.
The climax, when it hit, was quiet, intense, and overwhelmingly pathetic. It wasn't the roaring release of being inside you. It was a choked-off sob, a full-body shudder that locked his muscles taut. He buried his face in your hair to muffle the pained, pleasure-soaked cry as he spilled into his sweats, hot pulses of release soaking through the fabric, creating a damp, sticky patch right against the cradle of your hip.
For a long moment, he just lay there, trembling, horrified, and absurdly, shamefully satisfied. The sharp, familiar scent of his own release mixed with your sweet sleep-scent in the air.
Reality crashed in, cold and sticky.
He was lying in a mess of his own making, pressed against his peacefully sleeping girlfriend. A wave of hot, flustered humiliation washed over him.
With immense, careful effort, he began to extricate himself. He slid his arm from under your head, replacing it gently with a pillow. He peeled his other arm from around your waist, your own arm falling limply back to the mattress. You sighed in your sleep, turning slightly onto your back, now blissfully unaware of the damp, guilty disaster beside you.
He slipped out of bed, wincing as the cold, sticky fabric clung to his skin. He stood in the dim room, looking down at youâangelic, untroubledâand then at the obvious, damp patch on the front of his grey sweats. He ran a hand over his face, a low, disbelieving laugh escaping him. He was Christopher Bang, and he'd just come in his pants like a teenager from grinding against his sleeping girlfriend.
Shaking his head, he padded silently to the bathroom. The clean-up was swift, efficient, and filled with more of those soft, self-deprecating chuckles. He tossed the soiled sweats into the hamper, washed up, and pulled on a fresh, clean pair of black boxer-briefs.
When he slid back into bed, he was careful not to touch you with his cool, clean skin. He lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, the events of the last twenty minutes replaying in his head with a mix of profound embarrassment and a deep, satiated warmth. Eventually, a slow, crooked smile touched his lips. He turned his head to look at your sleeping profile.
"Worth it," he whispered into the dark, his voice full of awe and defeat. Wrapping himself around your sleeping form again, then he finally closed his eyes, the scent of you, and the memory of his own shocking lack of control, lulling him into a deep, contented sleep.
Sleeping Beauty â Bangchan
Summary â Arriving home overwhelmed by an all-consuming need, Chan crawls into bed with you, seeking desperate, quiet comfort in the middle of the nightâstruggling against his own restraint as his needy confessions and soft grinding bring him to a razor-thin edge.
Pairing â Chan x Reader
Genre â Domestic Fluff, Smut, Overstimulation, Sleepy Intimacy, Sensory/Verbal Praise, Interactive/Branching Story (Pick Your Ending)
Cw/tags â Sleepy sex/somnophilia elements (consensual/established), whining/crying kink(?), begging, praise kink, grinding/dry humping, Creampie (Ending B), accidental release/pant-spilling (Ending A), skin scent, emotional vulnerability, dirty talk, interactive ending.
Word count â 743 words (Main Post)
A/n â hi guysss so this is a 200 followers special thank you guys SOOOOO much for all of the support on almost every post I love you alll đđđđ so this is kind of an interactive kind of story where at the end of the post would be two options on how you want to continue it and they are going to be linked and highlighted!!! I donât know if anyone did this before honestly but if anyone does know or read something like this please tell me about it i want to check it out!!!! I did this because I kind of couldnât choose on how to end it so made it two options
The bed dipped, the cool scent of his clean skin and mint toothpaste cutting through the warm, sleepy fog you were wrapped in. You were deep under, consciousness a distant shore, your body heavy and pliant with true sleep.
He slid in behind you, his movements careful, trying not to jostle you. The heat of his freshly showered body was a brand against your back. He settled into the spoon, his chest flush against your spine, his legs curling to fit behind yours. One arm slid beneath your neck, the other wrapped possessively around your waist, his hand splaying over your lower belly, pulling you tight against him.
You murmured something unintelligible, shifting slightly in his hold, but didn't wake.
He buried his face in the back of your neck, right where your hairline met your skin. He inhaled deeply, a long, shuddering drag of breath that filled his lungs with the scent of your sleep-warm skin, your shampoo, the unique, comforting essence that was purely you. A soft, almost pained sound escaped himâa sigh of homecoming, of desperate relief.
His lips found the sensitive skin of your neck. Not a passionate kiss, but a series of soft, lingering presses. He kissed the knob of your spine, the slope of your shoulder, each touch feather-light and reverent, as if apologizing for his own need.
And he was needy. You could feel it even in your sleep. The hard, insistent length of him was pressed snugly against the curve of your ass, trapped between his body and yours. He was already half-hard, just from holding you, from breathing you in.
He nuzzled deeper, his nose in your hair, his breath hot and shaky against your scalp. His hips gave the faintest, most subtle rollânot a thrust, but a helpless, grinding press into the softness of your backside. A low, stifled groan vibrated against your neck.
A quiet, pathetic whine followed, so soft it was almost just a breath. "MmmhâŚ"
He did it again. A little less subtle this time. A slow, seeking rock of his pelvis, the hard ridge of his cock dragging against the thin fabric of your panties and his own sweats. Another whine, this one more distinct, tinged with frustration. "Nngh⌠babyâŚ"
He was chasing sensation, seeking comfort in your form, his body moving with a sleepy, instinctual hunger, his voice a quiet, broken counterpoint.
His arm around your waist tightened, his hand flexing against your stomach. His lips parted against your shoulder. "Need youâŚ" he whispered, the words a raw, sleep-thickened confession into your skin. He knew you couldn't hear him. That was the point. "Missed you⌠need you so muchâŚ"
Another slow, needy grind, this one with a bit more intention, a bit more ache behind it. He was fully hard now, the pressure against you unmistakable and urgent. A sharper, more pleading whine escaped him, muffled against your skin. "F-feels⌠too good⌠can'tâŚ"
He was riding the line between taking his own solace and waking you, torn between his desperate want and his desire to let you rest. Every slight movement, every quiet sound, was a testament to a need so profound it couldn't be contained even in the sanctity of your sleep.
He pressed his forehead between your shoulder blades, his whole body tense with the effort of holding back, of keeping his movements to these gentle, nocturnal worship, even as his quiet, desperate whines betrayed the war he was losing. He was a live wire of quiet desire wrapped around your sleeping form, finding his solace in the mere proximity, in the scent and the feel of you, and in the soft, helpless sounds he couldn't stop making.
The quiet whines became a continuous, soft soundtrack to the night. Each subtle grind of his hips against your ass drew another one out of himâa high, needy little sound that was pure, unfiltered want.
âAngelâŚâ he breathed into the nape of your neck, the word trembling. His hand on your stomach slid lower, just an inch, his fingertips brushing the lace edge of your panties. A full-body shudder wracked him. âGod, you have no idea⌠no idea how much I need you.â
He wasnât just talking about sex in that moment. The confession was wider, deeper. It spilled out in ragged whispers between kisses on your shoulder.
âI need you like I need air. Like I need the fucking beat in a track.â A slow, aching roll of his hips, the hard line of his cock straining against his sweats, seeking the heat of you through the layers. A whine caught in his throat. âMânothing without you. Just⌠noise. Empty noise.â
His nose pressed against your hair, inhaling like a man dying of thirst. âI came home and you were here⌠sleeping⌠perfect. And it wrecked me.â His voice broke on the last word. âJust the sight of you. I tried to be quiet. I tried to just hold you. But I canât⌠I canât ever get close enough.â
His movements became less subtle, more a consistent, gentle rocking, his body seeking a friction it couldnât quite get. His whines grew more frequent, more strained.
âNeed to be inside you,â he confessed, the words hot and damp against your skin. âNeed to feel you around me. Need to wake up with you on my tongue. Need to make you come so I can taste it⌠fuckâŚâ He bit back a louder groan, his teeth grazing your shoulder lightly. âIâm a fucking addict. Youâre my drug. My only drug.â
His hand slid back up to splay over your ribs, holding you as close as physically possible, as if he could fuse you together through sheer force of need. âIâm so hungry for you. All the time. It never stops. Even when Iâm full of you, Iâm starving for more.â He punctuated the sentence with a slightly harder press of his hips, a soft, desperate cry leaving his lips. âSee? Itâs a sickness. Youâre my beautiful, perfect sickness.â
He was lost in it, in the confession and the sensation, talking to your sleeping self as if it were the most sacred confessional.
âPlease,â he whimpered, the word so quiet it was almost inaudible, yet soaked in utter desperation. âPlease, baby. I need you. I need you so much it hurts.â His rhythm stuttered, his body trembling against yours. He was so wound up, so overcome with this late-night, lonely yearning that even this gentle, frustrated grinding against you was bringing him perilously close to the edge.
He buried his face completely, his next words muffled and thick with emotion. âI donât know how to exist without needing you. I donât want to know. Just⌠let me need you. Forever. Let me be like this. Always.â
He stilled then, holding you tightly, his frantic whispers dissolving into shaky, heated breaths against your neck, his hard-on a persistent, aching plea against your backside, his entire being a silent, throbbing prayer of devotion and desperate, unfulfilled want.
Ending A â He stays quiet and ends up spilling in his own pants while you sleep.
Ending B â You stir awake half-conscious, comfort him, and let him take his time with you.

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Drunk And Desperate â Bangchan
smut no plot
Summary â Arriving home cold, drunk, and utterly undone, Chan collapses into your arms in a state of emotional and physical desperation, surrendering all control as you take charge and guide him through a slow, commanding, and overwhelming sex.
Pairing â Sub!Chan x Dom!Reader
Genre â Smut (PWP), Femdom, Drunk (Consensual/Established), Emotional/Sombre Heat, Power Dynamics
Cw/tags â Drunk sex (established relationship), submissive Chan, whining/crying kink, desperation, begging kink, praise, riding/straddling, messy/sloppy kissing, unprotected sex, piv, creampie, passing out after/exhaustion.
Word count â 1.6k words
A/n â a 200 followers coming soon!!! THANK YOUUUU guys SOOOOO muchhh for all of the love and support i love you allll đđđ and itâs going to be âpick your endingâ type of fic where you will read it regularly but at there will be two ways at the end of how you want to continue the fic and I would link them at the end when itâs time to choose your ending and yes it will be nsfw đ¤đ¤đ¤ also blond chan came to end đĽ˛đĽ˛đĽ˛ but Iâm LOVINGG the red hair!!!!
The knock at the door isn't firm. It's a clumsy, uneven thud-thud-thud.
You open it to find him leaning heavily against the frame, his manager and another member holding him up under each arm. His head lolls, then lifts. His eyes find you, glassy and unfocused, but with a startling, raw intensity burning behind the haze.
"Here she is," his manager says, voice strained with the effort. "Your home, Chris. We got him back safe."
They practically pour him through the doorway. He stumbles, catching himself on the wall, his coat hanging off one shoulder. The door clicks shut behind his friends, leaving you in the quiet foyer with him.
He sways, blinking slowly. The scent of expensive whiskey and night air clings to him. His cheeks are flushed a deep pink, his hair a mess. He looks⌠young. And utterly lost.
His gaze finally locks onto you, and his lower lip trembles. Not with sadness. With a need so profound it seems to physically pain him.
"You're here," he slurs, the words thick. He pushes off the wall and stumbles forward, his hands coming up to clumsily frame your face. They're ice-cold. "You're really here."
"I'm here," you say softly, steadying him.
A shudder runs through his whole body. "I'm cold," he whines, his voice pitching high, childlike in its distress. He presses his entire body against yours, burying his face in your neck. He is cold, his skin chilled from the night, but underneath, you can feel the frantic, feverish heat of him. And pressed insistently against your thigh, through his trousers, is the unmistakable, rigid proof of his other, more urgent state.
"Chris, let's get you to bed."
"No," he mumbles into your skin, his arms locking around you in a vise-like, clumsy grip. "Not yet. Need you. Please."
He grinds himself against your leg, a slow, desperate circle, seeking friction. A broken, needy sound escapes him. "Feel what you do to me? Even when I'm⌠like this. Always you. Only you."
He pulls back just enough to look at you, his eyes swimming with alcohol and pure, unadulterated want. Tears well, magnified by his drunkenness. "Please don't say no," he whispers, his voice cracking. "Don't say no when I'm drunk and emotional and I just⌠I just need you so much it hurts."
He's a masterpiece of pathetic desperation. His usual sharp control is dissolved, leaving only this raw, whining id. He nuzzles your cheek, his lips searching clumsily for yours. "My hand's so cold," he murmurs against your mouth. "Wanna feel you. Warm me up. Please. Just let me touch you. Anywhere. Your hand. Your thigh. Just⌠something."
He takes your handâthe one not holding him upâand guides it down, pressing your palm flat against the hard ridge in his pants. He moans, his hips jerking into your touch. "See? See how much I need you? It's aching. Please, baby. Please help me. I'll be good, I promise. I'll be so good."
He's babbling now, a continuous stream of pleas as he grinds himself against your trapped hand. "I thought about you all dinner. Couldn't think. Couldn't talk. Just wanted to come home. To you. Need to be inside you. Need to feel you. Please don't make me wait. I can't⌠I can't take it."
He's crying in earnest now, hot tears mixing with the alcohol flush on his cheeks. He's a complete, beautiful messâpowerless, exposed, and begging you for the only solace he recognizes. All his walls are down. There is only the cold, the hardness, and the overwhelming, whining need for you to fix it.
The sound of his ragged pleas, the feel of him hard and desperate against your palm through the fine wool of his trousers, the sight of his tearsâit ignites a fire in your belly so fierce it steals your breath. Power, sweet and heady, floods your veins. This is yours. He is yours.
You don't give in. Not yet.
With a firmness that makes him whimper, you remove your hand from his groin. He makes a sound of pure loss, his hips chasing the vanished touch.
"Shhh," you command, your voice low and steady, a stark contrast to his shattered one. You take his icy face in both your hands, forcing his glazed, tear-filled eyes to focus on yours. "You're a mess."
"I know," he slobbers, nuzzling pathetically into your palms. "Your mess. Please, fix me. Warm me up."
"Then you do exactly as I say," you murmur, your thumb stroking his wet cheek. "No arguing. No rushing. Understood?"
He nods frantically, a desperate, eager puppy. "Yes. Anything. Anything you want."
You lead him, stumbling, to the bedroom. He clings to you, his cold hands fumbling at your clothes, your skin, seeking any anchor. You push him down to sit on the edge of the bed. He looks up at you, utterly pliant, waiting for instruction.
"Take off your coat."
His fingers are clumsy, numb with cold and drink. He struggles with the buttons. A frustrated, whimpering sound escapes him. "Can't⌠my hands won't work."
"Then let me."
You step between his spread knees and slowly, deliberately, undo each button. You peel the cold, damp wool from his shoulders and let it fall to the floor. His shirt is next. You pull it over his head, revealing the smooth, flushed skin of his chest and stomach. He shivers violently, but his eyes are locked on you, burning with need.
"You're so cold everywhere," you observe, your hands skating over his shoulders, down his arms. "Except here." Your palm rests flat on his lower abdomen, just above the straining waistband of his trousers.
He moans, his head falling forward to rest against your stomach. "You⌠you feel so good. So warm. Please, more."
You hook your fingers in his belt loops. "Stand up."
He obeys, swaying. You make quick work of his belt, his button, his zipper. His trousers and boxers pool at his feet. He stands before you, completely exposed, shivering in the cool room air, achingly erect. A pathetic, beautiful offering.
"Lie down."
He collapses backward onto the bed, his limbs sprawling bonelessly. His eyes never leave you as you undress with a slow, deliberate grace he can't currently muster. When you're bare, you crawl onto the bed, straddling his thighs, but not touching him where he needs it most.
He's breathing in shallow, frantic pants. "Please⌠please, I can't wait anymore. It hurts. I need you on me, inside of you, something."
You lean over him, your hair curtaining his face, your breasts just under his mouth. "What do you need, Chris?" you whisper, the embodiment of calm to his storm.
"Y-you," he stammers, his eyes darting from your eyes to your chest. "Your skin. Your mouth. Everything. Please, let me taste you. Let me feel you."
You lower yourself slowly, letting your nipples brush his lips. He opens his mouth with a desperate gasp, taking one in, sucking greedily, his tongue laving the peak. The sensation is electric, shooting straight to your core. He's voracious, needy, worshipful all at once, switching between them with hungry little whines.
While his mouth is occupied, you reach down and finally wrap your hand around him. He cries out around your breast, his hips bucking off the mattress. He's slick at the tip, painfully hard, throbbing in your grip.
"You're dripping for me," you say, your voice husky with your own arousal. "Such a needy boy."
He releases your breast with a wet pop, panting. "I am. I'm your needy boy. Please, just⌠use me. Let me come. I'll do anything, I'll be so good, just let meâ"
You silence him by shifting forward, positioning him at your entrance. You hover there, making him feel the heat and promise, denying him the plunge.
His hands fly up to grip your hips, his blunt nails digging in. "Now! Please, now, please!"
You look down into his wild, desperate, tear-streaked face. You own every shred of this moment. Every shudder, every sob, every pulse of his desperate need.
And with a slow, controlled smile, you finally sink down, taking him into the welcoming, tight heat of your body in one excruciatingly slow, continuous motion.
The sound he makes is one of pure, unadulterated salvation.
You donât move. You let him feel the full, devastating reality of being buried in your heat after so much desperate anticipation.
A broken sob rattles out of him. His hands scramble up your back, clutching at you, but they don't pull you down. Instead, they cup your face, dragging you toward his mouth with a clumsy, starving urgency.
His lips find yours in a messy, off-center collision. He doesn't kiss you; he devours. It's all wet, open-mouthed desperation, his tongue pushing past your lips immediately, seeking, claiming. It tastes like whiskey and salt and pure, unadulterated need.
You let him for a moment, let him lose himself in the frantic slide, then you pull back, just an inch.
A wounded, high-pitched noise escapes him. His lips chase yours, blindly, pathetically. "No, no, come back, pleaseâ"
You don't let him recapture you. You dive back in, this time you spear your tongue into hismouth, claiming the territory he was so desperately trying to claim. He moans, a vibration against your tongue, his body going pliant beneath you, accepting the invasion with a shudder of relief. His hands tangle in your hair, holding you there, as if you might vanish.
It becomes a sloppy, breathless war. Every time you part for air, he whimpers and lunges forward, his tongue licking into your mouth before you can even inhale. You push him back, shove your own back in, dominating the kiss as thoroughly as you're dominating his body. It's wet, it's noisy, it's completely devoid of finesse. It's perfect.
Between these gasping, messy collisions, you finally begin to move, a slow, deep roll of your hips that makes him cry out into your mouth.
"Angel," he slurs against your lips, the word thick and reverent. "My angel, feels so good, you're heaven, pleaseâŚ"
You set a deliberate, grinding pace. He breaks the kiss to throw his head back and sob, but you capture his mouth again, swallowing his cries, your tongue tangling with his as you ride him deeper.
"Look at you," you pant, tearing your mouth free only to have his desperately chase after it. You let him catch you for a second, suck on your lower lip, then pull back again, watching his bleary, lust-drunk eyes try to focus. "My famous Chris Bang. Reduced to a whining, begging mess. Canât even last."
The taunt pushes him over. He surges up, capturing your lips in a final, searing, chaotic kiss, his tongue thrusting deep as his hips stutter beneath you. "Iâm sorry! âM sorry, âm so pathetic for you, angel, I know, just⌠please!"
Itâs the raw, unfiltered need in that final word, breathed into your mouth, that does it. Your own control snaps.
"Come," you gasp against his lips, the command shared in the hot space between your mouths as your orgasm hits, clenching you around him.
He obeys with a shattered groan you drink straight from his throat. His release is a hot flood inside you, his kisses dissolving into helpless, open-mouthed pants against your cheek, your jaw, wherever his lips can reach as he shakes apart.
When he finally stills, spent and ruined, he nuzzles blindly, his lips finding yours again in a soft, exhausted, perpetually-seeking brush. A final, whiny mumble passes from his mouth to yours.
"Love you, angel⌠all yours⌠such a mess for youâŚ"
Then he's out, collapsing into unconsciousness, his lips parted against your shoulder, still seeking even in sleep. A perfect, pathetic, kissed-bruised testament to your absolute rule.
Pussy-Drunk â Bangchan
Smut no plot
Summary â Driven completely out of his mind by the taste of you, Chanâs relentless worship pushes you past the brink of overstimulationâuntil he begs you take complete control after finally being inside of you, pinning him down and riding him to oblivion.
Pairing â Sub!Chan x Dom!Reader
Genre â Smut (PWP), Femdom, Overstimulation, Edging / Praise, Power Dynamics
Cw/tags â Oral (f! Receiving), extreme overstimulation, hair pulling, begging kink, pussy worship, sub Chan, riding/straddling, piv, unprotected sex, creampie, multiple orgasms, dirty talk.
Word count â 2.3k words
He was lost. Utterly, completely lost in the taste of you.
It had started with his head between your thighs, his hands gripping your hips to hold you still. But that control had slipped, minute by minute, as heâd drowned in you. His movements had gone from skilled and deliberate to something frantic, worshipful, needy. His tongue was a flat, relentless pressure on your clit, his lips sucking, his nose buried against you as he breathed you in like you were his only source of oxygen.
You came with a sharp, sobbing cry, your back bowing off the bed, your fingers clawing at the sheets. The orgasm was a bright, shattering wave that left you trembling and spent.
But he didnât stop.
The sensitive, throbbing flesh was met with the same relentless, wet heat of his mouth. A jolt, electric and almost painful, shot through you.
âChris⌠ah! Stop, baby, I came⌠itâs too muchâŚâ you gasped, your voice thin and reedy.
He made a low, hungry sound against you, a vibration that went straight to your oversensitive core. His tongue circled again, softer but no less insistent. The pleasure was tipping over into a sharp, unbearable sensitivity, a raw-edged overload that made you flinch.
âStop,â you pleaded, a real whine of overstimulation lacing your voice. You pushed weakly at his head. âPlease, itâs too much⌠Chris!â
He was in a trance. His only response was to slide his hands under your ass, tilting you up, giving himself deeper access, his tongue delving inside you now, fucking you with it in slow, languid strokes even as you shuddered and tried to close your legs. The sensation was excruciatingly intense, a dizzying mix of residual pleasure and acute sensitivity that bordered on pain.
âChris!â you cried out, your patience snapping. You tangled both hands in his dark hair, not in passion, but in a firm, pulling grip. You draggedhis head back, up, away from the tortured, glistening heat of you.
He came up with a wet, ragged gasp, his eyes flying open. They were glazed, unfocused, pupils blown wide. His lips and chin were a slick, shining mess of your arousal. He looked utterly debauched, a man pulled from his only purpose. He blinked, dazed, as if waking from a deep sleep, his chest heaving.
For a second, he just stared at your hand fisted in his hair, then his clouded eyes lifted to yours. And the need in them was raw, animal, desperate.
âNoâŚâ he slurred, his voice a hoarse, wrecked thing. He tried to lean forward again, but you held him fast by the hair. A low, pathetic whine escaped his throat. âBaby⌠please⌠let me go back. I need it.â
âYouâre making me crazy,â you breathed, your own body still humming with the painful echo of sensation.
âI know,â he panted, his tongue darting out to lick his own lips, tasting you there. The action was obscene. âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry. I just⌠I canât stop. Itâs so good. You taste so fucking good. Let me have more. Just a little more. I need you on my tongue.â
He was begging. Christopher Bahng, on his knees, his face wet with you, begging like a man possessed.
âYouâre going to kill me,â you whispered, but your grip in his hair loosened, just a fraction.
He felt it. Hope flared in his dark, drunk eyes. âIâll be gentle,â he promised, the words tumbling out in a rush. âIâll be so good. Just let me taste you again. Please. I need to feel you come again. I need to drink it. Please.â
He was shameless, reduced to nothing but a single, all-consuming hunger. The sight of himâthe powerful lines of his body brought low, his commanding voice reduced to a whimper, his entire being focused on the apex of your thighsâwas the most potent aphrodisiac youâd ever known.
Your own resistance, fueled by overstimulation, crumbled under the weight of his absolute, pussy-drunk devotion.
Your fingers uncurled from his hair, sliding down to cup his jaw instead. A shudder of pure relief went through him.
âGently,â you warned, your voice barely a whisper.
A slow, blissful smile spread across his wet, messy mouth. âGently,â he echoed, a vow.
He lowered his head back between your thighs, and this time, his touch was a soft, reverent flutter of his tongue, a world away from the frantic devouring of before. But the hunger in his eyes, when they flicked up to meet yours, was just as deep.
He kept his promise. For about thirty seconds.
His tongue was a soft, lapping wave at first, a gentle re-acquaintance with the swollen, hypersensitive flesh heâd just ravaged. He kissed your inner thighs, his breaths hot and shaky against your skin. It was an apology in touch. A worshipful preamble.
But the taste of you, the feel of you trembling under his mouth, the scent of your arousal mixed with his own breathâit was a siren song his pussy-drunk mind couldnât resist for long.
The soft laps grew longer, more deliberate. The tip of his tongue began to trace slow, firm circles around your clit, which was still so sensitive the touch made you jump and gasp. A low, approving hum vibrated from his chest into your core.
âShhh, Iâve got you,â he mumbled against you, the words slurred and wet. âJust⌠just let meâŚâ
His âgentleâ was rapidly unspooling. The circles tightened. The pressure increased. He was chasing the echo of your first climax, hungry for the shape of your second one, his earlier frenzy simmering just beneath the surface of his forced control. One of his hands slid under your ass again, his fingers digging in possessively, tilting you up to meet his mouth as his tongue began to fuck into you in earnest, shallow, rapid strokes.
The overstimulation came roaring back, a bright, sharp wire of sensation that was no longer purely pleasure. It was too much, too soon, a direct assault on your frazzled nerves.
âChrisâah!âease up, baby, I said gentle,â you moaned, your hips trying to twist away from the intensity.
He didnât ease up. If anything, the sound of your strained voice, the way your body tried to escape his mouth, seemed to spur him on. He made a desperate, greedy sound and sealed his lips over your clit, sucking firmly, his tongue flicking against the peak.
A cry, half-pleasure, half-distress, tore from your throat. The sensation was blinding, overwhelming, tipping into that painful edge again.
Your hand flew back to his hair, fisting the dark strands tightly. You didnât drag him away this time. You pulled. A sharp, unmistakable warning yank at the roots.
He froze instantly. A pained, frustrated grunt was muffled against your skin. His whole body went rigid between your thighs. For a long, suspended moment, the only sound was his ragged breathing and the pounding of your own heart.
Slowly, he lifted his head. His eyes were wild, glazed, swimming with a confused hurt, like a dog scolded while eating its favorite treat. His lips were parted, slick and swollen, his chin gleaming. He looked utterly wrecked and pathetically eager.
âYou⌠you pulled my hair,â he said, his voice a wrecked, accusatory whisper, as if this was the greatest betrayal.
âBecause you werenât listening,â you breathed out, your own body still throbbing from the assault. âIt was too much. I warned you.â
He blinked, the haze in his eyes clearing a fraction, replaced by a dawning, frantic comprehension. He hadnât meant to hurt you. Heâd just⌠gotten lost. The need to taste, to consume, to drown in you, had overridden every other signal in his brain.
A look of pure, desperate apology crumpled his features. He nuzzled his face against your inner thigh, his stubble scratching softly. âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry, angel. I just⌠I lose my mind here. Itâs so good. Youâre so good. Iâll be good. Iâll be so good. Just⌠donât make me stop. Please.â
He was begging again, but now it was laced with a fearâthe fear of being denied his sacrament. He pressed an open-mouthed, tender kiss to the skin his mouth had just abused. âSee? Gentle. I can be gentle. Let me show you.â
He looked up at you through his lashes, his expression one of utter, pussy-whipped devotion. He was a king brought to his knees, a maestro unstrung, all for the taste of you. And he was begging for permission to continue his worship, even if it had to be conducted under the threat of your hand in his hair.
