An Aries Fox

2/19/2019

I commit the crimes that cause me to lose every time I beg to be invited, but fail to be enticed

My routine conversations ache for excitement I hide in my mind with fake enchantment My heart beats slow and steady, ready In anticipation of levitation Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

Don’t mind me Watering and catering to my home grown garden of insecurity Lyrically, it’s beautifully portrayed Realistically, it’s an ugly reality

My routine conversations ache for excitement I hide in my mind with fake enchantment My heart beats slow and steady, ready In anticipation of levitation Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

I’ll cry out, dry out my eyes And be sure to use those tears to grow my fears I’ll be sure to waste away my coming years I’ll be sure to shy away from possible cures I’ll be answering your concerns with “I am fine” While blocking out anything that shines

My routine conversations ache for excitement I hide in my mind with fake enchantment My heart beats slow and steady, ready In anticipation of levitation Too bad it’s a lost cause invitation

1/29/2019

Crowded contradictions line up at our lips We fight for our right to make the first slip How do we know what we’re saying is right That our fight isn’t a facade in the name of light I haven’t even been able to swallow a full bite

Few see past screens anymore Real life has become a modern chore Human connection is now nothing but folklore I roll my eyes harder than most ever swallow their pride Mistakes will be our future’s guide Dishonoring any advice we used to abide How is anyone supposed to choose a side when lies won’t die The truth used to be ruthless It’s become toothless

So many are fighting for an invisible crown My back aches from looking down It’s my fashion statement to wear a weathered frown

Few see past screens anymore Real life has become a modern chore Human connection is now nothing but folklore I roll my eyes harder than most ever swallow their pride Mistakes will be our future’s guide Dishonoring any advice we used to abide How is anyone supposed to choose a side when lies won’t die The truth used to be ruthless It’s become toothless

We’re losing our voices while spitting through our gums All sides opposer’s ears are going numb I doubt anyone can cure whats to come But I know of many who are still trying to overcome

1/28/2019

My energy is stale and all I want to do is bitch and pout I’ll never know what everyone else is smiling about Nothing is real enough I wish something would stand out

Don’t be sorry and please don’t worry My mind creates it’s own treasons I’m sad without reason I’m sick and silence is usually my top pick I’ll rip my heart out of my chest Have a face to face heart to heart I need to do better than my quoted best

Sometimes on drives home I think there may be an opening I slam the door shut and forget I was even considering

Don’t be sorry and please don’t worry My mind creates it’s own treasons I’m sad without reason I’m sick and silence is usually my top pick I’ll rip my heart out of my chest Have a face to face heart to heart I need to do better than my quoted best

I don’t have enough of a life to make this more specific Not sure if I could be more pathetic Probably could, but I want to be dramatic Does anyone have a camera to make this cinematic

1/28/2019

I want to sink my teeth into your specifics Close the eyes on my inner critics I could try to control my flashbacks Try to forget everything they lack But my eyes get lost on their way to yours My arms fall to my sides You don’t understand my inner monologue But I could try to sum it up

I’m grade A not okay I know that’s nothing new There’s more than a few things I could say But I probably won’t even try I prefer to cry right by your side While you’re focused on your cause

I keep my hopeful glimpses on pause Even though they're nothing false I don’t quite believe in them right now And I’m sure you know the chances are low of me becoming anything more than what I am

I’m grade A not okay I know that’s nothing new There’s more than a few things I could say But I probably won’t even try I prefer to cry right by your side While you’re focused on your cause

And maybe this time I’ll seep into you If my eyes remain on track Maybe this time my voice won’t crack and I’ll have my own back

09/13/2015 Each bruise is worth the money Even if it’ll leave you lonely Your future is placed on the back burner, even the present is beside it

You wear bruises like accessories We all know you didn’t get them from climbing trees- They know you’ll be waiting on your knees, Making it easy for any bad boy to please

Dark alleys, assorted cars Men who’ll go way too far Lost streets, idling engines Women who’ll go just too far-

You wear bruises like accessories We all know you didn’t get them from climbing trees- They know you’ll be waiting on your knees, Making it easy for any bad boy to please

The price is your name They love playing games Isn’t it a shame You’ll never be the same-

