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What the fuck was I on, holy shit

Gguh

Gotbti stay home?? Yay??

For those I have felt safe to express how I feel with, thank you for everything. I'm not sure what that pity me series of posts were about.

j wknr care if i lush any amor eveeyone away bevause of this. I'm forever standing for this being the reality for ehy a smsll frsction stayed behindnafterbeverything.

Thry'r allbpsinting themskeves as s friend. Evrushkne ifbthen are. Theh'r eonly dounht jis because it benefigs them specificallh. They're onlu doing this because they can laint themselves as saints for heloing a person who's apparently not well in the head. Sssibg ms spiral is thieir vhance to swoop in and pretemd tje save the dsy. Tjey'll geg praisrd for thst. Seen as little angels whobcould do no harm. J knkw betger tjan that thiugh. They're allhidinh their true motives sonce they all care about their imahe. I knwo this is the truth. Each abd every one kd then is a fraud. The thought of them plsnning how they're onlu going to drag me down makes me sick.

Itd neber over whu woild I think it is. Ixll never be able to move kn andbixll die alone because if it. I am 2dll awayre theey may jave spiss on the inside . I know they're only doing this to psint themselbes as saints for tryjng ti help.

Every time that certaib piece of media is mentioned I dtart panikcingm ibknow they have spies on the inside.

Its over

she genuinely won't listen no matter what I say.

Its getting to a point where I want to scratcj my skin raw everyvtime I have to remind her that she can't say the slur. It is not tjat hsrd to get through your head. If you aren't part of that minority that the term is belittling and/or alienating (?), you do not have the right to say the slur.

101 days since Asteral became homeless,,