The power of it, the sheer visual of him in this state, was an intoxicant stronger than any touch. You slowly relaxed your grip, letting your fingers card through his hair instead of clutching it.
A shudder of profound relief went through him. He didnât dive back in with the same frantic hunger. Instead, he placed a single, reverent kiss right over your clit, so soft it was barely a whisper of contact. A silent vow.
Then he began again, his tongue moving with a slow, torturous patience that was somehow more devastating than his frenzy had been. Every flick, every lap, was a question, his eyes constantly flicking up to yours, checking in, ensuring he was walking the perfect, razor-thin line between your pleasure and your pain. And your hand remained loosely woven in his hair, a silent promise and a ready warning, the delicate balance of control between you both as palpable as the wet, hot slide of his tongue.
The second climax didnât crash over you; he ushered it in, a gentle conductor guiding a symphony to its sweet, shattering finale. His tongue was a soft, persistent flutter, his lips kissing more than sucking, his hands stroking your trembling thighs in soothing circles. He watched your face, drinking in every twitch, every gasp, until you broke with a soft, continuous cry, your body bowing not in sharp agony but in a deep, melting release that left you liquid and boneless.
He gentled you through the aftershocks, his mouth softening to kitten-licks, until the last tremor faded. Then, finally, he pulled away.
He knelt back on his heels, his eyes closed, chest heaving. His face was a glistening, debauched masterpiece. He looked utterly spent, yet thrumming with a restless energy. He gave you that minute, the both of you breathing in the heavy, sex-scented air.
You floated back to yourself, the overwhelming sensitivity softening into a deep, hollow ache. A different need. A fuller one.
âChris,â you whispered, your voice smoke and silk.
His eyes opened, dark and focused solely on you.
âI need you inside me,â you breathed. âNow.â
A slow, wicked grin touched his wet lips. He leaned forward, placing soft, open-mouthed kisses along your inner thighs. Then he pressed the lightest, most reverent kisses over your spent, sensitive pussy, making you shiver. âYour wish,â he murmured against your skin, âis my command.â
He stood in one fluid motion, his hands going to the waistband of his sweatpants. He didnât slide them off; he shoved them down and off in one impatient movement, kicking them aside. He was already hardâachingly, impressively so, the length of him jutting out, flushed and eager.
He settled over you, his weight a welcome anchor. He grinned down at you, a feral, possessive thing, and before lining himself up, he rubbed the head of his cock through your soaked folds, coating himself in your slickness with a slow, deliberate grind that made you gasp. âGetting myself wet with you,â he groaned, the sound raw.
Then his lips crashed down onto yours.
The taste was explosiveâyour own essence, salty-sweet and musky, mixed with the unique flavor of him. It was the most intimate kiss youâd ever shared. You moaned into his mouth, and he swallowed the sound, his tongue sweeping in to explore, to claim this territory too. As he kissed you, he rocked his hips, the hard length of him grinding against your oversensitive clit with each movement, the dual sensation of his tongue in your mouth and the friction below making you writhe.
You felt the blunt, wet head of him nudge at your entrance. He broke the kiss with a sharp gasp, his forehead coming to rest against yours, his eyes squeezed shut.
âFuck⌠angelâŚâ he breathed, and pushed.
The initial stretch was profound, a filling so complete it stole the air from your lungs. He moaned, a loud, broken sound that seemed ripped from his soul, and the vibration of it made your inner walls clench around the invading tip, which pulled a ragged groan from him and dragged him an inch deeper.
âOh, god, donât⌠donât squeeze yet, baby, I canâtâŚâ he pleaded, his voice trembling. He pushed again, slowly, inexorably, the thick, slick length of him sinking into the hot, clutching wetness heâd created. His forehead stayed pressed to yours, his breath mingling with yours in ragged pants, until he was finally, fully sheathed, buried to the hilt.
He didnât move. He just stayed there, impaled on each other, feeling the incredible, tight heat of you pulsing around him. You could feel him throbbing inside you.
When he finally tried to move, it was a slow, experimental thrust. Then another. But on the third, his rhythm faltered. A sharp, overwhelmed gasp hit your cheek. His entire body shuddered.
His head dropped heavily onto your shoulder, his face buried in the crook of your neck. His hips gave a feeble, aborted grind before stilling completely. A high, needy whine escaped him, muffled against your skin.
âSweetheart⌠fuck⌠shit,â he panted, his voice strangled. âItâs too much. Youâre too much. You feel too fucking good.â
His hands clutched at your back. âI canât⌠I canât move. Itâs gonna kill me. Iâm gonna come if I move. Youâre so tight and wet and perfect and Iâm so fucking gone for youâŚâ He was babbling, utterly overcome. The maestro of control was reduced to a shuddering, overwhelmed mess by the very paradise heâd orchestrated.
He lifted his head just enough to look at you, his eyes glassy with desperate pleasure. âPlease, baby,â he begged, his voice a wrecked whisper. âYou do it. Ride me. Please. I need to watch you take your pleasure from me. I need to see your face when you milk my cock. I canât⌠I canât think. I canât move. Just⌠use me. Please.â
He was handing you the reins, completely surrendered, begging you to take your own pleasure from his helpless, aching body. The power shift was absolute, and it was the most erotic thing youâd ever experienced.
A slow, powerful thrill shot through you, hotter than any of his touches. To see him like thisâthe man of impossible control, brought to a trembling, begging ruin by the mere feeling of being inside youâit was a headier drug than any orgasm.
You didn't hesitate.
With a strength that came from a deep, possessive well, you planted your hands on his chest and pushed. He went willingly, collapsing onto his back against the rumpled sheets, his arms falling to his sides, his chest heaving. His cock, slick and glistening with both of you, stood straight up from his body, a rigid, aching testament to his desperation.
You straddled him, your knees sinking into the mattress on either side of his hips. You looked down at him, at the wrecked, awed expression on his face, his lips still swollen and wet from your taste, his eyes dark pools of pleading need.
"You're so pretty like this," you murmured, your voice low and thick with your own desire. "All laid out for me. Helpless."
A shudder ran through him. "Yours," he breathed, the word a vow and a plea all at once. "All yours. Do it, angel. Take what you need."
You reached between your bodies, guiding him. The broad, velvety head of his cock nudged against your soaked entrance. You held his gaze as you began to sink down.
It was a slow, devastating descent. You took him inch by agonizing inch, feeling every ridge, every pulse of him as your body stretched to accommodate him anew. Your head fell back, a low moan dragging from your throat at the exquisite, filling stretch. From below, he watched, mesmerized, his lips parted, his breath catching as he disappeared inside you.
When you were fully seated, taking him to the hilt, you paused, letting both of you feel the overwhelming completeness of it. You were so full, so perfectly stretched. He felt engulfed, consumed.
"Fuck," he choked out, his hands coming up to grip your thighs, his fingers digging in. "You're⌠you're swallowing me whole."
Then you began to move.
You started slow, a gentle, rocking rise and fall, learning the angle, finding the rhythm that made stars burst behind your own eyelids. The friction was incredibleâthe drag of his cock along your inner walls, the way he hit that deep, perfect spot with every downward stroke. Your moans were soft, continuous music in the quiet room.
His control shattered completely. His head thrashed against the pillows. "Yes⌠just like that⌠oh my god, yesâŚ" His praise was a broken, rapturous stream. His hands slid from your thighs to your hips, not to guide you, but to feel the motion, to marvel at it. "Look at you⌠riding me so perfect⌠taking your pleasure from my cock⌠fuck, I'm nothing⌠I'm just a toy for youâŚ"
His words, filthy and submissive, spurred you on. You picked up the pace, your movements becoming more confident, more demanding. You leaned forward, bracing your hands on his chest, changing the angle so his cock ground directly against your clit on every downstroke. A sharp, guttural cry was torn from you.
The sound undid him. His eyes rolled back. "There! Right there! Make yourself come, baby, use me, milk me, I'm yours, I'm all yours, do it, pleaseâŚ"
You were a goddess atop him, claiming your tribute. The coil in your belly wound impossibly tight, fed by the sight of his utter surrender, the feel of his thick cock pistoning inside you, the filthy, worshipful litany falling from his lips. Your rhythm became frantic, slamming down onto him, the sound of skin on skin filling the room, mixed with your sobbing breaths and his choked, pleading groans.
"I'm gonna⌠Chris, I'm gonnaâŚ!"
"Now!" he roared, his own body bowing off the bed, his hands clutching your hips like a lifeline. "Come on my cock! Soak me! Now!"
The command, from a man who had given you all power, was the final trigger. Your orgasm detonated, a white-hot supernova of pleasure that clenched every muscle in your body. You cried out, a raw, unfiltered sound of pure ecstasy as your pussy convulsed around him in rhythmic, pulsing waves, milking him desperately.
The intense, fluttering suction was his end. With a cry that was half-sob, half-triumphant shout, his own release ripped through him. You felt the hot, urgent pulse of his cum flooding deep inside you, a final, wet surrender to your claiming. His body arched violently, then went completely limp, his hands falling from your hips as he was utterly spent.
You collapsed forward onto his chest, both of you slick with sweat, trembling, gasping for air in the aftermath. His arms came up weakly to wrap around you, holding you close. His heartbeat hammered against your ear, a frantic, slowing drum.
For a long time, there was only the sound of your shared, ragged breathing. Finally, he stirred, his lips brushing your sweat-damp hair.
"Best⌠ride⌠of my life," he slurred, his voice utterly wrecked, full of awe and satiation.
Mini Cockblocker â Bangchan
Summary â A quiet night after putting your three-month-old daughter to sleep turns electric when Chan's praise unlocks a primal wave of pent-up desire, leading to a breathless, interrupted, and ultimately explosive encounter under the stars.
Pairing â Husband!Chan x Wife!Reader
Genre â Smut, Domestic Fluff, Established Relationship, Postpartum Smut, Soft Aftercare
Cw/tags â Postpartum body positivity, raw sex, rough sex, outdoor sex, overstimulation(?), Chan call reader âMamaâ, tits appreciation (NOT kink context/nursing), creampie, piv, oral (f! Receiving), multiple orgasms, dirty talk, breeding/pregnancy(?) talk, hair pulling, living soft aftercare.
Word count â 2,055 words
A/n â Iâm genuinely INLOVE with this post
The house was finally quiet. The kind of deep, humming silence that felt earned, a precious commodity wrestled from a day filled with gummy smiles, milky burps, and the soft, hiccuping cries of a tiny human who owned you completely. Auroraâthree perfect months old, with his eyes and your smileâwas finally asleep in her crib, a peaceful angel under the mobile of stars.
You stood in the doorway of the nursery for a long moment, just watching the gentle rise and fall of her chest. Then, with a final, loving look, you stepped back, pulling the door until it was just a crack open.
The long white silk robe hung open around you like a ghost, untied. Beneath it, you wore only a simple black tank top with thin strapsâno bra, because your body was yours again, and you were reveling in the feeling of soft cotton against sensitive skinâand a pair of loose black sleep shorts that rode high on your thighs. You padded barefoot across the cool hardwood, the baby monitor clutched in your hand like a talisman.
You felt⌠like yourself. Not just a vessel, not just a source of sustenance and comfort, but a woman. Your body, though changed, was familiar territory againâstronger in some places, softer in others, a living map of the miracle youâd created. And Chris⌠Chris had never stopped making you feel like a goddess. His hands, his lips, his whispered words had traced every new curve and line with reverence, reminding you daily that you were more beautiful to him now than ever before.
But lately⌠there was a new word in his arsenal. A single syllable that detonated low in your belly every time he used it in that tone.
Mama.
It wasn't just a title anymore. On his lips, in the dark, it was an incantation. Filthy. Worshipful. Possessive. And it did things to you.
You found him outside on the expansive patio, lit by the soft glow of underwater pool lights and a sliver of moon. He was sprawled in one of the long, cushioned lounge chairs, shirt unbuttoned and hanging open, the screen of his phone casting a blue glow on the sharp planes of his face. The former idol, the CEO, now just a man decompressing after a long day, the quiet lap of the pool water the only sound.
You walked out, the night air warm and sweet with jasmine. You set the baby monitor gently on the glass table beside his chair. Then you sat down on the edge of the lounger directly across from him, tucking one leg beneath you.
He looked up, his thumb swiping his phone dark. His gaze was a physical touch, dragging slowly up your bare legs, lingering on the shadowed dip of your shorts, rising over the way the thin black tank top clung to the full curves of your breasts, clearly braless, the peaks of your nipples visible against the fabric. It traveled over the open robe framing you like wings, then finally met your eyes.
âSheâs asleep,â you said, your voice a low murmur in the quiet night.
For a long moment, he didn't speak. He just looked, his Adam's apple bobbing in a hard swallow. Heat, palpable and thick, seemed to radiate from him.
Then, his voice came out rough, strained. âYou look⌠dangerous tonight.â
A smirk tugged at your lips. You leaned back on your hands, arching your spine just a little. âItâs just a tank top and shorts, Chris.â
âNah,â he said, sitting up slowly, bracing his forearms on his knees. The movement made the muscles in his abdomen flex. âItâs the fact that youâre walking around out here like that. Braless. Barefoot. Robe open like youâre inviting the night in. Like you donât know what it does to me.â
A flush warmed your skin, but you held his gaze, emboldened by the hunger in his eyes. âWhat does it do to you, baby?â
His hand shot out, fingers hooking into the hem of your shorts, giving a gentle, possessive tug. âMakes me wanna fuck the mother of my child until she forgets how to say anything except âmama.ââ
Fuck.
The word was a lightning strike straight to your core. Your breath hitched, your thighs pressing together instinctively. Mama. He said it like a threat and a promise all at once, rough and reverent, and it unraveled you completely.
You didn't hesitate. You rose and moved to him, straddling his lap in one fluid motion, settling your weight onto him. The heat of you, through the thin shorts and his linen pants, met the hard, unmistakable ridge of his erection. You ground down slowly, deliberately.
He hissed, his hands flying to your hips to steady youâor maybe to hold you in place. âShit. No panties either?â
You smiled down at him, all innocence and sin. âJust because.â
A groan ripped from his throat. His hands slid down to grip your ass through the shorts, kneading firmly. Your robe slid off your shoulders, pooling around you on the chair. He didn't waste time. His mouth found your chest, kissing the swell of your breast through the dampening fabric of the tank top, then tugging the neckline down with his teeth. He laved his tongue over the exposed curve before closing his lips around your nipple, sucking deeply.
A sharp, quiet gasp escaped you. Your head fell back, your fingers tangling in his hair. The baby monitor on the table beside you glowed with a steady green light, a silent witness.
He pulled back, breathing harshly against your wet skin. âYou gave me a daughter,â he whispered, voice wrecked with awe and desire. âYou built a whole person inside this body. And youâre still out here trying to kill me with it, huh?â
You rocked your hips against him again, a slow, teasing grind that made him curse softly. âTold you Iâd bounce back.â
His eyes, when they met yours, were black pools of hunger, love, and something fiercerâa primal obsession that three months of careful, gentle love-making had only banked, not extinguished. He cupped your face, his thumb stroking your cheekbone.
âYou didn't bounce back, mama,â he breathed, the word a hot brand against your lips. âYou leveled up.â
Then his mouth was on yours, kissing you with a consuming passion that spoke of months of pent-up want. It was messy and deep, all tongue and teeth and shared breath. He stood suddenly, lifting you with him as if you weighed nothing, your legs wrapping around his waist. He carried you the few steps to the wide, plush outdoor sofa that faced the pool and the star-dusted sky.
He laid you down on the deep, plush cushions of the outdoor sofa, the fabric cool against your back. The night sky sprawled above, an endless velvet blanket pierced by indifferent stars. His hands weren't gentle now; they were claiming. He pushed your tank top up in one rough motion, baring your breasts to the warm, damp air. The thin straps dug into your shoulders.
He didn't kneel with reverence. He shoved your thighs apart with his knees dragging you shorts down your and threw them on the ground and dove between them like a man starved.
His mouth on your cunt was filthy, loud, and wet. No slow worship, just a hungry, open-mouthed devouring. He licked into you with broad, flat strokes, his nose buried against you, his groans vibrating against your clit. You cried out, your hands fisting in his hair, not to guide but to anchor yourself against the brutal, wonderful assault.
"Yeah, fucking taste that," he grunted, pulling back for a second, his lips and chin shining in the low light. "All for me. This sweet pussy, made my daughter, and it's still so fucking perfect." He dove back in, sucking your clit hard between his lips, his tongue flicking rapidly.
It was too much, too fast, and overwhelmingly good. Your orgasm ripped through you without ceremony, a sharp, clenching wave that made you sob his name into the night. He didn't gentle you through it; he fucked you through it with his tongue, drinking down every pulse until you were shaking and oversensitive, pushing weakly at his head.
He came up, breathing hard, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. His eyes were black, wild. "That's one," he panted. "Now for the main event."
He didn't bother undressing fully. He just shoved his pants and boxers down his hips, his cock springing free, thick and angrily red. He grabbed your hips, yanking you to the very edge of the couch cushions. He didn't ask. He lined up and slammed into you in one brutal, deep thrust.
The air left your lungs in a punched-out gasp. He was so deep, so hard, stretching you gloriously.
"Fuck, yes," he growled, his hands pinning your hips down. "Take it. Take all of it, mama. This cunt was made for my cock. Made my baby, now it's gonna milk me dry."
His pace was punishing from the start. Deep, rough, driving strokes that shook the entire sofa, the rhythmic slap of skin on skin echoing against the water. He leaned over you, one hand braced by your head, the other gripping your thigh, hiking it higher over his hip to plunge even deeper.
"Look at you," he rasped, his breath hot on your face. "Tits out, getting fucked stupid under the stars. My wife. The mother of my fucking child. And you're still the hottest thing I've ever seen."
His dirty talk was a continuous, gritty stream, painting a vivid, possessive picture. "You feel that? You feel how deep I own you? This is my pussy. Always has been. Now it's a fucking masterpiece." He shifted, angling his hips, and the next thrust nailed a spot that made you see white. "There. Right there. That's where I put my daughter. And now it's where I'm gonna put my cum."
You were a mess of pleading sounds, your nails scratching down his back, your legs trembling around him. The pleasure was a coiled, white-hot wire in your gut, pulled tighter with every filthy word and deep stroke.
He felt you clenching around him, your cries getting higher, more desperate. "You gonna come? You gonna come on this cock, mama? Do it. Soak me. Let me feel that tight little cunt squeeze me."
You were right there. The coil was at its breaking point, the world narrowing to the feel of him pounding into that perfect, deep spot, the sound of his ragged voice, the scent of sex and night jasmine.
"WahâŚ!"
A soft, thin wail, amplified by the monitor on the table beside you, sliced through the heavy air.
Both of you froze.
Chris was buried to the hilt, his body coiled like a spring. The cry came again, a little more awake, a little more distressed.
No. The thought was pure, primal denial. You were so close.
A tortured, guttural sound was ripped from Chris's throat. He didn't pull out. He dropped his forehead to your shoulder, his entire body trembling with the effort of holding still. "You have got to be fucking kidding me," he groaned, the words muffled against your skin.
The sensation was maddening. You were achingly full of him, your orgasm hovering just out of reach, a phantom limb of pleasure. Every tiny, instinctive clench of your body around his still-hard cock was pure agony.
He lifted his head, his expression a hilarious, devastating mix of utter frustration and profound love. He looked from your desperate face to the blinking monitor, then back to you.
With a final, sorrowful thrust, he slowly pulled out. The loss was physical pain. He collapsed onto the couch beside you, both of you breathing like youâd run a marathon, the interrupted energy buzzing in the space between you.
Another, more insistent cry came through the monitor.
Chris let out a long-suffering sigh that seemed to come from his soul. He reached over, his hand finding your inner thigh, giving it a rough, apologetic squeeze. "I swear to God, she has a sixth sense for this," he muttered, his voice gravelly with unmet need.
He sat up, pulling his pants back up with a wince. You stayed layed down on the sofa.
He stood, grabbed the monitor, and listened for a second. Then he looked down at you, your hair wild, lips swollen, the evidence of his mouth and his possession glistening on your inner thighs. His eyes darkened again, a promise gleaming in their depths.
He leaned down, capturing your mouth in a searing, possessive kiss. "This isn't over," he whispered against your lips, his voice a low, serious vow. "I'm gonna put her back down, and then I'm coming back out here, and I'm going to fuck you through that couch. Don't.move."
He pressed one last, hard kiss to your mouth, then turned and strode back into the house, towards the cries of his daughter, the CEO and the daddy seamlessly taking over from the feral, hungry man who had just been claiming his wife under the stars.
You sank back into the cushions, aching, throbbing, and smiling up at the uncaring sky.
the night air cooling the sweat on your skin. The ache between your thighs was a persistent, throbbing echo of what had been so brutally interrupted. You could still feel the ghost of him inside you, the stretch, the perfect, deep friction. Your body hummed with unfinished energy, a live wire waiting to be grounded.
From the baby monitor on the table, you heard it all.
The soft shush of his footsteps down the hall. The gentle creak of Auroraâs nursery door. Then, his voice, low and honey-sweet, a complete tonal shift from the guttural growls heâd been breathing into your neck just minutes before.
âHey, my little star. Whatâs all this fuss about? Hmm?â A soft rustleâlikely him picking her up. A tiny, hiccuping cry that slowly calmed to a gurgle. âYou just wanted to see your Daddy, didnât you? Missed me that much?â
You smiled into the darkness, your heart swelling even as your body ached.
Then, his voice dropped even lower, to a conspiratorial whisper you could barely catch. âYou know, youâve got your Daddyâs timing down perfect, little one. A real professional⌠cockblocker.â
You snorted, clapping a hand over your mouth to stifle the sudden, helpless laugh. He said it with such affectionate exasperation, such pure, joking warmth, that it was impossible to be annoyed.
You heard the soft, rhythmic sounds of him rocking her. A gentle humâa tune from one of her mobiles. The fussing died down completely, replaced by the soft, even sounds of her breathing returning to sleep. He was a maestro, even with this.
A few more minutes of quiet. The soft thump of her being laid back in the crib. The faint musical chime of the mobile being wound. His whispered, âSleep tight, my Aurora. Dream big.â
Then, his footsteps again, purposeful now, coming back down the hall. Not hurried, but with a definite, heavy intent. The patio door slid open.
He stepped back out into the night.
Heâd lost the shirt completely. It was just him, in his low-slung linen pants, his torso a sculpture of lean muscle painted in moonlight and shadow. His hair was slightly messier than before. His eyes found you immediately, and the look in them had shifted. The frustrated urgency was still there, but it had been refined by those few minutes of fatherly tenderness. It was sharper now. More focused. A hunter returning to his quarry, having calmly secured the perimeter.
He didnât speak. He just walked toward the sofa, his gaze locked on you. He picked up the baby monitor from the table, looked at the steady green light, and then, with a deliberate motion, turned the volume all the way down. He set it back on the table. The silent, blinking light was the only concession to the outside world.
âWhere were we?â he asked, his voice a dark, quiet rumble.
He came to the edge of the sofa. His hands were warm as they closed around your ankles, pulling you smoothly down the cushions until you were lying flat again.
âI believe,â he said, kneeling on the cushions and spreading your thighs with an undeniable authority, âI was about to make you come so hard youâd forget your own name.â
He didnât go down on you again. Heâd had his taste. Now he wanted the whole meal. He shoved his own pants down just enough, his cock springing back to full, impressive hardness. He was already leaking, the head glistening.
He didn't tease. He gripped his length, stroked himself once, smearing the pre-cum, and then notched himself at your entrance. His eyes held yours, a challenge and a promise.
âThis time,â he said, his voice low and deadly serious, âwe donât stop for anything less than an earthquake. Understood, mama?â
You could only nod, your breath coming in short pants.
He thrust home.
It was even deeper than before, as if the brief separation had only increased his desperate need to be sheathed inside you. A shared groan tore from both of you. He set a pace immediatelyânot the frantic, driving rhythm from before, but a deep, relentless, purposeful pounding. Each stroke was a claim, a reassertion. His hands pinned your hips down, holding you still for his onslaught.
âYou heard me, didnât you?â he grunted, his hips pistoning. âCalling our daughter a cockblocker.â
âYes,â you gasped, the word breaking on a particularly deep thrust.
He leaned down, his mouth hovering over yours. âShe is. And sheâs perfect. And I love her more than anything.â He kissed you, hard and possessive. âBut right now,â he breathed against your lips, âher motherâs pussy belongs to me. And Iâm taking whatâs mine.â
His words, the contrast between the sweet daddy and the demanding, filthy husband, shattered the last of your control. The coil, never fully unwound, pulled taut and snapped. Your orgasm crashed over you, a tidal wave of release that had been waiting, building through the interruption. You cried out, a raw, unfiltered sound, as your body convulsed around him, milking his cock in pulsing waves.
The feeling of your tight, fluttering heat squeezing him ripped his own control away. With a final, brutal thrust, he buried himself to the hilt and roared his release, his body shuddering as he emptied himself deep inside you, his forehead dropping to your collarbone.
The world was reduced to the heavy, shared weight of your breaths, the slick heat where you were still joined, and the cool night air drying the sweat on your tangled bodies the only sounds were the water in the pool, the distant cicadas, and your ragged, mingled breaths.. He lay on top of you, his face buried in the crook of your neck, He was heavy on top of you, a welcome, spent weight, his heart hammering against yours in a slowing, post-storm rhythm.
For a few stolen minutes, there was only this: the profound, physical peace of connection, the silent triumph of having weathered the interruption together. The baby monitor glowed, a silent sentinel of the other, sweeter love that waited inside.
Then, his hands, which had been splayed possessively on your back, shifted. His fingers dug into the soft flesh of your hips, not to move you yet, but to announce an intention. A low, anticipatory hum vibrated in his chest against yours.
He lifted his head just enough to look at you. His eyes were still dark with spent passion, but a new, simmering intent was gathering in their depths.
âCanât stay like this forever, mama,â he murmured, his voice rough as gravel. âToo comfortable. Gotta ruin it.â
Before you could even form a question, his grip on your hips tightened. âTurn over,â he said, the words a soft, undeniable command.
He helped you, his hands guiding, turning you with a practiced ease that spoke of a deep, intimate knowledge of your body. You went onto your stomach, the plush cushions of the outdoor sofa soft beneath you. He arranged you, his touch firm, positioning you on your knees, your ass in the air, your upper body supported by the sofaâs wide arm. The night air kissed the newly exposed skin of your back, your ass, the backs of your thighs.
He knelt behind you, and you heard the soft, wet sound of him stroking himself, already hard again. His hands smoothed over the curves of your ass, squeezing, spreading you open. He leaned over your back, his lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âThis view,â he growled, the appreciation thick in his voice. âFuck. My favorite view in the world. The view that gave me my daughter.â One hand slid around your hip, his fingers finding the soaked, sensitive flesh of your clit, rubbing slow, tight circles. You gasped, pushing back against his hand. âAnd now itâs gonna take every last drop of me.â
He removed his hand, lined himself up, and pushed inside without another word.
The angle was different. Deeper, somehow more invasive. He filled you completely, a stretching, claiming pressure that stole your breath. He didn't start slow. He set a hard, driving pace from the first stroke, each thrust jolting you forward, a deep, rhythmic thud of flesh meeting flesh that was louder, more primal, in this position.
His hands gripped your hips like vices, holding you in place for his relentless use. The filth started again, lower, darker, breathed into the space between your shoulder blades.
âYeah, take it,â he grunted, his voice strained with effort. âTake it all, just like this. This is how I put my baby in you. Deep. Just⌠like⌠this.â
Each punctuated word was matched with a sharper, deeper thrust. One of his hands left your hip and fisted in the hair at the nape of your neck, not pulling, just holding, establishing total dominance. You were completely open to him, utterly vulnerable, and the surrender was its own kind of powerful drug.
