Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ iāmĀ savināĀ youĀ fromĀ feelināĀ likeĀ absoluteĀ shiteĀ tomorrow.Ā āĀ Ā Ā theĀ wordsĀ areĀ accompaniedĀ byĀ aĀ sigh.Ā theyĀ wouldĀ probablyĀ beĀ amusedĀ Ā āĀ truthfully ,Ā theyĀ hadĀ neverĀ seenĀ herĀ thisĀ drunkĀ &Ā gigglyĀ beforeĀ Ā āĀ butĀ timeĀ spentĀ aroundĀ areumĀ madeĀ themĀ feelĀ ā¦Ā well ,Ā kindĀ ofĀ bitter.Ā andĀ asĀ sheĀ continuesĀ onĀ withĀ herĀ drunkenĀ ramblings ,Ā sheĀ endsĀ upĀ speakingĀ onĀ theĀ Ā sourceĀ ofĀ thatĀ feeling.Ā heĀ doesnātĀ reallyĀ wantĀ toĀ talkĀ aboutĀ it ,Ā evenĀ thoughĀ theĀ twoĀ ofĀ themĀ areĀ overdueĀ forĀ someĀ closureĀ Ā āĀ butĀ notĀ nowĀ whileĀ sheĀ isĀ drunkĀ asĀ allĀ hell.Ā Ā Ā āĀ youāreĀ notĀ dumb ,Ā areum ,Ā youĀ neverĀ haveĀ been.Ā āĀ Ā Ā theirĀ ownĀ handĀ reachingĀ upĀ toĀ wrapĀ theirĀ fingersĀ aroundĀ theĀ handĀ pattingĀ hisĀ cheekĀ &Ā holdĀ itĀ betweenĀ them.Ā Ā Ā āĀ youĀ justĀ ā¦Ā listenĀ toĀ yourĀ folksĀ aĀ bitĀ tooĀ muchĀ isĀ all.Ā butĀ thisĀ isĀ reallyĀ aĀ conversationĀ forĀ whenĀ youāreĀ sober ,Ā love.Ā āĀ Ā Ā itĀ isĀ aĀ bitĀ jarringĀ atĀ howĀ muchĀ truthĀ spillsĀ fromĀ herĀ lipsĀ withĀ enoughĀ liquor.Ā theyĀ hadĀ figuredĀ sheĀ wasnātĀ reallyĀ happyĀ ā¦Ā theyĀ recallĀ thatĀ bothĀ resignedĀ &Ā sadĀ lookĀ inĀ herĀ eyesĀ theĀ dayĀ theyĀ brokeĀ up.Ā theĀ resignationĀ isĀ whatĀ stuckĀ withĀ them ;Ā likeĀ thisĀ wasĀ somethingĀ sheĀ mayĀ haveĀ grownĀ usedĀ to.Ā Ā Ā āĀ no , no !Ā iāmĀ cuttināĀ yaĀ offĀ &Ā wonātĀ hearĀ anyĀ complaints.Ā takeĀ yourĀ waterĀ &Ā iāllĀ driveĀ youĀ Ā home.Ā weĀ canĀ talkĀ aboutĀ thisĀ onĀ theĀ driveĀ toĀ yours ,Ā yeah ?Ā ā
āno, no. i donāt wanna go home.ā areum slurred as she tried to lift her head up again. though at this point, she felt like her head a giant brick, waiting to plop down onto the floor of the bar. nearly falling off her chair as her face now pressed into his arm. eyes opening and closing. her sight beginning to blur. becoming less aware of things as all the shots caught up to her body.Ā āitās dark and lonely over there.ā her bottom lip pushed out into a pout.Ā ātoo quiet. iām by myself all the time. it makes me very sad.ā another confession leaving her lips. she never liked being home alone, despite of what her sober self would say.Ā āiām all alone.ā she hiccuped and tried to sit up again, only to stumble some more.Ā