06/25/2015

Telephone wires, five in a row

Birds, perched in their chosen flow

Nature’s sheet music-

02/12/2015

Adulthood is different from a coloring book

Drawing outside the lines may make you pay

They say this isn't child's play

I suggest you do it anyway

Forget the lines and color in your hallway

Permanent paint in the road-

Make them wait for it to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

Let them know you get the gist

There is no nap time for you to lay

They said this wasn't child's play

I suggest you do it anyway

Forget the time and sleep in your hallway

Slumber party in the road-

Make them wait for you to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

Let them know you get the gist

Child's play

Child’s play

Be the adults and don't see our faults

Child’s play

Child’s play

I suggest you see them anyway

Forget their words and scream in your hallway

Gather them in the road-

Make them wait for your voice to corrode

Government buildings should be at the top of the list-

02/11/2015

You wrote a list of your mistakes

All in finger printed snowflakes-

All the while you know you love her

She's an uninformed devoted lover

It'll melt

She'll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She'll never know how you felt

She'll only know you somehow broke

You wrote a few of your wishes

While thinking of your last few kisses-

All the while she knows you love her

This time your list is on paper

She'll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She'll never know how you felt

She'll only know you somehow broke

I'm rarley here

I never listen when you're near-

I'm disrespectful and late for dinner

She thinks of leaving

The thought is lingering-

I don't want to hide this anymore

You're my amour

Look into my eyes please

I want you to take my apologizes

She'll never know what you once wrote

While sitting in a winter coat

She'll never know how you felt

06/26/2014

I don't think I'll ever be at peace when my whole sense of self turned out to be this weak

I've put a time limit on who I am and I'm trying to escape the expiration date

I can't tell if it's for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I've ever wanted can only take place in the present

I don't want a future when I can't see me in it

I'm packing up characteristics like they're belongings I'm forcing myself to throw away-

They're waiting in a corner of my existance and I don't want to carry them any further

I can't tell if it's for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I've ever wanted can only take place in the present

I don't want a future when I can't see me in it

The factor of time forces too many undecided decisions-

It's too bad I can't talk sense into something soulless-

I can't tell if it's for the best or worst when I figured out what I thought saddness was actually my highest

All I've ever wanted can only take place in the present

02/22/2014

The cold is dancing on my skin stirring up goosebumps-

Reckless changing temperature within each square inch

Maybe I'm sick-

If not physically, probably mentally

I pretend my arms are magnets-

I won't let them separate because they aren't needed nor wanted anywhere else

All my ideas sound better in my head

I keep most of them to myself so they can't be ruined-

This is one I chose not to save-

Never mind-

01/08/2014

If you're seeking validation

I won't give you much motivation

I hardly bother with myself-

I can see you're trying to define

What it means to cross the line

I don't need you to see I'm more than alive

I don't need you to understand-

In fact it's better if you don't because then I know its all mine

In the eyes of the beholder

Or in the mind of a believer-

The lines cross over more than one at a time

I don't need you to see I'm more than alive

I don't need you to understand-

In fact it's better if you don't because then I know its all mine

Behold your mind

Believe your eyes

Do you remember what you're trying to define

I don't need you to see I'm more than alive

I don't need you to understand-

01/03/2014

You say

Hey I think I might like you

I say

That might be cool

Whats new with you

You say

I know I really love you

I say

Please don't make me block you

I don't even like you

I don't even want you

You took one word

You ran with it-

Now look what you've made of it

You tell me you were lonely

You say you really hate me-

I tell you you're annoying

You cry to me

Stop begging

Hahaha

Hilarious-

You're letting yourself get away with this

What mind set are you in

To think this is how you could win

I don't even like you

I don't even want you

You took one word

You ran with it-

Now look what you've made of it

You tell me you were lonely

You say you really hate me-

I tell you you're annoying

You cry to me

Stop begging

You're really getting on my nerves

This is turning into a curse

Laughing at you may be fun

But I'm beyond done

I don't even like you

I don't even want you

You took one word

You ran with it-

Now look what you've made of it

You tell me you were lonely

You say you really hate me-

I tell you you're annoying

You cry to me

Stop begging

Oh my wow

Go away

10/17/2013

Rehearse the conversation

You know you have it down

Lowered voices, heightened opinion

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Lowered boundries, heightened friction

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Missing pieces will lead to hiding places-