âYouâre gonna come again,â he demanded, his breath hot on your skin. âYouâre gonna come on my cock in this position and remember exactly how our daughter was made. You feel me? You feel how deep I am? Thatâs where she came from. Thatâs my fucking ground zero.â
His words, the brutal, beautiful truth of them, combined with the perfect, punishing angle of his thrusts, coiled the tension in your belly impossibly tight. You were babbling, pleading, pushing back against him to meet every drive.
He felt you tightening, your cries reaching a fever pitch. âNow, mama,â he snarled, his pace becoming frantic, losing its rhythm, driven purely by need. âCome for me. Let me feel it.â
The climax tore through you, a cataclysmic unraveling that felt like it originated in the very core he was hammering. It was less a wave and more a seismic event, shaking a broken scream from your throat as you clenched around him violently.
It triggered his own end. With a final, shuddering roar, he slammed into you one last time, his body locking as he pulsed deep inside, his grip on your hair and hip almost painful in its intensity as he rode out his own crashing release.
He collapsed over your back, his weight pressing you into the cushions, both of you spent, breathing in ragged, syncopated gasps. He nuzzled weakly into your neck, placing a soft, damp kiss there.
The aftershocks were still humming through your veins, a pleasant, bone-deep vibration. You lay there, a boneless, satisfied heap beneath him, the reality of your physical state slowly dawning.
âCanât walk,â you whispered into the cushion, the words slurred with exhaustion and a weak, triumphant smile.
He kissed your jaw, still buried inside you, softening but present. âGood,â he murmured, his voice a low, sated rumble against your skin. âYou wonât need to.â
A flicker of maternal duty sparked through the haze. âBut Auroraââ
He shushed you gently, finally pulling out with a slow, careful glide that made you whimper at the sensitivity. You felt the warm trickle of his release escaping you. He watched it for a second, a possessive, satisfied glint in his eye, before his gaze softened back to pure care.
âIâll take care of her, angel,â he said, his tone leaving no room for argument. He brushed your sweat-damp hair from your forehead. âYou take care of me. I take care of you. Thatâs the deal.â
True to his word, he took care of everything. He helped you sit up, your legs trembling violently, utterly refusing to bear weight. With a soft chuckle, he simply scooped you up into his arms, cradling you against his bare chest. He carried you through the quiet house, your head lolling against his shoulder, and laid you gently in the center of your shared bed.
âStay,â he whispered, as if you could move.
He disappeared into the bathroom. You heard the faucet run, and he returned with a soft cloth dampened with warm water. He knelt beside the bed and began to clean you with a tenderness that was a stark, beautiful contrast to the animalistic possession of minutes before. He was extra gentle, wiping away the evidence of your coupling, careful around the oversensitive, well-loved flesh. Every stroke was an apology and a reaffirmation.
When he was done, he dressed you with the same focused care. He pulled a pair of his own soft, clean cotton boxers up your shaky legs, the material swallowing your hips. Then he fetched one of his oversized, worn-soft sweaters and carefully pulled it over your head, guiding your arms through the sleeves. âGetting cold,â he murmured, tucking the fabric around you.
As if on cue, the soft, hungry cries began from the nursery.
He pressed a kiss to your forehead. âRight on time.â He left and returned moments later with a sleepy, rooting Aurora in his arms. He placed her carefully in your arms, helping you position her at your breast. She latched on with a happy little sigh, her tiny fists kneading the soft sweater.
Chris left again. You heard the quiet sounds from the kitchenâthe fridge opening, a knife on a cutting board. He returned shirtless, carrying two bowls. One was a small mosaic of perfectly cut fruit: chilled strawberries, sweet mango, plump grapes. The other held crushed ice water with a slender straw.
He sat on the edge of the bed, watching you nurse his daughter. He leaned over, pressed a lingering kiss to your bare shoulder where the sweater had slipped, then looked down at the baby suckling contentedly.
âYou good now, cockblocker?â he whispered, his voice soft and thick with amused affection.
You smacked his chest weakly, the motion barely a tap. âYou canât call her that.â
He just smirked, unrepentant. He picked up a perfect strawberry and brought it to your lips. âOpen.â
You obeyed, and the burst of cool, sweet flavor was heaven. He watched you chew with a look of proud, reverent satisfactionâas if this moment, feeding you fruit after fucking you senseless while you nourished his child, was the pinnacle of his existence.
(And honestly? It was.)
Another strawberry. Then a grape. Then a slice of mango, sweet and tropical. You licked a stray drop of juice from your lip, and he caught it gently with his thumb, then brought that thumb to his own mouth, his dark eyes holding yours the entire time.
âStill canât walk?â he asked, his voice a low, smug rumble.
You gave him a look that held all the exhaustion and satisfaction in the world. âYou know damn well I canât even stand.â
A low, warm laugh escaped him. He leaned in close, his lips brushing your ear. âGood.â
Aurora nestled against your chest, sucking peacefully, utterly oblivious to the storm sheâd briefly interrupted and then slept soundly through.
Your legs? Jelly.â¨Your thighs? Still twitching faintly.â¨Your pussy? Gloriously, lovingly wrecked.
And your heart? So full it ached.
Freak Like Me â Bangchan
Smut no plot
Summary â The tables turn as the reader takes absolute control over Chan, using silk ropes, a blindfold, and agonizingly slow edge-play to reduce the unshakeable leader to a breathless, begging mess before a mutually explosive finish.
Pairing â Sub!Chan x Dom!Reader
Genre â Smut no plot, textbook example of BDSM, Power Dynamics
Cw/tags â Light bondage (silk ropes), blindfolding, sensory deprivation, orgasm denial/edging, dirty talk, begging kink, unprotected sex, piv, creampie, praise, riding/straddling
Word count â 1.1k words
âTied him down to my queen bed
Tease him just enough to hate me (hate me)
Tied it tight enough, he can't break free (break free)
Keep him waiting 'til he tryâ - Doja Cat âFreakâ
The silk ropes are cool against your palms as you weave the final knot. Youâd practiced. You wanted it perfect. Secure, but not cruel. A promise, not a prison.
Heâs spread out on the dark sheets of your bed, wrists tethered to the ornate posts above his head. Not struggling, not yet. Just watching you with dark, simmering eyes, his chest rising and falling a little too fast. The hard line of his erection strains against his boxers, a blatant, aching demand.
You crawl over him, a slow predator. Your knees bracket his hips. You donât touch him there. Not yet.
You start with your mouth. A kiss on his jaw, his throat, the hollow of his collarbone. Your hands roam the carved landscape of his chest, his stomach, tracing the lines of muscle that tense under your feather-light touch. You can feel the heat radiating off him, the fine tremor heâs trying to suppress.
âBabyâŚâ His voice is already a rough scrape, a plea wrapped in a warning.
âShhh,â you whisper against his skin, your breath hot. âIâm looking.â
You take your time. You lavish attention on every part of him except the one part screaming for it. You nip at his earlobe, suck a bruise into the sensitive skin over his hip bone, run your nails lightly down his inner thighs. He jerks against the restraints, a low groan tearing from his throat.
âPlease.â Itâs broken. Needy. Music to your ears.
âPlease what?â you murmur, sitting back on his thighs, finally letting your gaze drift down to where heâs painfully hard. You hook your fingers in the waistband of his boxers and drag them down, agonizingly slow, freeing him. Heâs flushed, leaking, utterly perfect in his desperation.
You donât take him in your hand. Not yet. You just look. Letting him feel the weight of your stare, the cool air on his feverish skin.
âFuck⌠please, just touch me.â His hips arch off the bed, a futile search for friction. The ropes pull taut. A sheen of sweat glistens on his temples.
Finally, you give in. But only just. Your hand wraps around him, a slow, tight fist from base to tip. His whole body bows off the mattress, a choked-off cry escaping him. You stroke him once, twiceâa slow, maddening rhythmâthen stop, your thumb swiping over the slick head.
âYouâre so pretty like this,â you breathe, watching his face contort. âAll mine. And so desperate for me.â
You begin again. A torturous cycle. A few perfect, tight strokes that have him panting, his abs clenching, toes curling. Then you stop. Completely. You lean down and press a soft, closed-mouth kiss to the tip, feeling him jerk violently. You pull back, smiling.
âNo⌠god, no, donât stop,â he begs, his voice cracking. Heâs pulling at the ropes now, not to escape, but because the sensation is too much and not enough. âI need⌠I need to come. Please, let me come.â
âDo you?â you ask, all innocence, your hand resting motionless on his thigh. âI donât know. I think I like you like this. Needy. Begging. All that control⌠gone.â
You start again. This time, you use your mouth. A slow, wet lick up his length. He shouts, a raw, ragged sound. You take him deep, then shallow, then deep again, building him up with expert suction, listening to his breath hitch and sob. You can feel the tension coiling in him, the inevitable snap approaching.
And you pull off.
You sit up, wiping your mouth, watching him unravel. Heâs thrashing now, truly straining against the silk, his face a mask of exquisite agony. Tears of frustration gather in the corners of his eyes. Heâs babbling, a stream of âpleaseâ and âfuckâ and your name, over and over, a sacred, profane prayer.
âYouâre so close, arenât you?â you muse, crawling up his body until youâre hovering over his face. You lower yourself, letting him feel the heat of you through your underwear, grinding down slowly. âWhat if I just made you wait? What if I left you here, just like this, for hours?â
The sound he makes is pure torment. He tries to lift his head to capture your mouth, but you pull back just out of reach.
âUntie me,â he gasps, his eyes wild, pleading. âUntie me and Iâll make it so good for you, I swear, just⌠fuck, please.â
You smile, a slow, victorious thing. Youâve reduced the leader, the center, the unshakeable Christopher Bang, to a writhing, begging mess. And you havenât even let him come.
His plea hangs in the air, raw and aching. You don't answer it. Instead, you reach for the strip of black silk you'd left on the nightstand.
"Shhh," you soothe, your voice a deceptive caress as you bring the fabric over his eyes. He flinches, a sharp intake of breath. "It's okay. Just feel."
You tie it securely at the back of his head, plunging him into absolute darkness. The effect is instantaneous, profound. His other senses scream to the forefront. Every shift of the mattress, every whisper of your movement, the scent of your perfumeâit all becomes amplified, terrifying, electrifying.
He strains against the ropes again, a more frantic, testing pull. "What are you doing?" His voice is higher, thinner, laced with a vulnerability that makes your core clench.
"Enjoying you," you murmur, your lips brushing the shell of his ear. He jerks at the contact, a helpless gasp escaping him.
You begin your torture anew. With his sight gone, your touch becomes an unpredictable universe. Your nails drag lightly, so lightly, from his throat down the center of his chest. He shudders violently, his hips giving an aborted thrust into empty air.
"Please... I can't... just touch me, really touch me," he begs, his head thrashing side to side on the pillow.
"You mean like this?" Your hand wraps around him again, a firm, knowing grip. A broken sob of relief punches out of him. You stroke him, a slow, tight rhythm that has his back arching off the bed, his muscles cording with strain. You can feel the orgasm building, a tangible pressure under your palm, the way his breath seizes.
And you stop.
The whimper that tears from his throat is pure animal distress. "No! God, no, don't stop, please, I'm right there, I'mâ"
You lean down and blow a cool stream of air over the wet tip.
He screams. A raw, ragged, furious sound of utter torment. He yanks at the restraints so hard the bedframe creaks in protest. "FUCK! Fuck you! Untie me right now! I swear to godâ!"
His threat dissolves into another choked-off groan as you lower your mouth onto him, taking him deep, then immediately releasing him with a soft, wet pop. You don't build him up again. You give him nothing but maddening, fleeting touches. The flat of your tongue up his length. The barest graze of your teeth. The heat of your mouth hovering a millimeter away, close enough for him to feel the promise, far enough to be agony.
He's coming apart. Tears soak the silk blindfold. He's begging in a continuous, shattered stream. "Pleasepleaseplease... baby, I need it, I need to come, I'll do anything, anything, just let me, I can't take it, I can'tâ"
His words devolve into a feral, guttural growl when you finally, finally straddle his hips. But you don't sink onto him. You hover. You let him feel the heat and wetness of you just barely grazing the head of his cock.
He's panting, wild, completely lost. "Take it. Take me. Please, just fuck me, use me, I don't care, just put me inside you."
His desperation is a living thing in the room. He's not Chris, the idol, the leader. He's a primal, needy creature, bound and blinded, reduced to his most basic, aching want: you.
You lean forward, your lips finding his. He kisses you back with a frantic, starving hunger, trying to pour all his frustration and need into the connection. You break the kiss, breathing heavily against his mouth.
"Who do you belong to?" you whisper, your voice dark and low.
"You," he gasps instantly, without thought. "You, only you, always you."
You reward him by sinking down, taking him inside you in one slow, devastating inch. The sound he makes is one of pure, soul-deep relief, a shuddering exhalation that borders on a sob.
The relief that floods his system when you finally sheathe him is so profound it momentarily stuns him into silence. A broken, shuddering sigh escapes his lips, his head falling back against the pillows as he feels your warmth envelop him completely. For a second, there is only perfect, blissful stillness.
You don't move. You just let him feel the exquisite, tight clasp of you, the reality after the torturous fantasy.
"Now," you breathe, beginning to rock slowly, deeply. "Now you can beg me to let you come."
Then you begin to move.
A slow, deep, rolling grind of your hips that wrings a guttural moan from the depths of his chest. Itâs everything heâs been craving for what feels like an eternity. The tight clasp, the slick friction, the intimate heat. His bound hands fist above his head, the ropes pulling taut.
âFuck⌠yes⌠yes,â he chants, his voice ragged with gratitude.
You set a deliberate, maddening pace. Not fast, not frantic. Deep and slow and perfect, each retreat a sweet agony, each descent a homecoming. You lean over him, your breasts brushing his chest, your lips tracing the line of his jaw.
âFeel good?â you whisper, your own breath hitching as he hits a spot that makes stars burst behind your eyelids.
âSo good⌠god, you feel⌠incredibleâŚâ Heâs already chasing it, his hips trying to meet your rhythm, to drive deeper, to find that crest.
Thatâs when you go still. Not pulling away. Just stopping. Holding him deep inside you, clenched around him.
He freezes, confusion and dawning horror replacing his bliss. âWha⌠why did you stop? Donât stop, please, donâtââ
Your voice is a soft, iron command in the dark. âYou donât come until I say you can.â
The words sink in. His breath hitches. âWhat?â
âYou heard me.â You begin to move again, that same devastatingly slow grind. âYou can have this. You can have me. But you hold it. You hold back with everything you have. You come when I give you permission, and not a second before.â
Itâs a different kind of torture. An exquisite, impossible hell. Before, he was denied sensation. Now, heâs drowning in it, but with a guillotine hanging over his pleasure. Every slow, deep stroke is a direct assault on his control. You feel the internal battle in the tremors that wrack his frame, in the way he bites his lip hard enough to bleed, in the choked, desperate sounds he makes when you angle yourself just right.
âI⌠I canât,â he gasps, his voice strangled. âYouâre⌠itâs too much, Iâm gonna⌠Iâm gonna lose itâŚâ
âThen youâll be punished,â you purr, leaning down to lick a stripe up his throat. âAnd weâll start all over again. From the beginning. Tied. Blindfolded. Teased. Would you like that?â
A full-body shudder runs through him. âNo. No, fuck, please.â
âThen hold it.â
You intensify your movements, finding a rhythm that is pure, undiluted pleasure. You ride him with purpose, taking your own enjoyment, watching his beautiful face contort in a war between ecstasy and agony. Tears leak from beneath the silk. His pleas become a continuous, shattered mantra.
âPlease⌠please let me⌠Iâm begging you⌠Iâll be so good, Iâll do anything⌠just say I can⌠please, baby, pleaseâŚâ
His body is a bowstring pulled to its breaking point. You can feel the tension coiling impossibly tight within him, the frantic pulse of him inside you. Heâs trembling violently, sweat-slicked and magnificent in his utter surrender. Heâs holding on by a thread, purely by the force of your command.
You slow again, hovering on the very brink, both of you trembling with the effort. You lean close, your lips brushing his ear. Your voice is the only anchor in his starless night.
âAsk me nicely.â
He sobs, the sound ripped from his soul. âPlease. Please, my angel, my life⌠let me come. I need to come for you, baby. Please let me give it to you.â
You kiss him, deep and claiming. And with your lips sealed to his, with him trembling on the precipise, you finally grant mercy.
âNow.â
The word is a spark in a powder keg.
But itâs not just his. The second the syllable leaves your lips, the control youâve wielded like a weapon dissolves into pure, white-hot sensation. Your own climax detonates, a silent scream ripping through you first, your body clamping around him in a fierce, rhythmic vise.
That is what breaks him.
Feeling you come apartâthe intense, fluttering pulses milking him relentlesslyâshatters the last of his will. His own release erupts, not as a separate event, but as a direct, roaring answer to yours. A raw, broken shout is torn from his throat as he empties himself deep inside you, his hips jerking with helpless, stuttering thrusts against the tight clasp of your own convulsions.
Itâs a feedback loop of pure sensation. Each pulse of his draws another shuddering wave from you; each clench of your body wrings another thick, hot jet from him. You collapse forward onto his sweat-slicked chest, a mutual descent, breathing in ragged, shared gasps. The world narrows to the pounding of two hearts syncing back to a frantic rhythm, the aftershocks twitching through your joined bodies, the warm, spent feeling of utter completion.
In the blind darkness, bound and conquered, your hands lands on the silk pulling it off his eyes, he turns his head, seeking your lips with his. The kiss is slow, deep, and tasting of saltâtears, victory, surrender. A perfect, exhausted seal on the chaos you created together.
He nuzzles into the crook of your neck, his voice a wrecked, awed whisper against your damp skin.
"We⌠holy shit."
And thatâs the real victory. Not just making him break. But breaking the sky wide open, together.
Almost Is Enough â Bangchan ||
Summary â Cocooned in the quiet, lamplit warmth of a Swiss cabin, the time for "later" finally melts into the present. With infinite patience, meticulous care, and a devotion that treats vulnerability as a sacred trust, Chan gently guides the you across the threshold of your first time, rewriting every old fear with a masterclass in tenderness.
Pairing â Experienced!Chan x Virgin!Reader
Genre â Fluff, Heavy Comfort, Established Relationship, First Time / Defloration, Emotional Smut
Cw/tags â Virgin reader, first time, nervousness, smut, fingering/stretching, lube, piv, creampie, unprotected sex, praise, mild pain (initially), emotional crying, protective/gentle aftercare.
Word count â 1.2k words
Before Reading || Almost Is Enough â Bangchan
The Swiss air was crisp and clean, smelling of pine and distant greenery , but inside our Airbnb, the world had softened to the golden glow of lamplight and the deep, quiet certainty that had settled between us over this past week of just us. We were in the master bedroom, in a bed that seemed absurdly large and impossibly soft, dressed in simple matching pajamas. The travel, the nature âit had all been a beautiful whirlwind. But this, now, felt like the true threshold.
He was experienced in ways I was not, a fact heâd shared with a quiet honesty before our relationship, and which heâd since treated not as a point of pride, but as a responsibilityâto be gentle, to be patient, to be everything for me. And I, who had waited, loved him with a fierceness that sometimes stole my breath, but now trembled with the nervous, virginal anticipation of a cliffâs edge.
We were propped against the mountain of pillows, his arm around me, my head on his shoulder, talking softly about nothingâthe chocolates weâd bought in town, the sound of cowbells in the valley. His fingers traced idle, soothing patterns on my arm through the cotton sleeve.
He turned his head, his lips finding my temple in a kiss that was more breath than pressure. âMy beautiful girl,â he murmured, the words a warm vibration against my skin.
I tilted my face up. In the soft light, his features were all gentle planes and warm, brown eyes that held galaxies of affection and a patient, smoldering intensity. I didnât have to say I was ready. He saw it in the slight part of my lips, in the way my gaze dropped to his mouth and back.
He kissed me then. Not the playful, teasing kisses weâd shared, or the heated, desperate ones weâd stolen in dark corners. This was slow. Deep. A kiss of profound ownership and even more profound reverence. It was a kiss that tasted of forever. When he pulled back, he simply looked at me, his thumb stroking the apple of my cheek.
âOkay, sweetheart?â he asked, his voice a low rumble.
I could only nod, my throat tight.
He shifted, turning to face me fully, and took both my hands in his. They were so much larger, warm and solid, completely enveloping mine. âWe donât do anything you donât want. Ever. You tell me, and we stop. You just say âwaitâ or âslowâ. Thatâs all. Understand?â
âYes,â I whispered.
âGood girl.â He leaned in and kissed me again, a soft, lingering promise. Then he began, with infinite slowness, to undo the buttons of my pajama top. His eyes never left mine. Each button released was a tiny surrender. He pushed the fabric from my shoulders, his hands following to cradle my face, his thumbs stroking my jaw. âSo beautiful,â he breathed, the words full of awe.
He helped me out of the rest, and then shed his own, until we were skin to skin in the lamplit warmth of the enormous bed. He didnât stare. He admired. His gaze was a physical caress, traveling over me with a look of such tender wonder it made my eyes prickle with unshed tears.
âYouâre a dream, angel,â he said, his voice thick. He guided me to lie back against the pillows, with him intop of me. His free hand began a leisurely exploration, not of conquest, but of discovery. He kissed my shoulder, the sensitive hollow of my throat, the slope of my breast. His touch was a masterclass in tenderness, soothing the fine tremors that danced under my skin.
His mouth found mine again, deeper this time, his tongue tracing my lower lip before seeking entrance. I melted into it, into him, my hands coming up to tangle in the soft hair at the nape of his neck. He kissed me until I was breathless and pliant, until the only thought in my head was more.
His hand drifted lower, over the flat plane of my stomach, down to the curve of my hip. His fingers brushed through the soft skin between my thighs, and I jumped, a soft gasp breaking our kiss.
He stilled instantly. âAlright, baby?â he murmured against my lips.
âYes,â I breathed, my face flaming. âJust⌠new.â
âI know,â he said, kissing the corner of my mouth. âEverythingâs new. And itâs all just for us.â His touch returned, more deliberate now. His fingers were gentle, inquisitive, learning the shape and feel of me. A soft, shocked sound escaped me as he found a spot that sent a jolt of pure, unexpected sensation straight to my core.
He smiled, a slow, beautiful curve of his lips. âThere she is,â he whispered, his voice husky. He began to circle my clit with a maddeningly light touch, his eyes watching my face, reading every flicker of pleasure and surprise. âThatâs it, sweetheart. Just feel it. Let me make you feel good.â
And he did. His touch grew more confident, weaving a spell of building pleasure that coiled low in my belly. I was arching into his hand, my breaths coming in little pants, completely lost in the novel, overwhelming sensations. He kissed me through it, swallowing my whimpers, his other hand stroking my hair.
When the tension became almost painful, he shifted. He moved down my body, his kisses blazing a trail over my stomach. He nudged my thighs apart with his shoulders, his hands holding me gently in place.
âChrisâŚâ I whispered, half-protest, half-plea.
âShhh, angel,â he soothed, his breath hot against my most intimate skin. âJust let me love you here.â
And then his mouth was on me.
The world exploded into white-hot sensation. I cried out, my hand fisting in the sheets and the other in his hair. It was nothing I could have imaginedâintimate, devastating, perfect. He licked and suckled with a patient, devoted expertise that built the coil tighter and tighter until I was trembling on the edge of a precipice I didnât understand.
Just as I felt myself begin to fall, he gentled, slowing to soft, lingering kisses that left me gasping and aching. He moved back up my body, his own breathing ragged. He was fully, magnificently aroused, and the sight of him, so close, so ready, sent a fresh wave of nervous tension through me.
He saw it. He cupped my face, his thumbs brushing away a tear of overwhelmed pleasure I hadnât even felt fall. âLook at me, baby,â he said softly, his voice a bedrock of calm. âItâs just me. Itâs just us. Iâve got you.â
He reached for the small bottle on the nightstand. âThis will help,â he explained, pouring a clear gel onto his fingers and warming it. âI need to make sure youâre ready for me, okay? Just my fingers first. Just to stretch you a little. Breathe for me, sweetheart.â
I took a deep, shaky breath as his slick fingers returned to me. One finger, slowly, carefully, pressed inside. It was a strange, full pressure. Uncomfortable, tight. I stiffened.
He froze. âToo much?â
âJust⌠a lot,â I managed.
âI know, angel. I know.â He didnât move the finger, just held it there, letting me absorb the feeling. He leaned down and kissed me, deep and slow, his tongue mimicking the gentle invasion until I relaxed around him. âThatâs my girl,â he praised. He began to move his finger, a gentle in-and-out, his thumb finding that sweet, sensitive spot again. The discomfort began to fade, replaced by a building, familiar warmth.
âYouâre doing so well,â he murmured against my lips. âSo perfect for me. Ready for another?â
I nodded, my body already softening, accepting. A second finger joined the first. The stretch was more intense, a burning fullness that made me gasp. He stilled completely, his eyes searching mine.
âWait?â he asked, poised to withdraw.
âNo⌠just⌠go slow. Please.â
âAlways, baby. Always.â He kissed me, pouring reassurance into it, and began to move his fingers again, a gentle scissoring motion, stretching me with meticulous care, his fingers slick. He whispered to me the whole timeânonsense, praise, love. âYouâre so tight, sweetheart⌠taking me so beautifully⌠my good, brave girlâŚâ
He worked with endless patience until the burning subsided into a deep, full ache and my hips began to make tiny, involuntary circles against his hand, seeking more of that friction. Only then did he withdraw his fingers, leaving me feeling oddly empty.
He moved over me, settling between my thighs. He was a breathtaking sight above me, all taut muscle and devoted intensity. He took my hands, lacing our fingers together, and pressed them gently into the pillows on either side of my head. The position made me feel utterly vulnerable and completely safe.
âKeep your eyes on me, angel,â he said, his voice strained now with the effort of his own control. A bead of sweat traced a path down his temple. He reached between us, guiding himself to my entrance. The blunt, heated pressure there was monumental.
âBreathe out, baby,â he instructed, his gaze holding mine with an almost physical force. âJust let go for me.â
I exhaled a trembling breath, and he pushed forward, just the thick crown of him.
A sharp, searing pain made me cry out, my eyes squeezing shut. Tears sprang instantly.
He stopped dead. âShhh, Iâm here, Iâm here,â he soothed, his body a tense, trembling statue above me. He released my hands, and I immediately clutched at his biceps, holding on for dear life. He brushed my tears away with his thumbs. âOpen your eyes, sweetheart. Look at me.â
I did, through a watery blur. The pain was a bright, shocking thing, but already receding into a deep, stretching fullness that was utterly overwhelming. He was inside me. Part of me.
âThe worst is over,â he promised, his own eyes looking suspiciously bright. âYou did it, angel. Youâre mine now. All mine.â He kissed me, deep and consuming, and as he did, he pushed forward another inch, then another, with agonizing slowness, until he was fully sheathed within me, our bodies joined completely. We both groaned into the kissâhis a sound of profound relief and tight, wet heat, mine of pain and stunning completion.
He didnât move. He just held himself there, buried to the hilt, letting my body adjust to the incredible invasion. He was breathing hard, his forehead pressed to mine. âOkay?â he rasped. âTell me, baby.â
âIt⌠aches,â I whispered honestly.
âI know. Just breathe with me.â He took slow, deep breaths, and I matched mine to his. The burning, stretching ache began to settle, to become simply a feeling of profound fullness. I was stretched around him, holding him inside me.
Tentatively, I clenched my inner muscles around him.
He jerked above me, a ragged, punched-out sound escaping him. âJesus, angel⌠donât do that yet,â he begged, but he was smiling, a pained, ecstatic smile.
âYou can move,â I whispered, the words barely audible.
