i am not insane i am actually normal im actually a sociable huma

i wonder if hitting my head against the wall would help me improve, all its ever done so far is give me headaches...

i actually look like the 🤓 emoji irl its so unreal

im such a horrible person to be with, i get way too busy and forget people.

not that this means anything, rn i feel like i want to disappear, but i dont want to kill myself, i am scared of dying actually. but the idea of disappearing feels oddly comforting, i guess the idea of leaving the world behind and not expecting anything is an attractive idea to some

i think i have friends, but im scared to be a burden to people. ive already done enough damage

nice

truly talking to people is horrifying

f my stupid chud boring slate personality im so lonely

gosh im so busy that i had to skip medications in order to take all nighters. im unsure if they really work they just make me high, sleepy, emotionally numb.