Time between thought and action can cause aching contradiction

I can't place the imagery of a band aid on your heart

Nor would I want to-

Lowered voices, heightened opinion

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Lowered boundries, heightened friction

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Rehearse the conversation

You know you have it down

Practice, practice- 

Rehearse the conversation

You know you have it down

Lowered voices, heightened opinion

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Lowered boundries, heightened friction

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Lowered voices, heightened opinion

Held back thoughts within our conversation

Lowered boundries, heightened friction

Held back thoughts within our conversation

10/16/2013

Consequences hold no power in your sleep-

Unless your nightmares force you to cower down

Never the less I'll be there in your waking moment

You'll cower down, I'm sure of it

Never mind your light hearted dream-

I'm not here to save your soul

Please obey, and cower down

Understandings seem to change

As fast as memories can be made-

Conversations in your head will never lead you to forgivness

Especially when you wouldn't mean it

I see you've waken

What perfect timing-

I know you hate to keep me waiting

Even more so when you know I'd be hurting

Understandings seem to change

As fast as memories can be made-

Conversations in your head will never lead you to forgivness

Especially when you wouldn't mean it

Weighted sleep can't protect you now

I'm here to set the story straight-

You'll cower down, I'm sure of it

Count down sheep if you'd like to pretend-

Never the less you'll cower down

I'm sure of it

Understandings seem to change

As fast as memories can be made-

Conversations in your head will never lead you to forgivness

Especially when you wouldn't mean it

When you picture me in your nightmares

Remember you're the one who put me there

In all aspects of your reality

06/26/2012

Cross my eyes, hope to go blind

Nothing is as shattered as your memory in my mind

Take a stroll through over processed memories,

You may or may not be surprised as to what you find

Internal rain, I see it pouring

Is it midnight or is it morning-

I see no reason to try to stop it

Through a foreshadow I saw it coming

Gentle finger taps, hear them as they sound

You may find them impossible to ever be found-

Surely not as easy as the rhyme of this song

But somehow, you see, all of this is in terms of a bond

Internal rain, I see it pouring

Is it midnight or is it morning-

I see no reason to try to stop it

Through a foreshadow I saw it coming

Internal rain, I see it pouring

Even on this brightened morning-

I see no reason to try to stop it

Through a foreshadow, I saw it coming

See, and hear a flickered light

See, and hear a…

See, and hear…

03/26/2012

I can’t spill my feelings, because I’m scared of the mess

The lack of your words makes my heart beat to the rhythm of stress

When your eyes catch mine, I feel the need to confess

That I want so much for this to last

Pacing silence in darkened light,

Breathing patterns scatter

Hold my heart in suspension-

Panicking leads to such high strung tension

Flaking nail polish reminds me of time passed-

Constant reminders to relax

Sigh of relief to words you say-

I hope your conscience won’t be in debt to my heart

You can’t even imagine the rate you would pay

Pacing silence in darkened light,

Breathing patterns scatter

Hold my heart in suspension-

Panicking leads to such high strung tension

Flaking nail polish reminds me of time passed-

Constant reminders to relax

Word by word, I’ll hear you through

I hope you know I’m true to you-

All I ask in return,

Is a heart that hasn’t been burned

Pacing silence in darkened light,

Breathing patterns scatter

Hold my heart in suspension-

Panicking leads to such high strung tension

Flaking nail polish reminds me of time passed-

02/17/2012

That moment,

That moment when I feel-

A heart wrenching equivalent,

Equivalent to shattered bone

That moment,

That moment when I feel-

A soul sinking equivalent,

Equivalent to drowning lungs

When my mind is weak,

And body is frail

My pounding heart

Shakes my bones-

My heart beats my skull from unwelcome thoughts

Thoughts that overwhelm-

Overwhelm forgotten wants,

I’ve sworn to overcome

I stare in no direction-

There is no where for me to be

I’ll sit quietly in hopes of interruption-

When my mind is weak,

And body is frail

My pounding heart

Shakes my bones-

My heart beats my skull from unwelcome thoughts

Thoughts that overwhelm-

Overwhelm forgotten wants,

I’ve sworn to overcome

When my mind is weak,

And body is frail

My pounding heart

Shakes my bones-

My heart beats my skull from unwelcome thoughts

Thoughts that overwhelm-

Overwhelm forgotten wants,