He began with the smallest, most gentle rocking of his hips. A slow retreat, a careful advance. The ache flared, then faded again, replaced by a deep, dragging friction that began to spark something new, something deep and primal. My body, so new to this, began to learn the rhythm of his, to welcome him home.
âYou feelâŚâ he gasped, his rhythm gradually gaining a fraction more confidence as my body grew slicker, accepting him. âYou feel like heaven, baby. So perfect. My wife.â
He kept one of my hands pinned gently next to my head, our fingers intertwined, while his other arm slid under my back, holding me impossibly close, leaving no space between our hearts. Every thrust was a promise, every retreat a whispered prayer for more.
The pleasure built not in a sharp peak, but as a slow, golden tide, rising from where we were joined, spreading warmth through my veins. My breaths became ragged sobs, not of hurt, but of overwhelming emotionâlove, trust, completion. I was crying again, silent tears tracking into my hair.
âChris⌠IâŚâ
âI know, sweetheart, I know,â he panted, his thrusts becoming deeper, more purposeful, driving that golden tide higher. âLet go, angel. Come for me. I need to feel you.â
His words, the look of utter devotion on his face, the perfect, loving frictionâit tipped me over an edge I hadnât known I was approaching. My climax washed through me like a slow, sweet sunrise, a warm, pulsing wave that clenched around him, pulling a broken, sighing cry from my lips.
The feel of my internal fluttering around him shattered his control. With a raw, guttural cry of my name that seemed to shake the quiet Swiss night, he drove deep and stilled, pulsing hotly within me. I felt every powerful throb, a final, liquid claim in the most secret part of me.
He collapsed onto me, his full weight a comforting, solid reality, his face buried in the curve of my neck. We lay there, tangled and spent, the only sounds our slowing heartbeats and the distant sigh of the mountain wind.
A long time later, he shifted carefully, withdrawing from me with a soft, intimate sound, and immediately gathered me into his arms, pulling the duvet over us. He held me as if I were the most precious thing in his world, his lips pressed to my damp hair.
âThank you,â he whispered, his voice hoarse with emotion. âFor trusting me with this. With all of you, angel.â
I nestled closer, the sweet, dull ache between my legs a secret, cherished reminder. I had never felt so protected, so loved, so utterly and completely his.
âI love you,â I whispered back, the words finally enough.
âI love you, baby.â He breathed, his arms tightening around me.
And in the safe circle of his arms, in our bed high in the Swiss Alps, I fell asleep, home at last.

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Almost Is Enough â Bangchan
summary â After two years of a deeply loving relationship, the intimacy of a shared afternoon triggers a deeply rooted panic from past relationships and a fear of intimacy. Instead of pushing away or growing frustrated, Chan entirely dismantles the fear with overwhelming gentleness, reminding you that love is not a transaction and that he is willing to wait exactly as long as you need.
pairing â Bang Chan x Reader
genre â Established Relationship, Angst to Comfort, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort
cw/tags â Fear of intimacy, emotional vulnerability, crying, deep insecurity, reassurance, slight? angst with a happy ending, just pure comfort.
word count â 760 words
A/n â something short and sweet I hope you guys like this!!!
Two years. Two years of his hand in yours, his laugh in your ear, his quiet presence filling the spaces in your life you hadn't even known were empty. Two years of kisses that started as chaste promises and deepened into something that made your soul ache. Two years of feeling safe, seen, and so desperately in love it was a physical warmth behind your ribs.
But beneath that warmth, like a fossil buried in sedimentary rock, was the old, cold fear. The script you knew by heart. The pattern that had played out before: the growing closeness, the escalating intimacy, the moment of truth⌠and then your body locking up, your heart seizing with a panic you couldn't name or control. The confused, then frustrated, then distant looks. The eventual, inevitable endings, cheating always excused around "needs" and "compatibility," but whose unspoken core you knew: You weren't ready. You held back. You ruined it.
You were in his bed. The late afternoon sun painted gold across the sheets where you lay tangled. His weight was a comforting anchor, his kisses turning deep and wanting. His hand slid under your shirt, warm against your skin.
And there it wasâthe old, familiar specter. The panic, sharp and sour, rising in your throat. It wasn't about him. It was about the ghost of every failed "almost" that lived in your muscles, your nerves. You were going to ruin this, too. The most beautiful thing you'd ever had, and you were going to break it with the same old broken part of yourself.
You broke the kiss with a choked gasp, turning your face away. The tears came instantly, hot and shameful. Here it is, a cruel inner voice whispered. The part where he realizes you're too much work. The part where he leaves.
The movement of his hand stilled.
You braced for the sigh, the withdrawal, the beginning of the end.
His voice, when it came, was softer than youâd ever heard it. "Hey⌠whatâs wrong, angel?"
You shook your head, mute with misery. You couldn't even form the apology. It was all just a replay.
But his touch wasn't impatient. His fingers brushed your tears, then his whole hand cradled your face, turning you back to him with unbearable gentleness. His eyes held no trace of frustration, only a deep, searching concern.
"Talk to me, sweetheart" he whispered, his voice even softer, a sanctuary of sound. "Please."
The confession tumbled out, stained with the history you carried. "I'm⌠I'm still not ready. I'm sorry. I just⌠I can'tâŚ" You swallowed a sob. "It always happens. I ruin it because I get scared and I can't⌠and you've waited so long and I'm justâ" The old wounds split open, bleeding into the present. You weren't just telling him you weren't ready tonight; you were showing him the cracked foundation of your heart, the reason others had walked away.
He didn't pull away. He didn't look at you like a problem to be solved or a puzzle he was tired of.
He looked at you with pure, unadulterated seeing. He saw the fear, the history, the shame. And he leaned down, kissing the tears from your cheeks with a tenderness that felt like absolution.
"Oh, baby," he breathed, the words a balm. "Listen to me." He rolled to his side, pulling you firmly into the shelter of his body, tucking your head under his chin. His arms wrapped around you, solid and unshakeable. "You are not ruining anything. You could never ruin this."
His hand stroked your hair, his touch infinitely patient. "Those other guys? They were just⌠placeholders. Temporary people who didn't know how to cherish something precious. They were looking for a transaction, not a treasure."
He kissed your temple, his voice a low, steady vow against your skin. "I'm not waiting two years in spite of you. I'm waiting two years for you. For every part of you. The ready parts and the scared parts. They're all mine to love."
You clutched his shirt, the fabric damp with your tears. "You'd really wait⌠longer? However long?"
He nudged you until you looked up. His eyes were clear, certain, holding a love so vast it seemed to rewrite your entire history. "Angel, I'd wait an eternity. I'm not going anywhere. This isn't a line I'm standing behind, impatient for you to cross. I'm right here with you, wherever you are. Your pace is my pace. Your 'not yet' is just a 'later' that I get to look forward to."
The old, cold fossil of fear in your chest didn't just warm; it dissolved. It was replaced by the solid, living reality of himâhis arms, his heartbeat, his promise that wasn't a promise of future action, but of present, unwavering acceptance.
He reached for the remote. "Now, I believe we were arguing about action movies."
He pulled the comforter over you, holding you close. As the movie played, his hand never stilled in your hair. Each stroke, each soft kiss pressed to your forehead, was a silent repetition of his vow. He wasn't just comforting you from a single moment of fear; he was methodically, lovingly dismantling the entire architecture of your old pain, brick by brick, and building something new in its place. A fortress where "not yet" wasn't a failure, but a sacred space he was honored to share with you. And in that fortress, for the first time, you felt truly, completely safe.
A/n â lmk if you guys want to see one where the reader is inally ready!!!
Almost Is Enough â Bangchan
summary â After two years of a deeply loving relationship, the intimacy of a shared afternoon triggers a deeply rooted panic from past relationships and a fear of intimacy. Instead of pushing away or growing frustrated, Chan entirely dismantles the fear with overwhelming gentleness, reminding you that love is not a transaction and that he is willing to wait exactly as long as you need.
pairing â Bang Chan x Reader
genre â Established Relationship, Angst to Comfort, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort
cw/tags â Fear of intimacy, emotional vulnerability, crying, deep insecurity, reassurance, slight? angst with a happy ending, just pure comfort.
word count â 760 words
A/n â something short and sweet I hope you guys like this!!!
Two years. Two years of his hand in yours, his laugh in your ear, his quiet presence filling the spaces in your life you hadn't even known were empty. Two years of kisses that started as chaste promises and deepened into something that made your soul ache. Two years of feeling safe, seen, and so desperately in love it was a physical warmth behind your ribs.
But beneath that warmth, like a fossil buried in sedimentary rock, was the old, cold fear. The script you knew by heart. The pattern that had played out before: the growing closeness, the escalating intimacy, the moment of truth⌠and then your body locking up, your heart seizing with a panic you couldn't name or control. The confused, then frustrated, then distant looks. The eventual, inevitable endings, cheating always excused around "needs" and "compatibility," but whose unspoken core you knew: You weren't ready. You held back. You ruined it.
You were in his bed. The late afternoon sun painted gold across the sheets where you lay tangled. His weight was a comforting anchor, his kisses turning deep and wanting. His hand slid under your shirt, warm against your skin.
And there it wasâthe old, familiar specter. The panic, sharp and sour, rising in your throat. It wasn't about him. It was about the ghost of every failed "almost" that lived in your muscles, your nerves. You were going to ruin this, too. The most beautiful thing you'd ever had, and you were going to break it with the same old broken part of yourself.
You broke the kiss with a choked gasp, turning your face away. The tears came instantly, hot and shameful. Here it is, a cruel inner voice whispered. The part where he realizes you're too much work. The part where he leaves.
The movement of his hand stilled.
You braced for the sigh, the withdrawal, the beginning of the end.
His voice, when it came, was softer than youâd ever heard it. "Hey⌠whatâs wrong, angel?"
You shook your head, mute with misery. You couldn't even form the apology. It was all just a replay.
But his touch wasn't impatient. His fingers brushed your tears, then his whole hand cradled your face, turning you back to him with unbearable gentleness. His eyes held no trace of frustration, only a deep, searching concern.
"Talk to me, sweetheart" he whispered, his voice even softer, a sanctuary of sound. "Please."
The confession tumbled out, stained with the history you carried. "I'm⌠I'm still not ready. I'm sorry. I just⌠I can'tâŚ" You swallowed a sob. "It always happens. I ruin it because I get scared and I can't⌠and you've waited so long and I'm justâ" The old wounds split open, bleeding into the present. You weren't just telling him you weren't ready tonight; you were showing him the cracked foundation of your heart, the reason others had walked away.
He didn't pull away. He didn't look at you like a problem to be solved or a puzzle he was tired of.
He looked at you with pure, unadulterated seeing. He saw the fear, the history, the shame. And he leaned down, kissing the tears from your cheeks with a tenderness that felt like absolution.
"Oh, baby," he breathed, the words a balm. "Listen to me." He rolled to his side, pulling you firmly into the shelter of his body, tucking your head under his chin. His arms wrapped around you, solid and unshakeable. "You are not ruining anything. You could never ruin this."
His hand stroked your hair, his touch infinitely patient. "Those other guys? They were just⌠placeholders. Temporary people who didn't know how to cherish something precious. They were looking for a transaction, not a treasure."
He kissed your temple, his voice a low, steady vow against your skin. "I'm not waiting two years in spite of you. I'm waiting two years for you. For every part of you. The ready parts and the scared parts. They're all mine to love."
You clutched his shirt, the fabric damp with your tears. "You'd really wait⌠longer? However long?"
He nudged you until you looked up. His eyes were clear, certain, holding a love so vast it seemed to rewrite your entire history. "Angel, I'd wait an eternity. I'm not going anywhere. This isn't a line I'm standing behind, impatient for you to cross. I'm right here with you, wherever you are. Your pace is my pace. Your 'not yet' is just a 'later' that I get to look forward to."
The old, cold fossil of fear in your chest didn't just warm; it dissolved. It was replaced by the solid, living reality of himâhis arms, his heartbeat, his promise that wasn't a promise of future action, but of present, unwavering acceptance.
He reached for the remote. "Now, I believe we were arguing about action movies."
He pulled the comforter over you, holding you close. As the movie played, his hand never stilled in your hair. Each stroke, each soft kiss pressed to your forehead, was a silent repetition of his vow. He wasn't just comforting you from a single moment of fear; he was methodically, lovingly dismantling the entire architecture of your old pain, brick by brick, and building something new in its place. A fortress where "not yet" wasn't a failure, but a sacred space he was honored to share with you. And in that fortress, for the first time, you felt truly, completely safe.
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Many Many Months later on a little holiday (smut) â Almost Is Enough Part ||
Livinâ La Vida Loca â Bangchan ||
summary â The plan was flawless: slip into a high-end Manhattan rooftop party as "Lola," charm the leader of Stray Kids, spike his drink, and vanish with the haul. But Chris doesn't go down easy. When the sedative fails to pull him under, a high-stakes duel of dominance explodes behind closed doors-leaving a trail of stolen platinum, a phantom ache, and a fiercely obsessed popstar determined to hunt his beautiful thief down.
pairing â Idol! Chan x Agent! Reader (Cipher)
genre â spy/thief au, crime/action romance, smut (in chapter |), dual pov, forbidden love
cw/tags â mostly plot, past abuse/physical violence (mentioned only), mild psychological threat, mild? criminal acts
word count â 2.5k words
A/n â omg I know this took SO long Iâm sooo sorry for the wait for the long ass wait đđ I really hope you guys like chapter two!!! Btw THANK YOUU sooo much for all of the support on my last three posts and ESPECIALLY my first ever post, I never expected for it to blow up!!!I love you ALLL SOOO muchhh đđđ (NOT PROOF READ YET!!!)
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Livinâ La Vida Loca â Part |
The van is silent on the ride from the private airstrip. The only sounds are the hum of the engine and the soft, precise clicks of Ethanâs fingers on his keyboard as he performs the final digital sanitization of the New York operation. The Patek Philippe watch sits in a lead-lined case on the seat beside me, its weight a tangible anchor to the chaos Iâve left behind.
Halle drives, her eyes on the dark French countryside giving way to the first glow of urban sprawl. Victor and Liam are already gone, melting into the network to handle the fencing of the goods through our usual, untraceable channels. Emma sits across from me, her posture relaxed but her eyes watchful, analyzing my silence.
I havenât spoken since I got on the plane. My body is here, in the van, dressed in simple, forgettable clothesâjeans, a black sweater, hair pulled back in a plain ponytail. But my mind is trapped in a penthouse suite in Manhattan, against a wall, in a bed that still held the warmth of a man who looked at me like I was a revelation, not a mark.
Chris.
The name is a hook in my chest. I close my eyes, but I see his: dark, intense, disarmingly honest. I feel the ghost of his hands, the scrape of his teeth, the devastating way he said, âYou taste like a lie, and I want to drink the whole bottle.â
âHead in the game, Cipher,â Emma says softly, not unkindly. âKostas wonât like it if youâre elsewhere.â
I open my eyes, nodding once. Cipher. Thatâs who I am here. Not Lola. Not Me. A function. An algorithm.
We donât enter the city of skyscrapers through the glittering downtown. Halle takes a series of turns into La DĂŠfense, the massive business district just west of Paris. Itâs a forest of glass and steel, monolithic towers housing the European headquarters of banks, energy conglomerates, and tech giants. It is the epitome of corporate power, cold and impersonal. The perfect place to hide.
Our destination is the Tour Majunga, a sleek, rhombus-shaped tower that pierces the grey sky. We enter through the underground parking, using keycards that identify us as employees of Veridian Dynamics, a blandly-named consulting firm that occupies three floors mid-tower. The cover is impeccable, complete with a functioning office, legitimate (if boring) business fronts, and a staff of actual analysts who have no idea what happens on the secured top floor.
The elevator ride is smooth, silent. It opens not into a reception area, but into a stark, minimalist antechamber. White walls, grey floor, a single retinal scanner. Emma places her eye against it. A soft chime, and a section of the wall slides back without a sound.
The room beyond is a study in controlled power. Floor-to-ceiling windows offer a breathtaking, sterile view of the geometric cityscape. The interior is all brushed steel, dark wood, and low, ambient lighting. There are no papers, no clutter. A single large screen dominates one wall, currently dark. This is not a villainâs lair. Itâs a boardroom for ghosts.
Kostas is waiting.
He stands by the window, a silhouette against the cold light. Heâs in his fifties, lean, with silver-grey hair cut with military precision and a face that seems carved from marbleâhandsome, but utterly without warmth. He wears a perfectly tailored charcoal suit. He doesnât turn as we enter.
âThe take has been processed,â Emma reports, her voice crisp in the vast quiet. âThe watch will be in Switzerland by morning. The cards are already drained and destroyed. The passport has been⌠disposed of. Clean extraction. Zero forensic trace.â
Kostas finally turns. His eyes, a pale, unsettling blue, go straight to me, bypassing Emma completely. âClean extraction,â he repeats, his voice a low, cultured baritone. âBiometric data from your subcutaneous tracker tells a more nuanced story, Cipher.â
He walks to the steel desk and taps a console. The large screen flickers to life. It doesnât show security footage or schematics. It displays a series of graphsâheart rate, respiratory rate, galvanic skin responseâall plotted against a timeline of the New York operation.
I see the predictable spikes: initial contact with the mark, the administration of the sedative, the movement to the secondary location. Then, thereâs a massive, sustained elevation. A plateau of heightened vitals that lasts for nearly for half an hour. Far longer than any previous engagement.
âYour physiological markers indicate a state of extreme arousal and heightened emotional affect for thirty-four minutes,â Kostas states, his tone clinical. âThe âpersuasionâ window, as you called it. The dose was standard. The mark, Bang Chan, has no known extraordinary metabolic resistance. The data suggests he was conscious, active, and that you were⌠engaged.â
He lets the word hang in the air. Engaged. It covers everything. The fight, the kiss, the sex. The feeling of his skin under my hands, the sound of my nameâmy fake nameâon his lips like it meant something.
âThe mark was resistant,â I say, my own voice sounding foreign in this room. âHe didnât lose consciousness as projected. I had to improvise to ensure the objective was met. The prolonged engagement was a tactical necessity.â
âA tactical necessity,â Kostas echoes. He walks around the desk until heâs standing directly in front of me. Heâs not tall, but his presence is immense, suffocating. âYou have a history of improvisation, Cipher. It is often your strength. But it is born from a specific⌠vulnerability.â He pauses, his eyes boring into mine. âBack when we rescued you from the gutter in Prague. Half-dead, betrayed by a mark you were foolish enough to care for. What was his name? Alexei?â
The name is a punch to the solar plexus. I keep my face blank, but I feel the old phantom pains flareâthe crack of ribs, the taste of blood.
âYou swore then that sentiment was a poison. That you would become a tool. Sharp, precise, and feelingless.â He leans in slightly. âThis data⌠this deviation⌠suggests the poison may still be in your system. Did you feel something for this Korean pop star, Cipher? In between stealing his possessions, did you forget to steal back your own heart?â
The accusation is a razor. Heâs not just questioning my professionalism; heâs dissecting my one, hard-won protection.
âThe objective was achieved,â I repeat, clinging to the fact like a lifeline. âThe take was secured. The protocol, aside from an unforeseen biological variable in the mark, was followed.â
Kostas stares at me for a long, silent moment. The hum of the climate control is the only sound. Finally, he steps back.
âThe objective was achieved,â he concedes. âAnd the take was significant. Therefore, you are not being benched. Yet.â He returns to his position by the window. âYour next assignment is in Rome. The file is ready. The parameters are standard.â
He turns his head, looking at me over his shoulder, his profile sharp against the glass. âBut understand this, Y/N.â
The use of my real nameânot Cipherâis the greatest threat of all. It means heâs speaking to the broken girl from Prague, not the phantom he rebuilt.
âSentiment is a flaw. And flaws get people killed and one more deviation. One more prolonged âtactical necessityâ that aligns with your biometrics instead of the mission clock. One more hint that you are viewing a mark as anything other than a resource to be extractedâŚâ He lets the sentence trail off, his gaze sweeping the impersonal, powerful room. âThis agency survives because we are not individuals. We are a function. You are either part of that function, or you are a flaw in the system. And flawsâŚâ He turns fully, his pale eyes utterly devoid of mercy. ââŚare excised.â
The dismissal is clear. Emma touches my elbow lightly, guiding me back towards the silent door.
As we walk back through the antechamber, the weight of the tower, of the entire cold, corporate forest of La DĂŠfense, feels like itâs pressing down on me. I am a ghost, but I haunt a prison of my own making. Kostas owns my past, my skills, my very identity.
And Chris⌠Chris, with his searching eyes and his stolen-song heart, is a beacon in that darkness. A beacon that Kostas has just marked for extinction.
The elevator descends. I look at my reflection in the polished doorsâa woman in a sweater, her face pale, her eyes holding a storm sheâs been ordered to suppress.
The hook in my chest pulls harder.
Heâs looking for you, a treacherous voice whispers inside. And your keeper just told you to forget he exists.
But as the doors open to the underground garage, to the van and the next mission, I know, with a terrifying certainty, that I canât.
The game was supposed to be over in New York.â¨Itâs only just begun.
(CHRIS POV - THE HUNT BEGINS)
The official channels are a dead end. A ghost story the NYPD politely files away. My company, after the initial panic, wants to bury it. "A costly lesson, Chan-ah," Mr. Kim says, clapping my shoulder with a sigh. "We replace the watch, we get a new passport. We move on. No more rooftop parties with mysterious women."
Move on.
The words are a joke. A sick, hollow joke.
I can't move on. I'm stuck in that hotel room, in the phantom imprint of her body on the mattress, in the taste of her that still lingers in my memory like a ghost limb. The fury is still there, a cold coal in my chest. But it's been eclipsed, utterly consumed, by the fascination. The need to know.
I hire someone off the books. A man named Aris, recommended by a producer who deals in things best left in shadows. Aris doesn't have an office. We meet in the back of a silent, smoky jazz club in Brooklyn. He's older, with eyes that have seen too many secrets and a price tag that reflects it.
"I'm not looking for the police," I tell him, sliding a folder across the table. It contains the hotel's useless security report, the guest list, and a sketch hyunjin made for meâher face, from memory. The sharp line of her jaw, the mocking curve of her lips, the eyes that held galaxies and guillotines. "I'm looking for the truth. I'm looking for her."
Aris studies the sketch, then me. "This kind of vanishing act... it's professional. Expensive. You weren't robbed, Mr. Bang. You were processed." He taps the blank space where the camera feeds should have shown her. "This is a level of wipe that speaks of resources, planning, and a team. You're not chasing a woman. You're chasing a phantom."
"Then chase the phantom," I say, my voice quiet but leaving no room for argument. "Find the team. Find the pattern. Start with the party. Someone saw something. A waiter, a valet, a guest who looked twice. Find the gap in the gap."
He takes the folder and my retainer. "It will cost you."
"I don't care."
â
Weeks pass. Promotions in Tokyo, a fanmeet in Singapore. I smile for the cameras, sing the songs, joke with the members. But I'm a hologram. My real self is back in that New York hotel room, or hunched over my laptop in another anonymous hotel, waiting for Aris's encrypted updates.
They're scant. A blurred image of a black van three blocks away, caught on a traffic cam, its plates obscured. A payment to a boutique costume shop for a red silk dress, paid in untraceable cryptocurrency. A whisper from a source in private security about a freelance "extraction team" that sometimes works with a specialist known only as Cipher. A ghost who leaves no trace.
Cipher. The name sends a chill through me. It's not a name. It's a function. An algorithm for erasure.
And it's all I have.
The music is my only outlet. The demo I recorded in a fit of insomniaâ"Phantom (Lola's Song)"âwas never meant to leave my hard drive. But a studio intern, a kid with stars in his eyes and loose lips, leaked it. It goes viral in hours.
The lyrics are raw, too raw. "She was a red silk warning... stole the time from my wrist..." The fans go rabid. Is it a metaphor? A real person? Theories explode online. My phone blows up with concerned texts from the company, from other idols, from my parents.
My members corner me in the green room in Manila.
"Hyung," Han says, uncharacteristically serious. "This song... it's not just a song, is it?"
I don't answer. I'm staring at my phone, at a new message from Aris.
Aris: Pattern detected. Similar high-value theft, same MOâsocial infiltration, targeted mark, digital wipe. Occurred six weeks ago in Paris. Target: a hedge fund manager. Item taken: a unique vintage necklace. No police report. Our ghost is consistent. Moving to Europe. Likely Paris or Madrid next. I have a facial recognition algorithm running on known associates. It's a long shot.
"Hyung!" Changbin snaps his fingers in front of my face. "You're spiraling. This is getting unhealthy."
I look up at them, my brothers, their faces etched with worry. "What if I don't want to be healthy?" I ask, my voice hollow. "What if I want to be obsessed?"
Felix shakes his head. "She robbed you, man. She used you."
"Did she?" The question escapes before I can stop it. I remember the way she trembled. The way she looked at me right before she kissed me, like she was drowning and I was the only air. "Or did I see something real, and she got scared?"
Seungmin sighs, the practical one. "The probability of a high-level operative developing genuine sentiment during a mission is statistically minuscule. You're constructing a narrative to justifyâ"
"I'm not constructing anything!" I snap, standing up. The room goes quiet. "I'm following a feeling. And the feeling is that she's out there. And she's thinking about me, too."
I know I sound insane. A lovesick fool chasing a criminal who sees him as a mark. But the compulsion is a physical thing, a hook in my ribcage pulling me east, towards Europe.
(YOUR POV - THE GHOST IN ROME)
I watch the music video for "Phantom" from a rooftop in Trastevere, the ancient stones of Rome warm beneath me. Ethan patched the feed to my tablet. I see Chris on screen, singing with a rawness that feels like a physical violation. He's in a reconstructed version of that hotel room, touching the empty space on the bed, running a hand over a wall. The lyrics aren't just about theft. They're about absence. A haunting.
"You left a silence that screams my name..."
I close the tablet, my hands unsteady. This is a complication of catastrophic proportions. My marks are supposed to wake up embarrassed, furious, maybe a little turned on. They are not supposed to write award-nominated heartbreak anthems about me. They are not supposed to look for me.
"Cipher, you seeing this?" Emma's voice is tight in my ear. "The song's trending worldwide. The net is buzzing. If anyone connects the dots between the New York incident and this..."
"I see it," I say, my voice flat.
"He's not letting go," Victor chimes in from the safe house. "Our friend in private security says Bang Chan has hired Aris. He's good. Nosey."
Aris. Shit. I've heard of him. A bloodhound with a moral compass that points solely towards the highest bidder.
"The Madrid job is in two week," Liam says, all business. "The oligarch, Vasiliev. The parameters are the same. Infiltrate the gala, isolate, administer, extract. Clean and fast. We can't afford distractions."
Distractions. They mean him. Chris.
Kostas's warning echoes in my head. Sentiment is a flaw. And flaws get people killed.
I think of Alexei, in Prague. His soft smile, the promises whispered in the dark, the cold feel of the pavement against my cheek as his associates kicked me, left me for dead in an alley for getting "too attached." I survived by playing dead. I vowed never to feel again. To be Cipher, a function, a ghost.
But Chris... Chris didn't try to own me with sweet lies. He saw the storm in me and didn't run for cover. He walked right into the eye of it.
"He's a liability," I say to the empty Roman sky, trying to convince myself. "He's compromising the mission."
But my heart, the stupid, traitorous muscle I thought I'd cauterized years ago, thumps a traitorous rhythm. Liability. Compromise. Hunted.
And beneath it, a whisper: Missed.
(ONE WEEK LATER - ROME)
The scent of Rome is a living thingâancient stone, espresso, exhaust fumes, and the sweet, heavy perfume of ripening figs from a market stall. Iâm Chiara here, a freelance art restorer with a fondness for vintage trench coats and an appointment to âassessâ a certain Cardinalâs private collection of Renaissance sketches. The real sketches are already in Victorâs gloved hands two blocks away; the ones in the Cardinalâs vault are Ethanâs flawless forgeries. Itâs a smooth, elegant job.
