Arfa

i never knew i needed you so badly. until i lost you to a stranger, completely.

i would give up everything just to be able to fall asleep in your arms and wake up right next to you.

i lost my best friend in the chaos of life and then no one ever became mine

noo but if mulitiverse is real then i hope ryle kincaid gets his happy ending too :(

wandering alone in the dark nights with my haunting thoughts. i often miss you a little too much.

i think, at some point in our life, we all come to a stop at such moment, where we wish we could either start over, or fast forward to the end in one go. if we could start over, once again, we would do it in a heartbeat. and never repeat the same mistakes ever again. and if we could fast forward to the end, we wouldn't waste a second in doing that. because how gleeful it must be, to be able to escape from everything, that seems so eager to hold you down forever.

in my opinion, there always comes a time where it all just gets too much for us. and no matter how hard we try to keep moving forward, no matter how hard we try to pretend we are fine. the truth is, that we are shattered. it feels like a beast took our heart in its mouth, chewed on it, and then threw it up. the ache feels somewhat like this. that's when the thoughts of "it's enough", "i can't bear it anymore", "i'm done" start emerging, start waking up. because maybe it really is enough. and it's about time it all stops. because for how long can we survive pretending? there comes a full stop to everything...

this world is full of people who are living for themselves. how about you live for me and i live for you? how about you soak in the love i shower on you? how about i keep my eyes opened forever to keep looking at you? how about you exist and i take the responsibility of loving you?

all i am asking is for you to be ready to catch me when i fall in love with you. be there and ground me. that's all i am asking for.

the desperation to find answers of the question we have no idea about, is such an agonizing feeling that slowly takes over our whole body and claws at our heart. it doesn't settle down unless we find all the answers it needs.

romance in life is so necessary. like i want you to hug me from behind wrap your arms around me place your chin on my shoulder and softly whisper i love you in my ear making goosebumps come to life on my skin. i want you to sit there listening to me while i stupidly talk about the book i just read. and i want you to kiss my tears away when i cry because my favorite fictional character died. i want you to cuddle me at night and as i finally fall asleep you prop yourself up on your elbow and stare at me while your other hand runs through my hair. romance is so fucking necessary in life bro, i want you to make love to me while looking right in my eyes and then we both fall asleep, limbs tangled, your breath mingling in mine and yeah romance is so fucking important.