Iâm cutting through the Piazza Navona, blending with the afternoon crowds, the roar of the Bernini fountains a pleasant white noise. Iâm thinking of the next flight, the next identity, the next blank hotel room. Iâm not thinking of dark eyes and a voice that felt like a home Iâd never known.
Which is why I miss him.
At first.
Itâs a prickle at the base of my neck, the old, animal sense of being watched. I slow near a gelato cart, pretending to study the flavors. In the polished side of the stainless-steel freezer, I catch a reflection.
Him.
Chris.
Heâs fifty feet back, wearing sunglasses and a grey hoodie pulled up, but his posture is unmistakableâthe set of his shoulders, the focused intensity of his gait. Heâs not strolling. Heâs hunting. And his eyes are locked on me.
Impossible. Madrid is days away. He shouldnât be here. Arisâs reach is longer than I thought, or his intuition is terrifying.
My heart kicks into a frantic, thrilling sprint. The professional part of me screams to execute a pre-planned evasion. The part of me thatâs still Y/N feels a wild, electric jolt of pure adrenaline. He found me.
I donât run. That would confirm it. I turn casually down a narrower street, the Via di Pasquino, lined with small artisan shops. I feel him behind me, closing the distance. My pulse hammers in my throat. The game has suddenly become very, very real.
At a small bookstore, I stop abruptly and turn ducking inside of the store quickly.
Heâs right there. He reaches out, his hand closing around and old local ladyâs upper arm.
âLola,â he says, the name a breathless accusation and a plea.
She turn, letting a mask of irritation, confused annoyance settle over her features. The woman who looks back at him has mousy brown hair, glasses, and a fanny pack. Itâs not me.
âScusi?â She say, her Italian accent perfect, wrinkling her nose.
His face falls. The certainty in his eyes shatters into embarrassed confusion. He drops her arm as if burned. âIâIâm so sorry. I thought you were someone else.â
âStupido americano,â she mutter, rolling her eyes, and turn away, melting back into the foot traffic. I hear him swear softly outside the store
I allow myself a small, fierce smile inside. Too easy.
I take a circuitous route, doubling back twice, entering the crowded chaos of the Campo deâ Fiori market. The air is thick with the smell of flowers, spices, and frying pizza. Iâm just beginning to think Iâve lost him when I see him again. Heâs across the square, near the fountain, his hood down now, scanning the crowd desperately. He looks⌠beautiful and wrecked. Determined.
Our eyes meet through the throng of people.
This time, thereâs no hesitation in his gaze. Itâs a direct hit. He knows.
I give him a slow, deliberate smileâChiaraâs smile wouldnât be so sharp, so knowingâand then I turn and start walking, not too fast, leading him.
He pushes through the crowd, a salmon swimming upstream. I lead him on a merry chase through the market, past stalls of fabric goods and painted ceramics, letting him get close enough to see the back of my jacket, then slipping behind a group of arguing nuns.
He catches up near a produce stall, his hand landing on the shoulder of a woman in a similar trench jacket, her hair the same length.
âGot you,â he says, spinning her around.
Itâs a Swedish tourist in her sixties. She shrieks. Her husband puffs up. Chris is profusely apologizing again, his face a masterpiece of frustration and humiliation.
Iâm leaning against a stone pillar twenty feet away, watching. The thrill is intoxicating. Heâs so close, so sure, and yet Iâm a ghost, slipping through his fingers. Itâs a dangerous, delicious game.
But Iâve played enough. Time to vanish.
I duck into a narrow, shadowed alleyway, the kind that smells of damp cat and centuries. I break into a run, my heels slapping against the cobblestones. The sound echoes.
A moment later, I hear his footsteps behind me. Faster. Heavier.
Heâs running now. No more games.
âHey!â he shouts, his voice echoing off the ancient walls. âStop!â
I donât stop. I fly. The alley twists and turns, a stone labyrinth. I take shortcuts Iâd mapped days agoâthrough a hidden archway, across a tiny courtyard where laundry hangs, startling an old woman who shakes her fist. I can hear him gaining. Heâs athletic, driven, fueled by weeks worth of obsession.
I glances over my shoulder. And then i laugh, a laugh that makes him stumble mid-stride.
A bright, mocking, musical sound that bounces off the ancient walls. Itâs the laugh of me whoâs having the time of my life.
âYouâre slower than I thought, Chris!â I calls back, my voice teasing him, echoing down the alleyway. âAll that time on stage and you canât catch one little art thief?â
âYou stole my watch!â He yells.
âIt looked better on me!â I shouts back, disappearing around another corner.
He slides around the corner after me. Almost within armâs reach. Heâs closer than I thought, my eyes widened just a fraction the mockery from a second ago is replaced by real suprise
I burst out of the maze of alleys onto a broader, bustling streetâthe Via del Corso. Tourists, shoppers, chaos. Perfect.
I spot a taxi just pulling over to let someone out. My exit. My heart hammers against my ribs, part panic, part exhilaration.
I sprint for it, weaving through the crowd. Iâm ten feet away.
âNO! WAIT!â
His voice is right behind me. I risk a glance back. Heâs at the mouth of the alley, chest heaving, hair wild, his eyes locking onto mine with a triumph that says, This time. This time I have you.
I yank the taxi door open and throw myself inside.
âVai! Via! Presto!â I gasp to the driver, slamming the door.
The driver, an older man with a world-weary face, nods and pulls into traffic just as Chrisâs hand slaps against the window where my head had been a second before.
I turn in my seat, looking out the back window.
Heâs standing in the middle of the busy sidewalk, hands on his knees, breathing hard. Heâs not trying to chase the car. He just straightens up, watching the taxi disappear into the Roman traffic. And then, through the dust and distance, I see him do something utterly unexpected.
He grins.
A wide, breathless, triumphant grin. He raises a hand, not in farewell, but in a gesture that says, I see you. And this isnât over.
The taxi turns a corner, and heâs gone.
I slump back in the seat, my own breath coming in ragged gulps. My hands are trembling. I can still feel the ghost of his gaze on me, the heat of his near-catch.
He was so close. He almost had me.
And the most terrifying, thrilling part?
A secret, shameful part of me wishes he had.
(CHRIS'S POV - THE CHASE)
Rome is a furnace, and Iâm burning up from the inside out. A week of dead ends, of Arisâs expensive, frustrating whispers (âSheâs a ghost, Mr. Bang. A gust of wind.â), of staring at the sketch until the paper wore thin. Then, a break. A blurry photo from a traffic cam near the Piazza Navona. A woman in a trench coat, the right height, the right walk. A maybe. A maybe is all I have.
So Iâm here. Roaming. Feeling like the worldâs most lovesick, obsessed idiot.
And then I see her.
Not the leather jacket first. Itâs the way she moves. A fluid, economical grace that cuts through the tourist clutter like a knife. Sheâs ahead of me, turning down a side street. My blood turns to lightning. Itâs her.
I follow, my heart trying to beat its way out of my chest. She stops at a bookstore window. This is it. I close the distance, my hand reaching out. I can almost feel the memory of her skin under my fingers from New York.
I grab her arm. âLola.â
She turns.
Itâs not her.
The face is all wrongâsofter, older, annoyed behind thick glasses. âScusi?â she snaps, Italian and irritation sharp in her tone.
I drop my hand like itâs on fire. Heat floods my face. âIâIâm so sorry. I thought you were someone else.â
âStupido americano,â she mutters, turning away with a dismissive wave.
I stand there, humiliated, the adrenaline crash leaving me shaky. For a second, I doubt everything. Maybe Aris is right. Maybe Iâm just chasing a ghost I invented to explain a night that got out of hand.
I wander into the Campo deâ Fiori, the market noise a dull roar in my ears. I feel stupid. Defeated.
And then I see her.
Really see her.
Sheâs across the square, near a mountain of blood-red peppers. Sheâs not looking at the produce. Sheâs looking right at me. And sheâs smiling. Her smile. The one from the rooftop. Sharp, knowing, a little cruel, and so breathtaking it stops my heart.
Our eyes lock.
Time stops. The market noise fades. Itâs her. Itâs definitely her.
She gives me that smile, a slow, deliberate curl of her lips thatâs a challenge and a promise, and then she turns and starts walking away, not hurrying, just⌠allowing me to follow.
The humiliation evaporates, replaced by a fierce, singular focus. Got you.
I push through the crowd, my eyes glued to the back of her leather jacket. Sheâs a fox leading the hound. She lets me get close, then slips behind a group of nuns. I lose her for a second, then spot the jacket again by a flower stall. I surge forward, my hand landing on a leather-clad shoulder.
âGot you,â I breathe, spinning her around.
An older woman with a shocked Swedish accent yelps. Her husband glares. My face is on fire again. âSorry! So sorry! My mistake!â
More apologies. More embarrassment. When I look up, sheâs gone again.
But this time, Iâm not discouraged. Iâm pissed. And Iâm hooked. Sheâs playing with me. Fine. Letâs play.
I scan the crowd desperately. A flash of movementâa figure ducking into a shadowed alley off the square. Gone.
I sprint for it.
The alley is cool and dark, smelling of wet stone and garbage. And I hear itâthe quick, light tap of heels on cobblestones, echoing ahead. Sheâs running.
So I run.
Iâm faster. I can hear my own breath, my feet pounding. I see her up ahead, a flash of black leather as she darts through a stone archway. I follow, bursting into a tiny sunlit courtyard full of hanging laundry. An old woman shouts at me in rapid Italian. I donât stop.
Iâm gaining on her. The alley twists again, and I see her clearly, just twenty feet ahead.
âHey!â I shout, my voice echoing. âStop!â
She glances over her shoulder. And then she does something that makes me stumble mid-stride.
She laughs.
A bright, mocking, musical sound that bounces off the ancient walls. Itâs not a scared laugh. Itâs the laugh of someone whoâs having the time of her life.
âYouâre slower than I thought, Chris!â she calls back, her voice teasing, echoing. âAll that time on stage and you canât catch one little art thief?â
The words are a slap and a spark. Sheâs mocking me. She remembers my name. She remembers everything. And sheâs enjoying this.
It fuels me. I put on a burst of speed, my lungs burning. âYou stole my watch!â I yell, which sounds ridiculous even as I say it.
âIt looked better on me!â she shouts back, disappearing around another corner.
I skid around the corner after her. Sheâs right there, almost within armâs reach. She looks back, her eyes wide now, the mockery replaced by a flash of real surprise at how close I am.
Then she bursts out of the alley onto a busy main streetâthe Corso. Sunlight, crowds, chaos.
Iâm right behind her. I see her head swivel, searching. She spots a taxi. Her escape.
âNO! WAIT!â The roar is ripped from my throat.
She sprints for it, a final, desperate burst. Iâm a step behind. My hand stretches out. I can almost feel the leather of her jacket.
She wrenches the taxi door open and throws herself inside. The door slams shut just as my palm slaps against the window with a dull thud.
Iâm left standing there, breathing like Iâve run a marathon, sweat stinging my eyes, my hand on the cool glass.
The taxi pulls away, merges into the river of traffic, and is gone.
I bend over, hands on my knees, gulping air. The frustration is a physical pain. She was right there.
But as I straighten up, watching the spot where the taxi disappeared, the frustration melts away. Because Iâm remembering her laugh in the alley. The challenge in her eyes. The way she said my name.
Sheâs not just running from me. Sheâs engagingwith me. This is a conversation. A mad, breathless, thrilling conversation.
A slow grin spreads across my face, unstoppable. I canât help it. Sheâs incredible.
I raise my hand, not in a wave goodbye, but in a salute. Acknowledgment.
I see you. Youâre amazing. And this? I think, the grin turning into a full, breathless smile. This is just getting interesting
â
The grin stays plastered on my face all the way back to the apartment near the Spanish Steps, where Hyunjin is anxiously pacing the length of a Renaissance rug.
âYouâre smiling? After she mocked you and got away? Hyung, thatâs a clinical sign. Thatâs the smile of a man who enjoys being emotionally waterboarded by a criminal!â
âShe remembered my name,â I say, the grin widening.
âShe also remembered you have expensive taste in watches! Thatâs not romance, thatâs market research!â
The frustration is gone, burned away by the pure, electric thrill of the chase. She laughed at me. Sheâs not a ghost. Sheâs a woman. A brilliant, infuriating, captivating woman who is now acutely aware that I am on her tail. This changes everything.
I call Aris. Hyunjin presses his ear to the other side of my phone, his eyes wide.
âRome. Today. Campo deâ Fiori district, around 3 PM.â
âYou saw her?â Arisâs voice is flat, but I hear the professional interest.
âI chased her. She got away in a taxi on the Via del Corso. Silver Fiat taxi, local plates, but I didnât get the number. Sheâs here for a job. She has to be. She was dressed for blending in, not for tourism.â
Hyunjin mouths, âA JOB?â and makes a slashing motion across his throat.
Aris is silent for a moment, the sound of rapid keyboard clicks coming through the phone. âThe only high-value event in Rome today is a private viewing at the Palazzo Doria Pamphilj. A collection of Renaissance sketches from a Cardinalâs private vault. By invitation only, heavy security.â
My mind races. âCan you get me in?â
âAs who? A Korean pop star with a sudden passion for 16th-century Italian drawings? No.â Another pause. âBut I can get you the guest list. And the security feed from the surrounding streets for the last 48 hours. If she was casing it, we might get a clearer image.â
âDo it. And the taxi. There are cameras all over the Corso. Find that taxi.â
Two hours later, the encrypted files arrive. Hyunjin hovers over my shoulder as I open them on my laptop. âThis feels so illegal. Are we going to have to flee the country in the night? I didnât pack a âfleeingâ outfit. I packed linen and regret.â
The guest list is a whoâs who of European old money and discreet collectors. Nothing stands out. But the street footageâŚ
Aris has flagged a woman. Sheâs wearing different clothesâa stylish linen dress, large sunglasses, her hair upâbut the walk is the same. The focused, graceful prowl. She enters a cafĂŠ opposite the Palazzoâs service entrance three times over two days, always sitting at the window, always nursing a single espresso for exactly forty-five minutes. Studying patterns.
âSheâs good,â Aris notes in a text. âBut sheâs also human. She has routines. She likes that cafĂŠ.â
Thatâs my opening.
The next morning, Iâm dragging a sleep-mussed, complaining Hyunjin to that cafĂŠ at 8 AM. I wear a cap, glasses âHyung, this is a terrible idea. A criminal idea. Possibly a felony-adjacent idea.â
Hyunjin sits across from me at a tiny wrought-iron table outside the cafĂŠ opposite the Palazzo Doria Pamphilj. Heâs wearing a massive sunhat and oversized sunglasses, looking less like an undercover operative and more like a very anxious, very beautiful garden gnome whoâs wandered into a spy novel.
Iâve got him with a sketchbook open. Heâs not sketching the palazzo. Heâs sketching her. From memory, my memory.
Hyunjin, nursing a cappuccino thatâs mostly foam, peers at my drawing. âThatâs⌠disturbingly good, hyung. And disturbingly detailed. You remember the exact thickness of lashes. Thatâs not healthy obsession, thatâs forensic illustration.â
She doesnât show up.
Disappointment is a cold stone in my gut. Hyunjin pats my arm. âSee? Sheâs a will-oâ-the-wisp. A beautiful, thief-shaped mirage. Letâs go see some actual art that isnât going to get us arrested.â
Iâm about to leave when the cafĂŠ door chimes. Itâs not her.
Itâs a man. Mid-thirties, sharp suit, carrying a sleek leather briefcase. He sits at her table, orders an espresso, and pulls out a tablet. But heâs not looking at the palazzo. Heâs glancing, subtly but repeatedly, at his watch.
âPartner,â I murmur.
âACCOMPLICE,â Hyunjin corrects in a horrified whisper, sinking lower in his chair. âThat man has âshady business associateâ written all over him. He probably has a secret pocket in that briefcase for lockpicks and moral flexibility!â
Twenty minutes pass. The man gets a text, reads it, a slight smile touching his lips. He finishes his espresso, leaves cash, and walks out.
I give him a thirty-second lead, then stand.
Hyunjin grabs my wrist. âWhere are you going? Youâre not going to follow the scary briefcase man, are you? Heâs the muscle! He probably knows seven ways to kill a man with a breadstick!â
âStay here. Order another coffee.ââ¨âIâM NOT LETTING YOU GO ALONE INTO A BREADSTICK-ASSASSIN AMBUSH!â
Somehow, Hyunjin ends up trailing behind me as we follow the man three blocks to a nondescript business hotel. The kind used for business travelers. He doesnât go to the front desk. He heads straight for the elevators.
We linger in the lobby, pretending to be on busy doing something. I watch the elevator panel. It stops on the fourth floor.
We canât go up there. Thatâs a sure way to get made.
Hyunjin is vibrating with anxiety. âOkay. Heâs upstairs. With her, presumably. In their criminal lair. Our work here is done. We have successfully stalked the stalkers. Time to retreat with our dignity and our lives.â
But the hotel has a business center. A reckless plan forms.
âHyunjin, I need you to create a diversion at the front desk.ââ¨His face goes white. âA DIVERSION? What am I, a magician? Should I start juggling? Claim Iâve seen a ghost? Because technically, I have!â
âJust⌠ask for directions. Complicated directions. In very slow Korean.ââ¨âThey donât speak Korean here!ââ¨âExactly. Itâll take time.â
While Hyunjin approaches the front desk with the grim determination of a man walking the plank,
I slip into the business centre. There are two older desktop computers. I sit at one, bring up the web browser, and type in the name of the hotel followed by âguest Wi-Fi password.â Sometimes itâs on a sticker behind the front desk. Sometimes itâs something stupid like âWelcome123.â
A minute of searching a travel forum later, I have it. I connect my phone to the hotelâs Wi-Fi.
Then, I open an app Iâd had Aris install weeks ago, when this hunt first began. A network scanner. Itâs not exactly legal. It searches for devices connected to the same Wi-Fi network.
Hyunjin stumbles into the business center a minute later, looking traumatized. âI asked for directions to the âTemple of the Morning Calm.â He thought I was having a stroke. What are we doing in this sad little room?â
A list pops up. iPhone (Ethan), MacBook Pro (Victor), iPad (Liam), iPhone (Cipher).
He glances at my phone screen. âWhat is that? A list of⌠oh. Oh no. Those are their phones. Hyung, thatâs like reading their mail! Their digital mail! We are violating so many international privacy laws right now I can feel Interpol warming up the helicopter.â
My breath catches. Cipher. The name from Arisâs whisper. Her operational name. Itâs here. On the fourth floor.
Sheâs here. Right above me.
The thrill is so intense itâs almost painful. I have a digital thread to her. Itâs not much. I canât see her messages or her location. But I know her device is on this network. Sheâs in this building.
We sit in the business center for almost an hour, watching the list. The devices come and go, connecting and disconnecting. Cipherâs iPhone disconnects at 12:15 PM.
Sheâs leaving.
We hurry out to the lobby, positioning ourselves behind a large potted plant with a view of the elevator and the front door.
The elevator dings. The doors open.
Itâs the man from the cafĂŠ. And with him, walking side-by-side, deep in quiet conversation, is her.
Not Lola. This version has chestnut hair in a sleek bob, wearing a chic, cream-colored pantsuit and carrying a soft leather portfolio. She looks like a gallery owner or a high-end auction house representative. Utterly convincing. Hyunjin freezes, his eyes huge. He mouths, âWOW.â
They walk past my hiding spot, close enough that I catch a hint of her perfumeâsomething expensive and clean, like cold jasmine and ozone. They donât look left or right. Theyâre professionals exiting a job.
They head out the front door and turn right, towards the taxi stand.
I should follow. But I donât.
A reckless, insane plan is forming in my mind. Theyâre checking out. The room will be empty. The digital thread is gone, but I have a physical location.
I wait five minutes and hyunjin next to me still anxiously waiting for the next move.
âSheâs a machine,â Hyunjin whispers, impressed despite himself.
âSheâs the most fascinating person Iâve ever seen,â I breathe.
Hyunjin looks at me, his face a mask of profound pity. âOh, hyung. Youâve got it so bad. Youâre in love with a Swiss watch thief.â
âSheâs not just a thief.ââ¨âWhat is she, then? Your muse? Because let me tell you, muses usually donât clean out your bank account. They just break your heart for free.â
I walk to the front desk. the 100-euro note in my hand.
Hyunjin pulls me back. âWhat are you doing? What is that money for? Bribery? Weâre adding bribery to the list? The list keeps getting longer and longer, hyung!â
The clerk is a young man looking bored.
I slip on my most charming, slightly embarrassed smile. âHi, Iâm so sorry to bother you. My⌠uh⌠my girlfriend and I had a huge fight. She stormed out. Sheâs staying here, room 412, under the nameâŚâ I rack my brain, thinking of the names on the device list. âUnder the name⌠Lola? I just want to leave a note for her. An apology. Is there any way I could just⌠slip it under her door? I promise I wonât disturb anything.â
I slide a folded 100-euro note across the counter with my hand.
The clerk looks at the money, then at my genuinely desperate, heartbroken-idol face. He hesitates, then gives a tiny nod. âFive minutes. Take the service elevator. I didnât see you.â
âThank you. Youâre saving my life.â
Hyunjin is aghast. âYou lied! You bribed! Youâre going to break into a room! This is a heist movie, but weâre the bumbling comic relief who get caught in the first act!â He rambled on as we entered the elevator.
Room 412. The credit card trick. Hyunjin stands guard in the hallway, whispering a continuous, panicked stream of commentary.
Room 412 is at the end of a quiet hallway. I use a credit cardâan old trick I learned from a movieâto slip the cheap latch. It takes three tries, my hands sweating, but the door clicks open.
âItâs just to leave a note,â I say, using the credit card on the door.
âBREAKING AND ENTERING!â Hyunjin yelps, looking frantically down the hallway. âIâm a lookout! Iâm officially a lookout! I canât go to prison, my skin routine wonât survive!
The room is pristine. It looks untouched. Bed made, no personal items. Itâs been cleaned or they are incredibly tidy.
Hyunjin peeks in. âItâs cleaner than our dorm after a manager inspection. These are professional cleaners. Or professional ghosts.â
But they werenât expecting a search. Not here.
I go to the desk. Nothing. The trash can is empty. I check the bedside tables. Empty.
Frustration starts to rise again. Then I see it. Tucked almost invisibly into the space between the headboard and the wallâa single, crumpled piece of thick, creamy stationery. It must have fallen and been missed.
I smooth it out.
Itâs not a note. Itâs a sketch. A beautiful, detailed pencil sketch.
Of me.
Not as I am now, but as I was that night in New York. My head tilted back, eyes closed, a look of intense, vulnerable feeling on my face. Itâs drawn from memory. Her memory. The lines are confident, loving, full of a detail that speaks of obsessive study.
On the bottom corner, in small, elegant script, are two words.
My Phantom
The world narrows. Hyunjin creeps in, looks over my shoulder, and his dramatic panic evaporates into stunned silence.
âOh,â he says softly, all the humor gone from his voice. âOh, wow.â
He looks at the detailed, intimate rendering of my face, at the two words scribbled in the corner. My Phantom.
He looks from the paper to my face, and his expression shifts into one of dawning, horrified understanding. Heâs no longer looking at his hyung chasing a thief. Heâs looking at a man caught in a mutual, impossible obsession.
âItâs not just you,â Hyunjin whispers, his voice full of pity and wonder. âSheâs chasing you too. In her head. Sheâs⌠sheâs drawing you.â His expression softens into something like grief. âShe sees you,â he whispers. âI mean, really sees you.â
I stare at it, my heart hammering against my ribs. The world narrows to the paper in my hands. All the chase, the frustration, the mystery⌠it crystallizes in this single, stolen moment of hers.
Sheâs not just running.â¨Sheâs remembering.â¨Sheâs drawing me.
I carefully fold the sketch and slip it into my inner jacket pocket, right over my heart. I erase any trace of my presence and slip back out of the room.
We slip out. Back on the sun-drenched street, Hyunjin is quiet for a full block. The weight of what weâve seenâwhat Iâve seenâsettles between us.
Finally, he slings an arm around my shoulders, his voice uncharacteristically gentle. âOkay. So your maybe-felon muse, who is also a shockingly talented artist, is drawing secret portraits of you with enough emotional intensity to power a small city.â He sighs, a heavy, dramatic sound. âWhatâs the next catastrophically bad idea?â
I look at him, the sketch a warm, undeniable truth over my heart. âI have to find where sheâs going next.â
Hyunjin, sighed dramatically . âOf course you do. Then do what? Whatâs the next terrible, inadvisable step in your master plan?â
I canât help but smile. âI have no idea.â
Hyunjin nods sagely. âPerfect. Truly masterful strategy. Letâs get that carbonara. I need strength for the impending descent into madness.â
Livinâ La Vida Loca â Bangchan ||
summary â The plan was flawless: slip into a high-end Manhattan rooftop party as "Lola," charm the leader of Stray Kids, spike his drink, and vanish with the haul. But Chris doesn't go down easy. When the sedative fails to pull him under, a high-stakes duel of dominance explodes behind closed doors-leaving a trail of stolen platinum, a phantom ache, and a fiercely obsessed popstar determined to hunt his beautiful thief down.
pairing â Idol! Chan x Agent! Reader (Cipher)
genre â spy/thief au, crime/action romance, smut (in chapter |), dual pov, forbidden love
cw/tags â mostly plot, past abuse/physical violence (mentioned only), mild psychological threat, mild? criminal acts
word count â 2.5k words
A/n â omg I know this took SO long Iâm sooo sorry for the wait for the long ass wait đđ I really hope you guys like chapter two!!! Btw THANK YOUU sooo much for all of the support on my last three posts and ESPECIALLY my first ever post, I never expected for it to blow up!!!I love you ALLL SOOO muchhh đđđ (NOT PROOF READ YET!!!)
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Livinâ La Vida Loca â Part |
The van is silent on the ride from the private airstrip. The only sounds are the hum of the engine and the soft, precise clicks of Ethanâs fingers on his keyboard as he performs the final digital sanitization of the New York operation. The Patek Philippe watch sits in a lead-lined case on the seat beside me, its weight a tangible anchor to the chaos Iâve left behind.
Halle drives, her eyes on the dark French countryside giving way to the first glow of urban sprawl. Victor and Liam are already gone, melting into the network to handle the fencing of the goods through our usual, untraceable channels. Emma sits across from me, her posture relaxed but her eyes watchful, analyzing my silence.
I havenât spoken since I got on the plane. My body is here, in the van, dressed in simple, forgettable clothesâjeans, a black sweater, hair pulled back in a plain ponytail. But my mind is trapped in a penthouse suite in Manhattan, against a wall, in a bed that still held the warmth of a man who looked at me like I was a revelation, not a mark.
Chris.
The name is a hook in my chest. I close my eyes, but I see his: dark, intense, disarmingly honest. I feel the ghost of his hands, the scrape of his teeth, the devastating way he said, âYou taste like a lie, and I want to drink the whole bottle.â
âHead in the game, Cipher,â Emma says softly, not unkindly. âKostas wonât like it if youâre elsewhere.â
I open my eyes, nodding once. Cipher. Thatâs who I am here. Not Lola. Not Me. A function. An algorithm.
We donât enter the city of skyscrapers through the glittering downtown. Halle takes a series of turns into La DĂŠfense, the massive business district just west of Paris. Itâs a forest of glass and steel, monolithic towers housing the European headquarters of banks, energy conglomerates, and tech giants. It is the epitome of corporate power, cold and impersonal. The perfect place to hide.
Our destination is the Tour Majunga, a sleek, rhombus-shaped tower that pierces the grey sky. We enter through the underground parking, using keycards that identify us as employees of Veridian Dynamics, a blandly-named consulting firm that occupies three floors mid-tower. The cover is impeccable, complete with a functioning office, legitimate (if boring) business fronts, and a staff of actual analysts who have no idea what happens on the secured top floor.
The elevator ride is smooth, silent. It opens not into a reception area, but into a stark, minimalist antechamber. White walls, grey floor, a single retinal scanner. Emma places her eye against it. A soft chime, and a section of the wall slides back without a sound.
The room beyond is a study in controlled power. Floor-to-ceiling windows offer a breathtaking, sterile view of the geometric cityscape. The interior is all brushed steel, dark wood, and low, ambient lighting. There are no papers, no clutter. A single large screen dominates one wall, currently dark. This is not a villainâs lair. Itâs a boardroom for ghosts.
Kostas is waiting.
He stands by the window, a silhouette against the cold light. Heâs in his fifties, lean, with silver-grey hair cut with military precision and a face that seems carved from marbleâhandsome, but utterly without warmth. He wears a perfectly tailored charcoal suit. He doesnât turn as we enter.
âThe take has been processed,â Emma reports, her voice crisp in the vast quiet. âThe watch will be in Switzerland by morning. The cards are already drained and destroyed. The passport has been⌠disposed of. Clean extraction. Zero forensic trace.â
Kostas finally turns. His eyes, a pale, unsettling blue, go straight to me, bypassing Emma completely. âClean extraction,â he repeats, his voice a low, cultured baritone. âBiometric data from your subcutaneous tracker tells a more nuanced story, Cipher.â
He walks to the steel desk and taps a console. The large screen flickers to life. It doesnât show security footage or schematics. It displays a series of graphsâheart rate, respiratory rate, galvanic skin responseâall plotted against a timeline of the New York operation.
I see the predictable spikes: initial contact with the mark, the administration of the sedative, the movement to the secondary location. Then, thereâs a massive, sustained elevation. A plateau of heightened vitals that lasts for nearly for half an hour. Far longer than any previous engagement.
âYour physiological markers indicate a state of extreme arousal and heightened emotional affect for thirty-four minutes,â Kostas states, his tone clinical. âThe âpersuasionâ window, as you called it. The dose was standard. The mark, Bang Chan, has no known extraordinary metabolic resistance. The data suggests he was conscious, active, and that you were⌠engaged.â
He lets the word hang in the air. Engaged. It covers everything. The fight, the kiss, the sex. The feeling of his skin under my hands, the sound of my nameâmy fake nameâon his lips like it meant something.
âThe mark was resistant,â I say, my own voice sounding foreign in this room. âHe didnât lose consciousness as projected. I had to improvise to ensure the objective was met. The prolonged engagement was a tactical necessity.â
âA tactical necessity,â Kostas echoes. He walks around the desk until heâs standing directly in front of me. Heâs not tall, but his presence is immense, suffocating. âYou have a history of improvisation, Cipher. It is often your strength. But it is born from a specific⌠vulnerability.â He pauses, his eyes boring into mine. âBack when we rescued you from the gutter in Prague. Half-dead, betrayed by a mark you were foolish enough to care for. What was his name? Alexei?â
The name is a punch to the solar plexus. I keep my face blank, but I feel the old phantom pains flareâthe crack of ribs, the taste of blood.
âYou swore then that sentiment was a poison. That you would become a tool. Sharp, precise, and feelingless.â He leans in slightly. âThis data⌠this deviation⌠suggests the poison may still be in your system. Did you feel something for this Korean pop star, Cipher? In between stealing his possessions, did you forget to steal back your own heart?â
The accusation is a razor. Heâs not just questioning my professionalism; heâs dissecting my one, hard-won protection.
âThe objective was achieved,â I repeat, clinging to the fact like a lifeline. âThe take was secured. The protocol, aside from an unforeseen biological variable in the mark, was followed.â
Kostas stares at me for a long, silent moment. The hum of the climate control is the only sound. Finally, he steps back.
âThe objective was achieved,â he concedes. âAnd the take was significant. Therefore, you are not being benched. Yet.â He returns to his position by the window. âYour next assignment is in Rome. The file is ready. The parameters are standard.â
He turns his head, looking at me over his shoulder, his profile sharp against the glass. âBut understand this, Y/N.â
The use of my real nameânot Cipherâis the greatest threat of all. It means heâs speaking to the broken girl from Prague, not the phantom he rebuilt.
âSentiment is a flaw. And flaws get people killed and one more deviation. One more prolonged âtactical necessityâ that aligns with your biometrics instead of the mission clock. One more hint that you are viewing a mark as anything other than a resource to be extractedâŚâ He lets the sentence trail off, his gaze sweeping the impersonal, powerful room. âThis agency survives because we are not individuals. We are a function. You are either part of that function, or you are a flaw in the system. And flawsâŚâ He turns fully, his pale eyes utterly devoid of mercy. ââŚare excised.â
The dismissal is clear. Emma touches my elbow lightly, guiding me back towards the silent door.
As we walk back through the antechamber, the weight of the tower, of the entire cold, corporate forest of La DĂŠfense, feels like itâs pressing down on me. I am a ghost, but I haunt a prison of my own making. Kostas owns my past, my skills, my very identity.
And Chris⌠Chris, with his searching eyes and his stolen-song heart, is a beacon in that darkness. A beacon that Kostas has just marked for extinction.
The elevator descends. I look at my reflection in the polished doorsâa woman in a sweater, her face pale, her eyes holding a storm sheâs been ordered to suppress.
The hook in my chest pulls harder.
Heâs looking for you, a treacherous voice whispers inside. And your keeper just told you to forget he exists.
But as the doors open to the underground garage, to the van and the next mission, I know, with a terrifying certainty, that I canât.
The game was supposed to be over in New York.â¨Itâs only just begun.
(CHRIS POV - THE HUNT BEGINS)
The official channels are a dead end. A ghost story the NYPD politely files away. My company, after the initial panic, wants to bury it. "A costly lesson, Chan-ah," Mr. Kim says, clapping my shoulder with a sigh. "We replace the watch, we get a new passport. We move on. No more rooftop parties with mysterious women."
Move on.
The words are a joke. A sick, hollow joke.
I can't move on. I'm stuck in that hotel room, in the phantom imprint of her body on the mattress, in the taste of her that still lingers in my memory like a ghost limb. The fury is still there, a cold coal in my chest. But it's been eclipsed, utterly consumed, by the fascination. The need to know.
I hire someone off the books. A man named Aris, recommended by a producer who deals in things best left in shadows. Aris doesn't have an office. We meet in the back of a silent, smoky jazz club in Brooklyn. He's older, with eyes that have seen too many secrets and a price tag that reflects it.
"I'm not looking for the police," I tell him, sliding a folder across the table. It contains the hotel's useless security report, the guest list, and a sketch hyunjin made for meâher face, from memory. The sharp line of her jaw, the mocking curve of her lips, the eyes that held galaxies and guillotines. "I'm looking for the truth. I'm looking for her."
Aris studies the sketch, then me. "This kind of vanishing act... it's professional. Expensive. You weren't robbed, Mr. Bang. You were processed." He taps the blank space where the camera feeds should have shown her. "This is a level of wipe that speaks of resources, planning, and a team. You're not chasing a woman. You're chasing a phantom."
"Then chase the phantom," I say, my voice quiet but leaving no room for argument. "Find the team. Find the pattern. Start with the party. Someone saw something. A waiter, a valet, a guest who looked twice. Find the gap in the gap."
He takes the folder and my retainer. "It will cost you."
"I don't care."
â
Weeks pass. Promotions in Tokyo, a fanmeet in Singapore. I smile for the cameras, sing the songs, joke with the members. But I'm a hologram. My real self is back in that New York hotel room, or hunched over my laptop in another anonymous hotel, waiting for Aris's encrypted updates.
They're scant. A blurred image of a black van three blocks away, caught on a traffic cam, its plates obscured. A payment to a boutique costume shop for a red silk dress, paid in untraceable cryptocurrency. A whisper from a source in private security about a freelance "extraction team" that sometimes works with a specialist known only as Cipher. A ghost who leaves no trace.
Cipher. The name sends a chill through me. It's not a name. It's a function. An algorithm for erasure.
And it's all I have.
The music is my only outlet. The demo I recorded in a fit of insomniaâ"Phantom (Lola's Song)"âwas never meant to leave my hard drive. But a studio intern, a kid with stars in his eyes and loose lips, leaked it. It goes viral in hours.
The lyrics are raw, too raw. "She was a red silk warning... stole the time from my wrist..." The fans go rabid. Is it a metaphor? A real person? Theories explode online. My phone blows up with concerned texts from the company, from other idols, from my parents.
My members corner me in the green room in Manila.
"Hyung," Han says, uncharacteristically serious. "This song... it's not just a song, is it?"
I don't answer. I'm staring at my phone, at a new message from Aris.
Aris: Pattern detected. Similar high-value theft, same MOâsocial infiltration, targeted mark, digital wipe. Occurred six weeks ago in Paris. Target: a hedge fund manager. Item taken: a unique vintage necklace. No police report. Our ghost is consistent. Moving to Europe. Likely Paris or Madrid next. I have a facial recognition algorithm running on known associates. It's a long shot.
"Hyung!" Changbin snaps his fingers in front of my face. "You're spiraling. This is getting unhealthy."
I look up at them, my brothers, their faces etched with worry. "What if I don't want to be healthy?" I ask, my voice hollow. "What if I want to be obsessed?"
Felix shakes his head. "She robbed you, man. She used you."
"Did she?" The question escapes before I can stop it. I remember the way she trembled. The way she looked at me right before she kissed me, like she was drowning and I was the only air. "Or did I see something real, and she got scared?"
Seungmin sighs, the practical one. "The probability of a high-level operative developing genuine sentiment during a mission is statistically minuscule. You're constructing a narrative to justifyâ"
"I'm not constructing anything!" I snap, standing up. The room goes quiet. "I'm following a feeling. And the feeling is that she's out there. And she's thinking about me, too."
I know I sound insane. A lovesick fool chasing a criminal who sees him as a mark. But the compulsion is a physical thing, a hook in my ribcage pulling me east, towards Europe.
(YOUR POV - THE GHOST IN ROME)
I watch the music video for "Phantom" from a rooftop in Trastevere, the ancient stones of Rome warm beneath me. Ethan patched the feed to my tablet. I see Chris on screen, singing with a rawness that feels like a physical violation. He's in a reconstructed version of that hotel room, touching the empty space on the bed, running a hand over a wall. The lyrics aren't just about theft. They're about absence. A haunting.
"You left a silence that screams my name..."
I close the tablet, my hands unsteady. This is a complication of catastrophic proportions. My marks are supposed to wake up embarrassed, furious, maybe a little turned on. They are not supposed to write award-nominated heartbreak anthems about me. They are not supposed to look for me.
"Cipher, you seeing this?" Emma's voice is tight in my ear. "The song's trending worldwide. The net is buzzing. If anyone connects the dots between the New York incident and this..."
"I see it," I say, my voice flat.
"He's not letting go," Victor chimes in from the safe house. "Our friend in private security says Bang Chan has hired Aris. He's good. Nosey."
Aris. Shit. I've heard of him. A bloodhound with a moral compass that points solely towards the highest bidder.
"The Madrid job is in two week," Liam says, all business. "The oligarch, Vasiliev. The parameters are the same. Infiltrate the gala, isolate, administer, extract. Clean and fast. We can't afford distractions."
Distractions. They mean him. Chris.
Kostas's warning echoes in my head. Sentiment is a flaw. And flaws get people killed.
I think of Alexei, in Prague. His soft smile, the promises whispered in the dark, the cold feel of the pavement against my cheek as his associates kicked me, left me for dead in an alley for getting "too attached." I survived by playing dead. I vowed never to feel again. To be Cipher, a function, a ghost.
But Chris... Chris didn't try to own me with sweet lies. He saw the storm in me and didn't run for cover. He walked right into the eye of it.
"He's a liability," I say to the empty Roman sky, trying to convince myself. "He's compromising the mission."
But my heart, the stupid, traitorous muscle I thought I'd cauterized years ago, thumps a traitorous rhythm. Liability. Compromise. Hunted.
And beneath it, a whisper: Missed.
(ONE WEEK LATER - ROME)
The scent of Rome is a living thingâancient stone, espresso, exhaust fumes, and the sweet, heavy perfume of ripening figs from a market stall. Iâm Chiara here, a freelance art restorer with a fondness for vintage trench coats and an appointment to âassessâ a certain Cardinalâs private collection of Renaissance sketches. The real sketches are already in Victorâs gloved hands two blocks away; the ones in the Cardinalâs vault are Ethanâs flawless forgeries. Itâs a smooth, elegant job.
Iâm cutting through the Piazza Navona, blending with the afternoon crowds, the roar of the Bernini fountains a pleasant white noise. Iâm thinking of the next flight, the next identity, the next blank hotel room. Iâm not thinking of dark eyes and a voice that felt like a home Iâd never known.
Which is why I miss him.
At first.
Itâs a prickle at the base of my neck, the old, animal sense of being watched. I slow near a gelato cart, pretending to study the flavors. In the polished side of the stainless-steel freezer, I catch a reflection.
Him.
Chris.
Heâs fifty feet back, wearing sunglasses and a grey hoodie pulled up, but his posture is unmistakableâthe set of his shoulders, the focused intensity of his gait. Heâs not strolling. Heâs hunting. And his eyes are locked on me.
Impossible. Madrid is days away. He shouldnât be here. Arisâs reach is longer than I thought, or his intuition is terrifying.
My heart kicks into a frantic, thrilling sprint. The professional part of me screams to execute a pre-planned evasion. The part of me thatâs still Y/N feels a wild, electric jolt of pure adrenaline. He found me.
I donât run. That would confirm it. I turn casually down a narrower street, the Via di Pasquino, lined with small artisan shops. I feel him behind me, closing the distance. My pulse hammers in my throat. The game has suddenly become very, very real.
At a small bookstore, I stop abruptly and turn ducking inside of the store quickly.
Heâs right there. He reaches out, his hand closing around and old local ladyâs upper arm.
âLola,â he says, the name a breathless accusation and a plea.
She turn, letting a mask of irritation, confused annoyance settle over her features. The woman who looks back at him has mousy brown hair, glasses, and a fanny pack. Itâs not me.
âScusi?â She say, her Italian accent perfect, wrinkling her nose.
His face falls. The certainty in his eyes shatters into embarrassed confusion. He drops her arm as if burned. âIâIâm so sorry. I thought you were someone else.â
âStupido americano,â she mutter, rolling her eyes, and turn away, melting back into the foot traffic. I hear him swear softly outside the store
I allow myself a small, fierce smile inside. Too easy.
I take a circuitous route, doubling back twice, entering the crowded chaos of the Campo deâ Fiori market. The air is thick with the smell of flowers, spices, and frying pizza. Iâm just beginning to think Iâve lost him when I see him again. Heâs across the square, near the fountain, his hood down now, scanning the crowd desperately. He looks⌠beautiful and wrecked. Determined.
Our eyes meet through the throng of people.
This time, thereâs no hesitation in his gaze. Itâs a direct hit. He knows.
I give him a slow, deliberate smileâChiaraâs smile wouldnât be so sharp, so knowingâand then I turn and start walking, not too fast, leading him.
He pushes through the crowd, a salmon swimming upstream. I lead him on a merry chase through the market, past stalls of fabric goods and painted ceramics, letting him get close enough to see the back of my jacket, then slipping behind a group of arguing nuns.
He catches up near a produce stall, his hand landing on the shoulder of a woman in a similar trench jacket, her hair the same length.
âGot you,â he says, spinning her around.
Itâs a Swedish tourist in her sixties. She shrieks. Her husband puffs up. Chris is profusely apologizing again, his face a masterpiece of frustration and humiliation.
Iâm leaning against a stone pillar twenty feet away, watching. The thrill is intoxicating. Heâs so close, so sure, and yet Iâm a ghost, slipping through his fingers. Itâs a dangerous, delicious game.
But Iâve played enough. Time to vanish.
I duck into a narrow, shadowed alleyway, the kind that smells of damp cat and centuries. I break into a run, my heels slapping against the cobblestones. The sound echoes.
A moment later, I hear his footsteps behind me. Faster. Heavier.
Heâs running now. No more games.
âHey!â he shouts, his voice echoing off the ancient walls. âStop!â
I donât stop. I fly. The alley twists and turns, a stone labyrinth. I take shortcuts Iâd mapped days agoâthrough a hidden archway, across a tiny courtyard where laundry hangs, startling an old woman who shakes her fist. I can hear him gaining. Heâs athletic, driven, fueled by weeks worth of obsession.
I glances over my shoulder. And then i laugh, a laugh that makes him stumble mid-stride.
A bright, mocking, musical sound that bounces off the ancient walls. Itâs the laugh of me whoâs having the time of my life.
âYouâre slower than I thought, Chris!â I calls back, my voice teasing him, echoing down the alleyway. âAll that time on stage and you canât catch one little art thief?â
âYou stole my watch!â He yells.
âIt looked better on me!â I shouts back, disappearing around another corner.
He slides around the corner after me. Almost within armâs reach. Heâs closer than I thought, my eyes widened just a fraction the mockery from a second ago is replaced by real suprise
I burst out of the maze of alleys onto a broader, bustling streetâthe Via del Corso. Tourists, shoppers, chaos. Perfect.
I spot a taxi just pulling over to let someone out. My exit. My heart hammers against my ribs, part panic, part exhilaration.
I sprint for it, weaving through the crowd. Iâm ten feet away.
âNO! WAIT!â
His voice is right behind me. I risk a glance back. Heâs at the mouth of the alley, chest heaving, hair wild, his eyes locking onto mine with a triumph that says, This time. This time I have you.
I yank the taxi door open and throw myself inside.
âVai! Via! Presto!â I gasp to the driver, slamming the door.
The driver, an older man with a world-weary face, nods and pulls into traffic just as Chrisâs hand slaps against the window where my head had been a second before.
I turn in my seat, looking out the back window.
Heâs standing in the middle of the busy sidewalk, hands on his knees, breathing hard. Heâs not trying to chase the car. He just straightens up, watching the taxi disappear into the Roman traffic. And then, through the dust and distance, I see him do something utterly unexpected.
He grins.
A wide, breathless, triumphant grin. He raises a hand, not in farewell, but in a gesture that says, I see you. And this isnât over.
The taxi turns a corner, and heâs gone.
I slump back in the seat, my own breath coming in ragged gulps. My hands are trembling. I can still feel the ghost of his gaze on me, the heat of his near-catch.
He was so close. He almost had me.
And the most terrifying, thrilling part?
A secret, shameful part of me wishes he had.
(CHRIS'S POV - THE CHASE)
Rome is a furnace, and Iâm burning up from the inside out. A week of dead ends, of Arisâs expensive, frustrating whispers (âSheâs a ghost, Mr. Bang. A gust of wind.â), of staring at the sketch until the paper wore thin. Then, a break. A blurry photo from a traffic cam near the Piazza Navona. A woman in a trench coat, the right height, the right walk. A maybe. A maybe is all I have.
So Iâm here. Roaming. Feeling like the worldâs most lovesick, obsessed idiot.
And then I see her.
Not the leather jacket first. Itâs the way she moves. A fluid, economical grace that cuts through the tourist clutter like a knife. Sheâs ahead of me, turning down a side street. My blood turns to lightning. Itâs her.
I follow, my heart trying to beat its way out of my chest. She stops at a bookstore window. This is it. I close the distance, my hand reaching out. I can almost feel the memory of her skin under my fingers from New York.
I grab her arm. âLola.â
She turns.
Itâs not her.
The face is all wrongâsofter, older, annoyed behind thick glasses. âScusi?â she snaps, Italian and irritation sharp in her tone.
I drop my hand like itâs on fire. Heat floods my face. âIâIâm so sorry. I thought you were someone else.â
âStupido americano,â she mutters, turning away with a dismissive wave.
I stand there, humiliated, the adrenaline crash leaving me shaky. For a second, I doubt everything. Maybe Aris is right. Maybe Iâm just chasing a ghost I invented to explain a night that got out of hand.
I wander into the Campo deâ Fiori, the market noise a dull roar in my ears. I feel stupid. Defeated.
And then I see her.
Really see her.
Sheâs across the square, near a mountain of blood-red peppers. Sheâs not looking at the produce. Sheâs looking right at me. And sheâs smiling. Her smile. The one from the rooftop. Sharp, knowing, a little cruel, and so breathtaking it stops my heart.
Our eyes lock.
Time stops. The market noise fades. Itâs her. Itâs definitely her.
She gives me that smile, a slow, deliberate curl of her lips thatâs a challenge and a promise, and then she turns and starts walking away, not hurrying, just⌠allowing me to follow.
The humiliation evaporates, replaced by a fierce, singular focus. Got you.
I push through the crowd, my eyes glued to the back of her leather jacket. Sheâs a fox leading the hound. She lets me get close, then slips behind a group of nuns. I lose her for a second, then spot the jacket again by a flower stall. I surge forward, my hand landing on a leather-clad shoulder.
âGot you,â I breathe, spinning her around.
An older woman with a shocked Swedish accent yelps. Her husband glares. My face is on fire again. âSorry! So sorry! My mistake!â
More apologies. More embarrassment. When I look up, sheâs gone again.
But this time, Iâm not discouraged. Iâm pissed. And Iâm hooked. Sheâs playing with me. Fine. Letâs play.
I scan the crowd desperately. A flash of movementâa figure ducking into a shadowed alley off the square. Gone.
I sprint for it.
The alley is cool and dark, smelling of wet stone and garbage. And I hear itâthe quick, light tap of heels on cobblestones, echoing ahead. Sheâs running.
So I run.
Iâm faster. I can hear my own breath, my feet pounding. I see her up ahead, a flash of black leather as she darts through a stone archway. I follow, bursting into a tiny sunlit courtyard full of hanging laundry. An old woman shouts at me in rapid Italian. I donât stop.
Iâm gaining on her. The alley twists again, and I see her clearly, just twenty feet ahead.
âHey!â I shout, my voice echoing. âStop!â
She glances over her shoulder. And then she does something that makes me stumble mid-stride.
She laughs.
A bright, mocking, musical sound that bounces off the ancient walls. Itâs not a scared laugh. Itâs the laugh of someone whoâs having the time of her life.
âYouâre slower than I thought, Chris!â she calls back, her voice teasing, echoing. âAll that time on stage and you canât catch one little art thief?â
The words are a slap and a spark. Sheâs mocking me. She remembers my name. She remembers everything. And sheâs enjoying this.
It fuels me. I put on a burst of speed, my lungs burning. âYou stole my watch!â I yell, which sounds ridiculous even as I say it.
âIt looked better on me!â she shouts back, disappearing around another corner.
I skid around the corner after her. Sheâs right there, almost within armâs reach. She looks back, her eyes wide now, the mockery replaced by a flash of real surprise at how close I am.
Then she bursts out of the alley onto a busy main streetâthe Corso. Sunlight, crowds, chaos.
Iâm right behind her. I see her head swivel, searching. She spots a taxi. Her escape.
âNO! WAIT!â The roar is ripped from my throat.
She sprints for it, a final, desperate burst. Iâm a step behind. My hand stretches out. I can almost feel the leather of her jacket.
She wrenches the taxi door open and throws herself inside. The door slams shut just as my palm slaps against the window with a dull thud.
Iâm left standing there, breathing like Iâve run a marathon, sweat stinging my eyes, my hand on the cool glass.
The taxi pulls away, merges into the river of traffic, and is gone.
I bend over, hands on my knees, gulping air. The frustration is a physical pain. She was right there.
But as I straighten up, watching the spot where the taxi disappeared, the frustration melts away. Because Iâm remembering her laugh in the alley. The challenge in her eyes. The way she said my name.
Sheâs not just running from me. Sheâs engagingwith me. This is a conversation. A mad, breathless, thrilling conversation.
A slow grin spreads across my face, unstoppable. I canât help it. Sheâs incredible.
I raise my hand, not in a wave goodbye, but in a salute. Acknowledgment.
I see you. Youâre amazing. And this? I think, the grin turning into a full, breathless smile. This is just getting interesting
â
The grin stays plastered on my face all the way back to the apartment near the Spanish Steps, where Hyunjin is anxiously pacing the length of a Renaissance rug.
âYouâre smiling? After she mocked you and got away? Hyung, thatâs a clinical sign. Thatâs the smile of a man who enjoys being emotionally waterboarded by a criminal!â
âShe remembered my name,â I say, the grin widening.
âShe also remembered you have expensive taste in watches! Thatâs not romance, thatâs market research!â
The frustration is gone, burned away by the pure, electric thrill of the chase. She laughed at me. Sheâs not a ghost. Sheâs a woman. A brilliant, infuriating, captivating woman who is now acutely aware that I am on her tail. This changes everything.
I call Aris. Hyunjin presses his ear to the other side of my phone, his eyes wide.
âRome. Today. Campo deâ Fiori district, around 3 PM.â
âYou saw her?â Arisâs voice is flat, but I hear the professional interest.
âI chased her. She got away in a taxi on the Via del Corso. Silver Fiat taxi, local plates, but I didnât get the number. Sheâs here for a job. She has to be. She was dressed for blending in, not for tourism.â
Hyunjin mouths, âA JOB?â and makes a slashing motion across his throat.
Aris is silent for a moment, the sound of rapid keyboard clicks coming through the phone. âThe only high-value event in Rome today is a private viewing at the Palazzo Doria Pamphilj. A collection of Renaissance sketches from a Cardinalâs private vault. By invitation only, heavy security.â
My mind races. âCan you get me in?â
âAs who? A Korean pop star with a sudden passion for 16th-century Italian drawings? No.â Another pause. âBut I can get you the guest list. And the security feed from the surrounding streets for the last 48 hours. If she was casing it, we might get a clearer image.â
âDo it. And the taxi. There are cameras all over the Corso. Find that taxi.â
Two hours later, the encrypted files arrive. Hyunjin hovers over my shoulder as I open them on my laptop. âThis feels so illegal. Are we going to have to flee the country in the night? I didnât pack a âfleeingâ outfit. I packed linen and regret.â
The guest list is a whoâs who of European old money and discreet collectors. Nothing stands out. But the street footageâŚ
Aris has flagged a woman. Sheâs wearing different clothesâa stylish linen dress, large sunglasses, her hair upâbut the walk is the same. The focused, graceful prowl. She enters a cafĂŠ opposite the Palazzoâs service entrance three times over two days, always sitting at the window, always nursing a single espresso for exactly forty-five minutes. Studying patterns.
âSheâs good,â Aris notes in a text. âBut sheâs also human. She has routines. She likes that cafĂŠ.â
Thatâs my opening.
The next morning, Iâm dragging a sleep-mussed, complaining Hyunjin to that cafĂŠ at 8 AM. I wear a cap, glasses âHyung, this is a terrible idea. A criminal idea. Possibly a felony-adjacent idea.â
Hyunjin sits across from me at a tiny wrought-iron table outside the cafĂŠ opposite the Palazzo Doria Pamphilj. Heâs wearing a massive sunhat and oversized sunglasses, looking less like an undercover operative and more like a very anxious, very beautiful garden gnome whoâs wandered into a spy novel.
Iâve got him with a sketchbook open. Heâs not sketching the palazzo. Heâs sketching her. From memory, my memory.
Hyunjin, nursing a cappuccino thatâs mostly foam, peers at my drawing. âThatâs⌠disturbingly good, hyung. And disturbingly detailed. You remember the exact thickness of lashes. Thatâs not healthy obsession, thatâs forensic illustration.â
She doesnât show up.
Disappointment is a cold stone in my gut. Hyunjin pats my arm. âSee? Sheâs a will-oâ-the-wisp. A beautiful, thief-shaped mirage. Letâs go see some actual art that isnât going to get us arrested.â
Iâm about to leave when the cafĂŠ door chimes. Itâs not her.
Itâs a man. Mid-thirties, sharp suit, carrying a sleek leather briefcase. He sits at her table, orders an espresso, and pulls out a tablet. But heâs not looking at the palazzo. Heâs glancing, subtly but repeatedly, at his watch.
âPartner,â I murmur.
âACCOMPLICE,â Hyunjin corrects in a horrified whisper, sinking lower in his chair. âThat man has âshady business associateâ written all over him. He probably has a secret pocket in that briefcase for lockpicks and moral flexibility!â
Twenty minutes pass. The man gets a text, reads it, a slight smile touching his lips. He finishes his espresso, leaves cash, and walks out.
I give him a thirty-second lead, then stand.
Hyunjin grabs my wrist. âWhere are you going? Youâre not going to follow the scary briefcase man, are you? Heâs the muscle! He probably knows seven ways to kill a man with a breadstick!â
âStay here. Order another coffee.ââ¨âIâM NOT LETTING YOU GO ALONE INTO A BREADSTICK-ASSASSIN AMBUSH!â
Somehow, Hyunjin ends up trailing behind me as we follow the man three blocks to a nondescript business hotel. The kind used for business travelers. He doesnât go to the front desk. He heads straight for the elevators.
We linger in the lobby, pretending to be on busy doing something. I watch the elevator panel. It stops on the fourth floor.
We canât go up there. Thatâs a sure way to get made.
Hyunjin is vibrating with anxiety. âOkay. Heâs upstairs. With her, presumably. In their criminal lair. Our work here is done. We have successfully stalked the stalkers. Time to retreat with our dignity and our lives.â
But the hotel has a business center. A reckless plan forms.
âHyunjin, I need you to create a diversion at the front desk.ââ¨His face goes white. âA DIVERSION? What am I, a magician? Should I start juggling? Claim Iâve seen a ghost? Because technically, I have!â
âJust⌠ask for directions. Complicated directions. In very slow Korean.ââ¨âThey donât speak Korean here!ââ¨âExactly. Itâll take time.â
While Hyunjin approaches the front desk with the grim determination of a man walking the plank,
I slip into the business centre. There are two older desktop computers. I sit at one, bring up the web browser, and type in the name of the hotel followed by âguest Wi-Fi password.â Sometimes itâs on a sticker behind the front desk. Sometimes itâs something stupid like âWelcome123.â
A minute of searching a travel forum later, I have it. I connect my phone to the hotelâs Wi-Fi.
Then, I open an app Iâd had Aris install weeks ago, when this hunt first began. A network scanner. Itâs not exactly legal. It searches for devices connected to the same Wi-Fi network.
Hyunjin stumbles into the business center a minute later, looking traumatized. âI asked for directions to the âTemple of the Morning Calm.â He thought I was having a stroke. What are we doing in this sad little room?â
A list pops up. iPhone (Ethan), MacBook Pro (Victor), iPad (Liam), iPhone (Cipher).
He glances at my phone screen. âWhat is that? A list of⌠oh. Oh no. Those are their phones. Hyung, thatâs like reading their mail! Their digital mail! We are violating so many international privacy laws right now I can feel Interpol warming up the helicopter.â
My breath catches. Cipher. The name from Arisâs whisper. Her operational name. Itâs here. On the fourth floor.
Sheâs here. Right above me.
The thrill is so intense itâs almost painful. I have a digital thread to her. Itâs not much. I canât see her messages or her location. But I know her device is on this network. Sheâs in this building.
We sit in the business center for almost an hour, watching the list. The devices come and go, connecting and disconnecting. Cipherâs iPhone disconnects at 12:15 PM.
Sheâs leaving.
We hurry out to the lobby, positioning ourselves behind a large potted plant with a view of the elevator and the front door.
The elevator dings. The doors open.
Itâs the man from the cafĂŠ. And with him, walking side-by-side, deep in quiet conversation, is her.
Not Lola. This version has chestnut hair in a sleek bob, wearing a chic, cream-colored pantsuit and carrying a soft leather portfolio. She looks like a gallery owner or a high-end auction house representative. Utterly convincing. Hyunjin freezes, his eyes huge. He mouths, âWOW.â
They walk past my hiding spot, close enough that I catch a hint of her perfumeâsomething expensive and clean, like cold jasmine and ozone. They donât look left or right. Theyâre professionals exiting a job.
They head out the front door and turn right, towards the taxi stand.
I should follow. But I donât.
A reckless, insane plan is forming in my mind. Theyâre checking out. The room will be empty. The digital thread is gone, but I have a physical location.
I wait five minutes and hyunjin next to me still anxiously waiting for the next move.
âSheâs a machine,â Hyunjin whispers, impressed despite himself.
âSheâs the most fascinating person Iâve ever seen,â I breathe.
Hyunjin looks at me, his face a mask of profound pity. âOh, hyung. Youâve got it so bad. Youâre in love with a Swiss watch thief.â
âSheâs not just a thief.ââ¨âWhat is she, then? Your muse? Because let me tell you, muses usually donât clean out your bank account. They just break your heart for free.â
I walk to the front desk. the 100-euro note in my hand.
Hyunjin pulls me back. âWhat are you doing? What is that money for? Bribery? Weâre adding bribery to the list? The list keeps getting longer and longer, hyung!â
The clerk is a young man looking bored.
I slip on my most charming, slightly embarrassed smile. âHi, Iâm so sorry to bother you. My⌠uh⌠my girlfriend and I had a huge fight. She stormed out. Sheâs staying here, room 412, under the nameâŚâ I rack my brain, thinking of the names on the device list. âUnder the name⌠Lola? I just want to leave a note for her. An apology. Is there any way I could just⌠slip it under her door? I promise I wonât disturb anything.â
I slide a folded 100-euro note across the counter with my hand.
The clerk looks at the money, then at my genuinely desperate, heartbroken-idol face. He hesitates, then gives a tiny nod. âFive minutes. Take the service elevator. I didnât see you.â
âThank you. Youâre saving my life.â
Hyunjin is aghast. âYou lied! You bribed! Youâre going to break into a room! This is a heist movie, but weâre the bumbling comic relief who get caught in the first act!â He rambled on as we entered the elevator.
Room 412. The credit card trick. Hyunjin stands guard in the hallway, whispering a continuous, panicked stream of commentary.
Room 412 is at the end of a quiet hallway. I use a credit cardâan old trick I learned from a movieâto slip the cheap latch. It takes three tries, my hands sweating, but the door clicks open.
âItâs just to leave a note,â I say, using the credit card on the door.
âBREAKING AND ENTERING!â Hyunjin yelps, looking frantically down the hallway. âIâm a lookout! Iâm officially a lookout! I canât go to prison, my skin routine wonât survive!
The room is pristine. It looks untouched. Bed made, no personal items. Itâs been cleaned or they are incredibly tidy.
Hyunjin peeks in. âItâs cleaner than our dorm after a manager inspection. These are professional cleaners. Or professional ghosts.â
But they werenât expecting a search. Not here.
I go to the desk. Nothing. The trash can is empty. I check the bedside tables. Empty.
Frustration starts to rise again. Then I see it. Tucked almost invisibly into the space between the headboard and the wallâa single, crumpled piece of thick, creamy stationery. It must have fallen and been missed.
I smooth it out.
Itâs not a note. Itâs a sketch. A beautiful, detailed pencil sketch.
Of me.
Not as I am now, but as I was that night in New York. My head tilted back, eyes closed, a look of intense, vulnerable feeling on my face. Itâs drawn from memory. Her memory. The lines are confident, loving, full of a detail that speaks of obsessive study.
On the bottom corner, in small, elegant script, are two words.
My Phantom
The world narrows. Hyunjin creeps in, looks over my shoulder, and his dramatic panic evaporates into stunned silence.
âOh,â he says softly, all the humor gone from his voice. âOh, wow.â
He looks at the detailed, intimate rendering of my face, at the two words scribbled in the corner. My Phantom.
He looks from the paper to my face, and his expression shifts into one of dawning, horrified understanding. Heâs no longer looking at his hyung chasing a thief. Heâs looking at a man caught in a mutual, impossible obsession.
âItâs not just you,â Hyunjin whispers, his voice full of pity and wonder. âSheâs chasing you too. In her head. Sheâs⌠sheâs drawing you.â His expression softens into something like grief. âShe sees you,â he whispers. âI mean, really sees you.â
I stare at it, my heart hammering against my ribs. The world narrows to the paper in my hands. All the chase, the frustration, the mystery⌠it crystallizes in this single, stolen moment of hers.
Sheâs not just running.â¨Sheâs remembering.â¨Sheâs drawing me.
I carefully fold the sketch and slip it into my inner jacket pocket, right over my heart. I erase any trace of my presence and slip back out of the room.
We slip out. Back on the sun-drenched street, Hyunjin is quiet for a full block. The weight of what weâve seenâwhat Iâve seenâsettles between us.
Finally, he slings an arm around my shoulders, his voice uncharacteristically gentle. âOkay. So your maybe-felon muse, who is also a shockingly talented artist, is drawing secret portraits of you with enough emotional intensity to power a small city.â He sighs, a heavy, dramatic sound. âWhatâs the next catastrophically bad idea?â
I look at him, the sketch a warm, undeniable truth over my heart. âI have to find where sheâs going next.â
Hyunjin, sighed dramatically . âOf course you do. Then do what? Whatâs the next terrible, inadvisable step in your master plan?â
I canât help but smile. âI have no idea.â
Hyunjin nods sagely. âPerfect. Truly masterful strategy. Letâs get that carbonara. I need strength for the impending descent into madness.â
Livinâ La Vida Loca â Bangchan
summary â The plan was flawless: slip into a high-end Manhattan rooftop party as "Lola," charm the leader of Stray Kids, spike his drink, and vanish with the haul. But Chris doesn't go down easy. When the sedative fails to pull him under, a high-stakes duel of dominance explodes behind closed doors-leaving a trail of stolen platinum, a phantom ache, and a fiercely obsessed popstar determined to hunt his beautiful thief down.
pairing â Idol! Chan x Agent! Reader (Cipher)
genre â spy/thief au, crime/action romance, smut, dual pov, first part of a series maybe?
cw/tags â smut, rough sex, slight choking/neck holding, hair pulling, marking/biting, different positions, dirty talk?, drug use (spiked drink/ sedative), Alcohol, theft & crime elements.
word count â 2.2k words
A/n â this is the major series debut maybe?? If you guys want a part two please tell and tell you thought about this story!!! ALSO heavily inspired by the song "Livin' La Vida Loca" by Ricky Martin the specific part "Woke up in New York City, In a funky cheap hotel, She took my heart and she took my money, she must've slipped me a sleepin' pill" funny story I kept getting this idea while playing this song on JustDance đđđ I hope you guys enjoy it!!! (NOT READ PROOF YET)
The rooftop in Manhattan is a glass-and-steel jewel box floating above the electric spill of the city. Private party. The kind where the champagne costs more than most people's rent and the laughter is a currency all its own. Youâre there as Lola tonight. Hair a cascade of ink-black waves, lips the color of a fresh wound, a dress of red silk that moves like liquid sin. You hold your martiniâthree olives, alwaysânot like a drink, but like a weapon you're deciding whether to use.
Heâs across the terrace, holding court but not really listening. Bang ChanâChris to the inner circleâleader of Stray Kids, here for a magazine shoot and some industry mingling heâd rather avoid. Heâs in a simple black suit, but it can't hide the leashed energy, the sharp intelligence in his eyes as they scan the room. They land on you. And stop.
You feel itâthe weight of a gaze thatâs more than casual appreciation. Youâre used to being looked at. You are, after all, the trap. But this⌠this feels like being seen. You give him the ghost of a smile, the one that says come here, I dare you.
He does.
âYou look like youâre plotting a murder,â he says by way of hello, his voice a low, warm rumble that cuts through the cocktail jazz. His English is flawless, edged with that melodic Australian accent.
âOr a masterpiece,â you counter, taking a slow sip, your eyes never leaving his. âThe line is famously thin.â
He laughs, a genuine, surprised sound. He gets you a drink without asking what you wantâa bourbon, neatâand hands it to you. âTry this. Itâs got more of a heartbeat.â
You take it. Your fingers brush. The contact is a static shock. Professional detachment, you remind yourself. Heâs a target. A rich, famous, beautifully packaged target.
The flirtation is a duel. Heâs quick, clever, disarming. He doesnât just parrot lines; he listens. He asks about the book youâre pretending to have read, calls you out on a detail you fudge. Itâs exhilarating. Dangerous. For a moment, you forget the tiny, odorless vial tucked against your thigh.
He leans in, the scent of himâsandalwood and something inherently goodâwashing over you. âYouâre not like anyone here,â he murmurs, almost to himself.
âAnd what are they like?â you purr.
âPredictable.â His eyes hold yours. âYouâre a mystery wrapped in a red dress.â
The plan is simple. Get him alone. Spike his drink when he looks away. Your teamâEmma on comms, Victor and Liam as shadows in the service corridor, Halle as your getaway driver in a nondescript van three blocks away, Ethan already scrubbing the building's external feedsâis in position. The moment arrives. He turns to flag down a waiter. It takes less than a second. The clear liquid disappears into his bourbon.
You suggested going somewhere quiet and he took you to his private suite
The secluded room was as a velvet-draped cocoon, the city's glitter a silent panorama beyond the glass. The drug was in his system. Youâd watched it disappear into the amber depths of his bourbon. You were counting the slow, silent beats in your head.
Sixty. He should be feeling a heaviness behind his eyes.â¨Ninety. A slight slur, a blink that lasts too long.
But Chris just set his glass down on the low table with a definitive click. His eyes, dark and clear, found yours. There was no haze in them. Only a focused, burning intensity that stripped away every layer of your âLolaâ persona and saw straight down to the frantic pulse beneath.
âYouâre thinking too loud,â he murmured, his voice a low vibration that seemed to travel through the plush sofa and into your bones.
âAnd what am I thinking?â you breathed, your professional smile feeling brittle.
âThat this is a game,â he said, closing the small distance between them. âAnd youâre not sure whoâs winning.â
Before you could summon a retort, his hand was cradling the back of your neck, his touch both firm and impossibly gentle. He didnât ask. He took.
His mouth crashed into yours.
It wasnât the tentative kiss of a new attraction. It was a claim. A hot, searching, open-mouthed kiss that stole the air from your lungs and the plan from your mind. His tongue swept against yours, tasting of expensive bourbon and a heat that was purely, dangerously him. You gasped into the kiss, and he swallowed the sound, his other arm banding around your waist to haul you flush against him.
Every alarm in your trained mind was blaring. Abort. Disengage. This is a critical deviation. But your bodyâyour traitorous, alive, starved bodyâarched into the solid wall of his chest. Your hands, meant to push him away, fisted in the fine wool of his suit jacket, holding on.
He broke the kiss, just enough to rest his forehead against yours, his breath coming in ragged gusts against your lips. âYou taste like a lie,â he whispered, his thumb stroking the frantic pulse in your throat. âAnd I want to drink the whole bottle.â
The metaphor, the raw poetry of it, cracked something open inside you. This wasnât some mark drowning in his own ego. This was a man who saw in layers, who felt in colors. And he was looking at you like you were the most fascinating mystery heâd ever encountered.
Pivot. Adapt. The objective is still the same. Overwhelm. Distract. Take control.
You let the calculated seductress fall away, replaced by something hungrier, more real. You kissed him back with a fury that matched his own, biting his lower lip, sucking it into your mouth until he groaned. You pushed him back, and he let you, falling onto the deep cushions of the sofa, his eyes wide with surprise and blazing desire.
You straddled his lap, the red silk of your dress riding high on your thighs. You framed his face with your hands, forcing his gaze to hold yours. âYou talk too much,â you breathed, before descending on his mouth again.
This time, you led. Your kiss was all teeth and tongue and desperate, slick heat. You poured every ounce of your conflicted energy into itâthe fear, the adrenaline, the shocking, unwanted thrill. He met you thrust for thrust, his hands sliding up your thighs, gripping the bare skin above your stockings, his fingers digging in with a possessiveness that made your core clench.
He stood up suddenly, lifting you with him as if you weighed nothing. Your legs wrapped around his waist instinctively. He carried you like that, through a door you hadnât noticed, into a lavish bedroom suite. He didnât make it to the bed. He pinned you against the nearest wall, the cool wallpaper a shock against your back.
He growled into the skin of your neck, his mouth leaving a trail of burning kisses.
His hands finding the hidden zipper of your dress. He yanked it down in one smooth, ruthless motion. The red silk pooled at your feet like spilled blood. He looked at you, standing there in just your lace bra, panties, and stockings, and the raw hunger in his eyes was almost feral. âYouâre a storm. A beautiful, fucking dangerous storm.â
He stripped his own jacket and shirt off, revealing the taut, sculpted planes of his torso, the muscles youâd only seen in photos and videos now a living map under your fingertips. You pushed him backward onto the king-sized bed. He fell, pulling you down on top of him.
What followed was not love-making. It was a collision.
There was no gentle undressing. Clothes were torn at, pushed aside. His mouth was everywhereâsucking a dark mark onto the swell of your breast, laving your nipple through the lace until you cried out, biting the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. You retaliated, scraping your nails down his back, leaving red trails, sinking your teeth into the muscle of his shoulder, tasting salt and skin.
When he finally, mercifully, pushed your panties down your legs and thrust into you, it was with a single, deep, conquering stroke that punched the air from your lungs. You were wetâshamefully, betrayally wetâbut he was big, stretching you, filling you in a way that felt less like sex and more like a brand.
âLook at me,â he commanded, his voice guttural.
You forced your eyes open. His face was above yours, strained with pleasure, his gaze locked on yours with an intimacy that was more invasive than his body inside you. He moved, setting a relentless, pounding rhythm that had the headboard slamming against the wall in a steady, obscene beat.
There was no tenderness. It was a furious, glorious fight for dominance. You rolled him over, riding him with a desperate intensity, your head thrown back, your breasts bouncing. He gripped your hips, guiding you, slamming you down onto him, his eyes devouring the sight.
âYouâre perfect,â he choked out, his hands sliding up to squeeze your breasts, his thumbs rubbing your nipples. âFucking perfect. Like thisâtaking what you want.â
The words, the filthy, praising truth of them, coiled the tension in your belly tighter. You were close, teetering on an edge made sharper by the knowledge that this was wrong, that you were betraying every rule, that you were feeling.
He seemed to sense it. He flipped you again, onto your hands and knees. He entered you from behind, one hand tangling in your hair, pulling just enough to arch your back, the other wrapped around your throat, not squeezing, just holding, possessing. The new angle was devastating, each thrust hitting a spot that made you see stars.
âCome on, Lola,â he snarled, his pace becoming brutal, animalistic. âLet me feel it. Let me feel you come on my cock.â
The permission shattered you. Your orgasm ripped through you, violent and silent, a seismic wave that locked your muscles and tore a soundless scream from your throat. You clenched around him, pulsing wildly.
With a ragged shout, he followed, his own release pumping into you, hot and deep, as he collapsed over your back, his forehead pressed between your shoulder blades, his body trembling.
For long minutes, there was only the sound of harsh breathing and the distant hum of the city. The drug, delayed or fought off by his sheer will and adrenaline, finally began to pull him under. You felt his weight grow heavier, his breathing deepen and slow into the rhythms of unconsciousness.
You carefully extracted yourself from under him. He murmured something unintelligible, his hand fluttering as if to reach for you, before falling still.
You stood naked by the bed, looking down at him. In sleep, the intensity was gone. He looked young, vulnerable. A faint bruise was already forming on his shoulder from your bite. Your chest ached with a hollow, terrifying pang.
Then your comm buzzed. Emmaâs voice, a lifeline to reality. âLola, extract. Now. Heat on the perimeter.â
You moved.
Like a ghost, you dressed in the practical black clothes from your go-bag that Ethan hid earlier in the vents. You wiped down every surface with a chemical cloth. You collected the red silk dress, the stockings, every strand of your dark hair from the sink. You took his wallet, sliding out the thick stack of bills and the platinum cards. You lifted the heavy, exquisite watch from his nightstand, the metal still warm from his skin. You found his passport in the inside pocket of his discarded suit jacket.
You paused, your fingers on the small, worn photo tucked behind a credit cardâa picture of him with his members, all laughing, younger. You left it.
With one last, unreadable look at the man sleeping in the tangled sheets, you slipped out the service entrance. You were a shadow dissolving into the pre-dawn grey of New York.
Behind you, in the silent suite, Chris slept on, a phantomâs kiss on his lips and a void where his world used to be.
The silence after the door clicks shut is the loudest sound you've ever heard.
You stand in the sterile, beige hallway of the hotel's service level, your back pressed against the cool metal of the door you just exited. The only light comes from a flickering fluorescent tube overhead, casting long, nervous shadows. In your hands, you clutch a small, nondescript black duffel. Inside: a fortune in platinum, a passport that isn't yours, and a watch that weighs more than your conscience.
Your heart isn't hammering. That's the first wrong thing.
It's a slow, thick, sickening thud against your ribs, like a funeral drum. Your palms are dry. Your breath is even. The professional calm is a shell, holding back a torrent of something hot and shameful and terrifyingly close to grief.
Move, Cipher.
Emmaâs voice in your earpiece is a crackle of static, impatient. âStatus? Weâre at extraction point Delta. Ethan reports all feeds are on a clean loop. You have a ninety-second window before a security sweep.
âCopy,â you whisper, the word tasting like ash. âEn route.â
Your legs carry you forward on autopilot, down the back stairwell, your soft-soled shoes making no sound. The motions are perfected, a deadly ballet you've performed across a dozen cities. But tonight, the choreography feels off. Your body is moving, but some essential part of you is still back in that suite, tangled in the sheets, tangled in him.
You see it all again, not as the operative, but as the woman.
The shock in his clear, dark eyes when he didn't succumb to the drug. Not confusion, but a sharp, intelligent reassessment. Heâd looked at you then like you were a puzzle he was delighted to solve. The feel of his mouth on yoursânot the calculated, dominant kiss youâd expected from a mark, but something hungry and generous and real. It had disarmed you completely. In that moment, âLolaâ had shattered, and âY/Nâ, the ghost you keep locked away, had gasped for air.
The sex hadnât been part of the plan. It had been a catastrophic, beautiful detonation.
Youâd used every skill, every trick, every whispered lie to overwhelm him, to regain control of a situation spinning into the void. But somewhere between the bite of your teeth on his shoulder and the way heâd chanted your fake name like a prayer into your skin, the performance had bled into something perilously authentic. Youâd felt your own carefully constructed walls crumbling. Youâd wanted. Not the score, not the victory, but him. The solid warmth of him under your hands, the raw sound of his pleasure, the way he looked at youâeven in the furious, physical darkâlike you were a revelation.
And then, the aftermath.
Him collapsing into a deep, drugged sleep, finally. The peaceful slackness of his face. The way his hand had twitched, seeking you in the emptiness. Youâd stood there, naked and shivering in the air-conditioned chill, and youâd hesitated.
For the first time in your professional life, youâd looked at a mark and seen a person. A good person. A person who wrote music that moved millions, who led his team with a fierce, protective love, who kissed like he was trying to memorize the shape of your soul.
Youâd touched the side of his face. Just once. A brush of your fingertips against his jaw. A goodbye you had no right to give.
Then the cold logic had reasserted itself, a survival instinct as deep as marrow. Heâs a target. Heâs the job. Sentiment is a flaw. Flaws get you killed. Remember Prague.
The memory is a bladeâa different face, a different promise, a different alley filled with the coppery smell of your own blood. Trust is a luxury people like you canât afford. Love is a death sentence.
Now, you slip out a side door into the damp, pre-dawn alley. The van is idling, a silent, dark shape. The side door slides open. Halle is at the wheel, her face a mask of focused calm. Victor pulls you inside, his grip firm.
âClean?â Liam asks, his eyes scanning the alley.
âClean,â you confirm, your voice hollow.
Emma looks at you from the passenger seat, her gaze sharp, analytical. She takes the duffel, unzips it, and lets out a low whistle at the gleam of the watch. âThe Patek. Nice work, Cipher.â Her eyes flick back to your face. âBiometrics spiked for a long time. Encounter ran hot.â
You meet her gaze, letting the professional ice settle back into your veins. âHe was resistant. Required prolonged physical persuasion to ensure full incapacitation. Protocol was maintained.â
You sound convincing. You sound like the flawless weapon your agency forged.
Emma holds your stare for a beat too long, then nods, turning to stow the bag. âNext briefing is in Paris. Get some rest.â
You sink onto the bench seat as the van pulls away, melting into the waking city. You don't look back at the hotel shrinking in the rearview mirror.
But you feel him.
Not as a mark, not as a score. But as a phantom limb. An echo in your nerves where his hands had been. A taste on your tongue that isn't olives or bourbon, but something uniquely, devastatingly Chris.
You stole his watch, his money, his identity.â¨He, in a few brutal, beautiful hours, stole something far more precious from you.
Your numbness.
And as the first grey light of New York City breaks over the skyline, a single, traitorous thought carves itself into the cold stone of your heart:
I hope he finds me.
CHRIS'S POV
The first sensation is a headache. Not a gentle throb, but a deep, punishing pound behind my eyes, as if someone replaced my brain with a dying star. The second is a profound, bone-deep warmth, a physical satisfaction so complete it feels like a memory. The third⌠is the silence.
My eyes snap open.
The ceiling is unfamiliar. Vaguely ornate. Hotel. The Pierre. Right. The rooftop party.
Lola.
The thought is a lightning strike, vivid and immediate. The taste of herâmartini-olives and something darker, sweeter. The feel of red silk under my hands. The sound of her gasp when I kissed her. The searing, desperate look in her eyes, like she was fighting a war inside herself. The way she moved on top of me, a perfect, furious contradiction of control and surrender.
I stretch an arm across the bed, expecting to find warm skin, tangled hair.
My hand hits cold, empty linen.
I sit up too fast. The room spins. Fuck. The bourbon. I donât usually get hangovers like this. This feels⌠chemical. Wrong.
The other side of the bed is pristine, untouched. As if no one ever slept there. As if it was all a dream.
But it wasnât. The ache in my muscles, the faint, pleasant sting on my back from her nails, the distinct, hollow feeling of release⌠that was real. The memory of her is branded into my senses.
I swing my legs over the side of the bed, my bare feet hitting the plush carpet. My gaze sweeps the room. My suit jacket is draped over a chair. My shirt is on the floor. My pants⌠somewhere.
My wrist feels light. Instinctively, I look at the bedside table. My watch is gone.
The Patek. The one my dad helped me pick out after our first major tour. The one I rarely take off.
A cold trickle, entirely separate from the headache, starts down my spine.
I stand, stumbling slightly, and go to the chair. My wallet is on the seat. I pick it up. Itâs light. Too light. I flip it open.
Empty. All the cash. Every single credit card. Gone.
My passport. Whereâs my fucking passport?
A frantic search of the roomâunder the bed, in the bathroom, the closetâyields nothing. Just my clothes, scattered like evidence. And no trace of her. No forgotten earring, no lipstick stain on a glass, no lingering scent on the pillow. Itâs as if a professional cleaning crew came through and removed every atom of her existence.
She stole from me.
The realization is a cold fist in my gut, followed immediately by a surge of white-hot anger. She played me. The whole thingâthe magnetic pull, the sharp conversation, the way she looked at me like I was the only person in the universeâit was an act. A fucking performance to get me alone and⌠rob me blind.
I should feel violated. Enraged. Humiliated.
And I am. God, I am so pissed. My hands are shaking.
But underneath the fury, thrumming like a live wire, is something else. Something infinitely more dangerous. Fascination.
Because who the hell is she? She didnât just take a drunk guyâs wallet. She targeted me. She got past security, into a private party, and chose me. She withstood a conversation that would have sent most people scrambling. She kissed me back with a fire that felt terrifyingly genuine. And then she vanished into thin air, leaving no digital fingerprint, no physical evidence. Nothing.
Thatâs not a grift. Thatâs an operation. Thatâs art.
And sheâs the most breathtaking artist Iâve ever met.
âLola,â I whisper to the empty room. The name feels fake on my tongue now. A costume. But the woman inside it⌠she was real. I felt her. In the moments when her guard was down, when she was biting my shoulder, when she came apart around me⌠that was real. Iâd stake my life on it.
The anger and the fascination twist together into a single, potent, obsessive knot. I need to find her. Not to get my stuff back. I can replace the watch, the cards, the passport is a headache but manageable. I need to find her to look her in the eye and ask why. And to see if that fire in her eyes ignites again when she sees me.
I call the front desk, my voice deceptively calm. âI need to report a theft from my suite. No, I donât want to involve the NYPD yet. I need to speak with your head of security directly. Now.â
The chaos that descends is both professional and deeply, darkly amusing.
The hotel security chief is a grim-faced man in his fifties. Heâs apologetic, then confused, then utterly baffled.
âMr. Bahng, weâve reviewed all footage from the lobby, the elevators, the service entrances, and the perimeter cameras for the relevant time window.â
âAnd?â
âThere is no footage of a woman matching the description you provided entering or leaving the hotel with you, or at all last night. The guest list for the rooftop party has been cross-referenced. No âLolaâ is registered. The credit card you used to open your tab was swiped by you alone.â He shifts, uncomfortable. âAre you⌠certain you werenât alone?â
The implication is clear. They think Iâm a famous idiot who got blackout drunk, lost his shit, and is now concocting a story to cover it.
My anger simmers, but I keep it leashed. âIâm certain.
Back at the company-rented penthouse, the storm hits properly.
Our manager, Mr. Kim, looks like heâs about to faint. âYour passport? Chan, do you have any idea the paperwork, the embassy visits, the potential visa issues for the upcoming schedules? And a watch worth more than this suite? And you say a woman did this? What woman? There is no woman on any camera!â
The PR team is huddled in a corner, speaking in frantic, hushed Korean. âWe can spin a pickpocket story⌠but no evidence? It makes us look careless or⌠or like weâre lying. Was it a fan? A stalker? Should we increase security?â
Through the pandemonium, my members filter in, drawn by the noise.
Jeongin pokes his head in, eyes wide. âHyung, whatâs going on? The staff are running around like ants.â
Before I can answer, Changbin lets out a low whistle, picking up the incident report from the table. âStolen passport, credit cards, and the Patek? Damn, hyung. You got hit by a pro.â
Itâs Hyunjin who zeroes in on the heart of it, his artistâs perception razor-sharp. âA woman? The one in the red dress from the rooftop? The one who looked like sheâd murder you for fun and kiss you after?â
All eyes turn to me. I just nod, running a hand through my tangled hair.
Felix bursts out laughing, a bright, surprised sound in the tense room. âNo way! That goddess? She robbed you? I mean⌠respect. Thatâs a power move.â
Jisung is grinning, shaking his head. âI told you she was out of your league, hyung. I didnât mean she was in a different league of international theft.â
Seungmin pushes his glasses up. âStatistically, itâs far more likely you were targeted specifically. The lack of footage suggests sophisticated planning and possibly insider knowledge or tech interference. She wasnât an opportunity thief. You were the objective.â
Leave it to Seungmin to analyze my romanticâor criminalâdisaster like a news case.
Lee Know just smirks, leaning against the doorway. âSo, how was it?â
The room goes quiet. The staff look horrified. My members lean in.
I look at the wall, but Iâm seeing her. The flash of her eyes in the dim lounge. The feel of her silk dress giving way. The desperate, perfect sync of our bodies. The hollow ache she left behind.
âIt was the best night of my life,â I say, the words quiet, raw, and completely honest.
The silence deepens, then breaks into a chorus of groans, laughter, and disbelieving head-shakes from the members.
Mr. Kim just puts his head in his hands. âHeâs in love with the woman who robbed him. Wonderful. This is a PR narrative from hell.â
But heâs wrong. Itâs not a narrative. Itâs a compulsion.
As the chaos swirls around meâthe frantic calls to banks and embassies, the security debates, the membersâ teasing thatâs laced with genuine concernâI feel eerily calm at the center.
Lola. Ghost. Thief. Artist.
You took my watch, my money, my documents.â¨You left me with a headache, a mystery, and a heart thatâs beating a frantic, obsessed rhythm I donât recognize.
This isnât over.
Iâm going to find you.
And when I do, youâre going to give me a hell of a lot more than just dinner.
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Livinâ La Vida Loca â Bangchan
summary â The plan was flawless: slip into a high-end Manhattan rooftop party as "Lola," charm the leader of Stray Kids, spike his drink, and vanish with the haul. But Chris doesn't go down easy. When the sedative fails to pull him under, a high-stakes duel of dominance explodes behind closed doors-leaving a trail of stolen platinum, a phantom ache, and a fiercely obsessed popstar determined to hunt his beautiful thief down.
pairing â Idol! Chan x Agent! Reader (Cipher)
genre â spy/thief au, crime/action romance, smut, dual pov, first part of a series maybe?
cw/tags â smut, rough sex, slight choking/neck holding, hair pulling, marking/biting, different positions, dirty talk?, drug use (spiked drink/ sedative), Alcohol, theft & crime elements.
word count â 2.2k words
A/n â this is the major series debut maybe?? If you guys want a part two please tell and tell you thought about this story!!! ALSO heavily inspired by the song "Livin' La Vida Loca" by Ricky Martin the specific part "Woke up in New York City, In a funky cheap hotel, She took my heart and she took my money, she must've slipped me a sleepin' pill" funny story I kept getting this idea while playing this song on JustDance đđđ I hope you guys enjoy it!!! (NOT READ PROOF YET)
The rooftop in Manhattan is a glass-and-steel jewel box floating above the electric spill of the city. Private party. The kind where the champagne costs more than most people's rent and the laughter is a currency all its own. Youâre there as Lola tonight. Hair a cascade of ink-black waves, lips the color of a fresh wound, a dress of red silk that moves like liquid sin. You hold your martiniâthree olives, alwaysânot like a drink, but like a weapon you're deciding whether to use.
Heâs across the terrace, holding court but not really listening. Bang ChanâChris to the inner circleâleader of Stray Kids, here for a magazine shoot and some industry mingling heâd rather avoid. Heâs in a simple black suit, but it can't hide the leashed energy, the sharp intelligence in his eyes as they scan the room. They land on you. And stop.
You feel itâthe weight of a gaze thatâs more than casual appreciation. Youâre used to being looked at. You are, after all, the trap. But this⌠this feels like being seen. You give him the ghost of a smile, the one that says come here, I dare you.
He does.
âYou look like youâre plotting a murder,â he says by way of hello, his voice a low, warm rumble that cuts through the cocktail jazz. His English is flawless, edged with that melodic Australian accent.
âOr a masterpiece,â you counter, taking a slow sip, your eyes never leaving his. âThe line is famously thin.â
He laughs, a genuine, surprised sound. He gets you a drink without asking what you wantâa bourbon, neatâand hands it to you. âTry this. Itâs got more of a heartbeat.â
You take it. Your fingers brush. The contact is a static shock. Professional detachment, you remind yourself. Heâs a target. A rich, famous, beautifully packaged target.
The flirtation is a duel. Heâs quick, clever, disarming. He doesnât just parrot lines; he listens. He asks about the book youâre pretending to have read, calls you out on a detail you fudge. Itâs exhilarating. Dangerous. For a moment, you forget the tiny, odorless vial tucked against your thigh.
He leans in, the scent of himâsandalwood and something inherently goodâwashing over you. âYouâre not like anyone here,â he murmurs, almost to himself.
âAnd what are they like?â you purr.
âPredictable.â His eyes hold yours. âYouâre a mystery wrapped in a red dress.â
The plan is simple. Get him alone. Spike his drink when he looks away. Your teamâEmma on comms, Victor and Liam as shadows in the service corridor, Halle as your getaway driver in a nondescript van three blocks away, Ethan already scrubbing the building's external feedsâis in position. The moment arrives. He turns to flag down a waiter. It takes less than a second. The clear liquid disappears into his bourbon.
You suggested going somewhere quiet and he took you to his private suite
The secluded room was as a velvet-draped cocoon, the city's glitter a silent panorama beyond the glass. The drug was in his system. Youâd watched it disappear into the amber depths of his bourbon. You were counting the slow, silent beats in your head.
Sixty. He should be feeling a heaviness behind his eyes.â¨Ninety. A slight slur, a blink that lasts too long.
But Chris just set his glass down on the low table with a definitive click. His eyes, dark and clear, found yours. There was no haze in them. Only a focused, burning intensity that stripped away every layer of your âLolaâ persona and saw straight down to the frantic pulse beneath.
âYouâre thinking too loud,â he murmured, his voice a low vibration that seemed to travel through the plush sofa and into your bones.
âAnd what am I thinking?â you breathed, your professional smile feeling brittle.
âThat this is a game,â he said, closing the small distance between them. âAnd youâre not sure whoâs winning.â
Before you could summon a retort, his hand was cradling the back of your neck, his touch both firm and impossibly gentle. He didnât ask. He took.
His mouth crashed into yours.
It wasnât the tentative kiss of a new attraction. It was a claim. A hot, searching, open-mouthed kiss that stole the air from your lungs and the plan from your mind. His tongue swept against yours, tasting of expensive bourbon and a heat that was purely, dangerously him. You gasped into the kiss, and he swallowed the sound, his other arm banding around your waist to haul you flush against him.
Every alarm in your trained mind was blaring. Abort. Disengage. This is a critical deviation. But your bodyâyour traitorous, alive, starved bodyâarched into the solid wall of his chest. Your hands, meant to push him away, fisted in the fine wool of his suit jacket, holding on.
He broke the kiss, just enough to rest his forehead against yours, his breath coming in ragged gusts against your lips. âYou taste like a lie,â he whispered, his thumb stroking the frantic pulse in your throat. âAnd I want to drink the whole bottle.â
The metaphor, the raw poetry of it, cracked something open inside you. This wasnât some mark drowning in his own ego. This was a man who saw in layers, who felt in colors. And he was looking at you like you were the most fascinating mystery heâd ever encountered.
Pivot. Adapt. The objective is still the same. Overwhelm. Distract. Take control.
You let the calculated seductress fall away, replaced by something hungrier, more real. You kissed him back with a fury that matched his own, biting his lower lip, sucking it into your mouth until he groaned. You pushed him back, and he let you, falling onto the deep cushions of the sofa, his eyes wide with surprise and blazing desire.
You straddled his lap, the red silk of your dress riding high on your thighs. You framed his face with your hands, forcing his gaze to hold yours. âYou talk too much,â you breathed, before descending on his mouth again.
This time, you led. Your kiss was all teeth and tongue and desperate, slick heat. You poured every ounce of your conflicted energy into itâthe fear, the adrenaline, the shocking, unwanted thrill. He met you thrust for thrust, his hands sliding up your thighs, gripping the bare skin above your stockings, his fingers digging in with a possessiveness that made your core clench.
He stood up suddenly, lifting you with him as if you weighed nothing. Your legs wrapped around his waist instinctively. He carried you like that, through a door you hadnât noticed, into a lavish bedroom suite. He didnât make it to the bed. He pinned you against the nearest wall, the cool wallpaper a shock against your back.
He growled into the skin of your neck, his mouth leaving a trail of burning kisses.
His hands finding the hidden zipper of your dress. He yanked it down in one smooth, ruthless motion. The red silk pooled at your feet like spilled blood. He looked at you, standing there in just your lace bra, panties, and stockings, and the raw hunger in his eyes was almost feral. âYouâre a storm. A beautiful, fucking dangerous storm.â
He stripped his own jacket and shirt off, revealing the taut, sculpted planes of his torso, the muscles youâd only seen in photos and videos now a living map under your fingertips. You pushed him backward onto the king-sized bed. He fell, pulling you down on top of him.
What followed was not love-making. It was a collision.
There was no gentle undressing. Clothes were torn at, pushed aside. His mouth was everywhereâsucking a dark mark onto the swell of your breast, laving your nipple through the lace until you cried out, biting the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. You retaliated, scraping your nails down his back, leaving red trails, sinking your teeth into the muscle of his shoulder, tasting salt and skin.
When he finally, mercifully, pushed your panties down your legs and thrust into you, it was with a single, deep, conquering stroke that punched the air from your lungs. You were wetâshamefully, betrayally wetâbut he was big, stretching you, filling you in a way that felt less like sex and more like a brand.
âLook at me,â he commanded, his voice guttural.
You forced your eyes open. His face was above yours, strained with pleasure, his gaze locked on yours with an intimacy that was more invasive than his body inside you. He moved, setting a relentless, pounding rhythm that had the headboard slamming against the wall in a steady, obscene beat.
There was no tenderness. It was a furious, glorious fight for dominance. You rolled him over, riding him with a desperate intensity, your head thrown back, your breasts bouncing. He gripped your hips, guiding you, slamming you down onto him, his eyes devouring the sight.
âYouâre perfect,â he choked out, his hands sliding up to squeeze your breasts, his thumbs rubbing your nipples. âFucking perfect. Like thisâtaking what you want.â
The words, the filthy, praising truth of them, coiled the tension in your belly tighter. You were close, teetering on an edge made sharper by the knowledge that this was wrong, that you were betraying every rule, that you were feeling.
He seemed to sense it. He flipped you again, onto your hands and knees. He entered you from behind, one hand tangling in your hair, pulling just enough to arch your back, the other wrapped around your throat, not squeezing, just holding, possessing. The new angle was devastating, each thrust hitting a spot that made you see stars.
âCome on, Lola,â he snarled, his pace becoming brutal, animalistic. âLet me feel it. Let me feel you come on my cock.â
The permission shattered you. Your orgasm ripped through you, violent and silent, a seismic wave that locked your muscles and tore a soundless scream from your throat. You clenched around him, pulsing wildly.
With a ragged shout, he followed, his own release pumping into you, hot and deep, as he collapsed over your back, his forehead pressed between your shoulder blades, his body trembling.
For long minutes, there was only the sound of harsh breathing and the distant hum of the city. The drug, delayed or fought off by his sheer will and adrenaline, finally began to pull him under. You felt his weight grow heavier, his breathing deepen and slow into the rhythms of unconsciousness.
You carefully extracted yourself from under him. He murmured something unintelligible, his hand fluttering as if to reach for you, before falling still.
You stood naked by the bed, looking down at him. In sleep, the intensity was gone. He looked young, vulnerable. A faint bruise was already forming on his shoulder from your bite. Your chest ached with a hollow, terrifying pang.
Then your comm buzzed. Emmaâs voice, a lifeline to reality. âLola, extract. Now. Heat on the perimeter.â
You moved.
Like a ghost, you dressed in the practical black clothes from your go-bag that Ethan hid earlier in the vents. You wiped down every surface with a chemical cloth. You collected the red silk dress, the stockings, every strand of your dark hair from the sink. You took his wallet, sliding out the thick stack of bills and the platinum cards. You lifted the heavy, exquisite watch from his nightstand, the metal still warm from his skin. You found his passport in the inside pocket of his discarded suit jacket.
You paused, your fingers on the small, worn photo tucked behind a credit cardâa picture of him with his members, all laughing, younger. You left it.
With one last, unreadable look at the man sleeping in the tangled sheets, you slipped out the service entrance. You were a shadow dissolving into the pre-dawn grey of New York.
Behind you, in the silent suite, Chris slept on, a phantomâs kiss on his lips and a void where his world used to be.
The silence after the door clicks shut is the loudest sound you've ever heard.
You stand in the sterile, beige hallway of the hotel's service level, your back pressed against the cool metal of the door you just exited. The only light comes from a flickering fluorescent tube overhead, casting long, nervous shadows. In your hands, you clutch a small, nondescript black duffel. Inside: a fortune in platinum, a passport that isn't yours, and a watch that weighs more than your conscience.
Your heart isn't hammering. That's the first wrong thing.
It's a slow, thick, sickening thud against your ribs, like a funeral drum. Your palms are dry. Your breath is even. The professional calm is a shell, holding back a torrent of something hot and shameful and terrifyingly close to grief.
Move, Cipher.
Emmaâs voice in your earpiece is a crackle of static, impatient. âStatus? Weâre at extraction point Delta. Ethan reports all feeds are on a clean loop. You have a ninety-second window before a security sweep.
âCopy,â you whisper, the word tasting like ash. âEn route.â
Your legs carry you forward on autopilot, down the back stairwell, your soft-soled shoes making no sound. The motions are perfected, a deadly ballet you've performed across a dozen cities. But tonight, the choreography feels off. Your body is moving, but some essential part of you is still back in that suite, tangled in the sheets, tangled in him.
You see it all again, not as the operative, but as the woman.
The shock in his clear, dark eyes when he didn't succumb to the drug. Not confusion, but a sharp, intelligent reassessment. Heâd looked at you then like you were a puzzle he was delighted to solve. The feel of his mouth on yoursânot the calculated, dominant kiss youâd expected from a mark, but something hungry and generous and real. It had disarmed you completely. In that moment, âLolaâ had shattered, and âY/Nâ, the ghost you keep locked away, had gasped for air.
The sex hadnât been part of the plan. It had been a catastrophic, beautiful detonation.
Youâd used every skill, every trick, every whispered lie to overwhelm him, to regain control of a situation spinning into the void. But somewhere between the bite of your teeth on his shoulder and the way heâd chanted your fake name like a prayer into your skin, the performance had bled into something perilously authentic. Youâd felt your own carefully constructed walls crumbling. Youâd wanted. Not the score, not the victory, but him. The solid warmth of him under your hands, the raw sound of his pleasure, the way he looked at youâeven in the furious, physical darkâlike you were a revelation.
And then, the aftermath.
Him collapsing into a deep, drugged sleep, finally. The peaceful slackness of his face. The way his hand had twitched, seeking you in the emptiness. Youâd stood there, naked and shivering in the air-conditioned chill, and youâd hesitated.
For the first time in your professional life, youâd looked at a mark and seen a person. A good person. A person who wrote music that moved millions, who led his team with a fierce, protective love, who kissed like he was trying to memorize the shape of your soul.
Youâd touched the side of his face. Just once. A brush of your fingertips against his jaw. A goodbye you had no right to give.
Then the cold logic had reasserted itself, a survival instinct as deep as marrow. Heâs a target. Heâs the job. Sentiment is a flaw. Flaws get you killed. Remember Prague.
The memory is a bladeâa different face, a different promise, a different alley filled with the coppery smell of your own blood. Trust is a luxury people like you canât afford. Love is a death sentence.
Now, you slip out a side door into the damp, pre-dawn alley. The van is idling, a silent, dark shape. The side door slides open. Halle is at the wheel, her face a mask of focused calm. Victor pulls you inside, his grip firm.
âClean?â Liam asks, his eyes scanning the alley.
âClean,â you confirm, your voice hollow.
Emma looks at you from the passenger seat, her gaze sharp, analytical. She takes the duffel, unzips it, and lets out a low whistle at the gleam of the watch. âThe Patek. Nice work, Cipher.â Her eyes flick back to your face. âBiometrics spiked for a long time. Encounter ran hot.â
You meet her gaze, letting the professional ice settle back into your veins. âHe was resistant. Required prolonged physical persuasion to ensure full incapacitation. Protocol was maintained.â
You sound convincing. You sound like the flawless weapon your agency forged.
Emma holds your stare for a beat too long, then nods, turning to stow the bag. âNext briefing is in Paris. Get some rest.â
You sink onto the bench seat as the van pulls away, melting into the waking city. You don't look back at the hotel shrinking in the rearview mirror.
But you feel him.
Not as a mark, not as a score. But as a phantom limb. An echo in your nerves where his hands had been. A taste on your tongue that isn't olives or bourbon, but something uniquely, devastatingly Chris.
You stole his watch, his money, his identity.â¨He, in a few brutal, beautiful hours, stole something far more precious from you.
Your numbness.
And as the first grey light of New York City breaks over the skyline, a single, traitorous thought carves itself into the cold stone of your heart:
I hope he finds me.
CHRIS'S POV
The first sensation is a headache. Not a gentle throb, but a deep, punishing pound behind my eyes, as if someone replaced my brain with a dying star. The second is a profound, bone-deep warmth, a physical satisfaction so complete it feels like a memory. The third⌠is the silence.
My eyes snap open.
The ceiling is unfamiliar. Vaguely ornate. Hotel. The Pierre. Right. The rooftop party.
Lola.
The thought is a lightning strike, vivid and immediate. The taste of herâmartini-olives and something darker, sweeter. The feel of red silk under my hands. The sound of her gasp when I kissed her. The searing, desperate look in her eyes, like she was fighting a war inside herself. The way she moved on top of me, a perfect, furious contradiction of control and surrender.
I stretch an arm across the bed, expecting to find warm skin, tangled hair.
My hand hits cold, empty linen.
I sit up too fast. The room spins. Fuck. The bourbon. I donât usually get hangovers like this. This feels⌠chemical. Wrong.
The other side of the bed is pristine, untouched. As if no one ever slept there. As if it was all a dream.
But it wasnât. The ache in my muscles, the faint, pleasant sting on my back from her nails, the distinct, hollow feeling of release⌠that was real. The memory of her is branded into my senses.
I swing my legs over the side of the bed, my bare feet hitting the plush carpet. My gaze sweeps the room. My suit jacket is draped over a chair. My shirt is on the floor. My pants⌠somewhere.
My wrist feels light. Instinctively, I look at the bedside table. My watch is gone.
The Patek. The one my dad helped me pick out after our first major tour. The one I rarely take off.
A cold trickle, entirely separate from the headache, starts down my spine.
I stand, stumbling slightly, and go to the chair. My wallet is on the seat. I pick it up. Itâs light. Too light. I flip it open.
Empty. All the cash. Every single credit card. Gone.
My passport. Whereâs my fucking passport?
A frantic search of the roomâunder the bed, in the bathroom, the closetâyields nothing. Just my clothes, scattered like evidence. And no trace of her. No forgotten earring, no lipstick stain on a glass, no lingering scent on the pillow. Itâs as if a professional cleaning crew came through and removed every atom of her existence.
She stole from me.
The realization is a cold fist in my gut, followed immediately by a surge of white-hot anger. She played me. The whole thingâthe magnetic pull, the sharp conversation, the way she looked at me like I was the only person in the universeâit was an act. A fucking performance to get me alone and⌠rob me blind.
I should feel violated. Enraged. Humiliated.
And I am. God, I am so pissed. My hands are shaking.
But underneath the fury, thrumming like a live wire, is something else. Something infinitely more dangerous. Fascination.
Because who the hell is she? She didnât just take a drunk guyâs wallet. She targeted me. She got past security, into a private party, and chose me. She withstood a conversation that would have sent most people scrambling. She kissed me back with a fire that felt terrifyingly genuine. And then she vanished into thin air, leaving no digital fingerprint, no physical evidence. Nothing.
Thatâs not a grift. Thatâs an operation. Thatâs art.
And sheâs the most breathtaking artist Iâve ever met.
âLola,â I whisper to the empty room. The name feels fake on my tongue now. A costume. But the woman inside it⌠she was real. I felt her. In the moments when her guard was down, when she was biting my shoulder, when she came apart around me⌠that was real. Iâd stake my life on it.
The anger and the fascination twist together into a single, potent, obsessive knot. I need to find her. Not to get my stuff back. I can replace the watch, the cards, the passport is a headache but manageable. I need to find her to look her in the eye and ask why. And to see if that fire in her eyes ignites again when she sees me.
I call the front desk, my voice deceptively calm. âI need to report a theft from my suite. No, I donât want to involve the NYPD yet. I need to speak with your head of security directly. Now.â
The chaos that descends is both professional and deeply, darkly amusing.
The hotel security chief is a grim-faced man in his fifties. Heâs apologetic, then confused, then utterly baffled.
âMr. Bahng, weâve reviewed all footage from the lobby, the elevators, the service entrances, and the perimeter cameras for the relevant time window.â
âAnd?â
âThere is no footage of a woman matching the description you provided entering or leaving the hotel with you, or at all last night. The guest list for the rooftop party has been cross-referenced. No âLolaâ is registered. The credit card you used to open your tab was swiped by you alone.â He shifts, uncomfortable. âAre you⌠certain you werenât alone?â
The implication is clear. They think Iâm a famous idiot who got blackout drunk, lost his shit, and is now concocting a story to cover it.
My anger simmers, but I keep it leashed. âIâm certain.
Back at the company-rented penthouse, the storm hits properly.
Our manager, Mr. Kim, looks like heâs about to faint. âYour passport? Chan, do you have any idea the paperwork, the embassy visits, the potential visa issues for the upcoming schedules? And a watch worth more than this suite? And you say a woman did this? What woman? There is no woman on any camera!â
The PR team is huddled in a corner, speaking in frantic, hushed Korean. âWe can spin a pickpocket story⌠but no evidence? It makes us look careless or⌠or like weâre lying. Was it a fan? A stalker? Should we increase security?â
Through the pandemonium, my members filter in, drawn by the noise.
Jeongin pokes his head in, eyes wide. âHyung, whatâs going on? The staff are running around like ants.â
Before I can answer, Changbin lets out a low whistle, picking up the incident report from the table. âStolen passport, credit cards, and the Patek? Damn, hyung. You got hit by a pro.â
Itâs Hyunjin who zeroes in on the heart of it, his artistâs perception razor-sharp. âA woman? The one in the red dress from the rooftop? The one who looked like sheâd murder you for fun and kiss you after?â
All eyes turn to me. I just nod, running a hand through my tangled hair.
Felix bursts out laughing, a bright, surprised sound in the tense room. âNo way! That goddess? She robbed you? I mean⌠respect. Thatâs a power move.â
Jisung is grinning, shaking his head. âI told you she was out of your league, hyung. I didnât mean she was in a different league of international theft.â
Seungmin pushes his glasses up. âStatistically, itâs far more likely you were targeted specifically. The lack of footage suggests sophisticated planning and possibly insider knowledge or tech interference. She wasnât an opportunity thief. You were the objective.â
Leave it to Seungmin to analyze my romanticâor criminalâdisaster like a news case.
Lee Know just smirks, leaning against the doorway. âSo, how was it?â
The room goes quiet. The staff look horrified. My members lean in.
I look at the wall, but Iâm seeing her. The flash of her eyes in the dim lounge. The feel of her silk dress giving way. The desperate, perfect sync of our bodies. The hollow ache she left behind.
âIt was the best night of my life,â I say, the words quiet, raw, and completely honest.
The silence deepens, then breaks into a chorus of groans, laughter, and disbelieving head-shakes from the members.
Mr. Kim just puts his head in his hands. âHeâs in love with the woman who robbed him. Wonderful. This is a PR narrative from hell.â
But heâs wrong. Itâs not a narrative. Itâs a compulsion.
As the chaos swirls around meâthe frantic calls to banks and embassies, the security debates, the membersâ teasing thatâs laced with genuine concernâI feel eerily calm at the center.
Lola. Ghost. Thief. Artist.
You took my watch, my money, my documents.â¨You left me with a headache, a mystery, and a heart thatâs beating a frantic, obsessed rhythm I donât recognize.
This isnât over.
Iâm going to find you.
And when I do, youâre going to give me a hell of a lot more than just dinner.
Livinâ La Vida Loca â Part ||
That Bangchan fanfic wrecked me in the best way. Instant follow. Please keep writing.
OMG IâM flattered thank you!!!! Iâm working on a new fic inspired by the song âlivin la vida locaâ by Ricky Martin and I think it will be kinda long!!! Itâs gonna ba idol! Chan x agent! reader and it will be kind of a thriller mixed with everything else,I will try my best so it turns out great!!!! Again thank you so muchhh!!!! đđđđ BIG hint itâs heavily inspired by this specific part âWoke up in New York City, In a funky cheap hotel, She took my heart and she took my money, She must've slipped me a sleepin' pillâ