Child of the Universe, you are welcome here.

a month and some change away from 28. life is so terrifying and funny and devastating and magical and a test and trial at every turn. it’s also so rewarding to be here. even when things are a mess.

hope you look for me, and never find me again. that my footsteps echo in your dreams. that memories of me pass through your mind often, and you remember how much love i brought to your life. hope when you hear certain songs, i always come front and center in your thoughts. and that it frustrates you, may even madden you.. to accept i’ll always hold some real estate in you.

tired of over explaining and being misunderstood.

i kid you not, you talk up the mf that you are entertaining and they GOTTA be able to hear you via sexual contact or sum… emotional imprint I DONT FUCKING KNOW but Y I K E S is all i fucking have to say.

the man i’m talking to is so interesting to me… we’ve been messing around since september, and as soon as i get cool with being just sexy friends… this man starts liking me. sex been great.. WHAT IS GOIN ON

it’s 8am, and i just need a safe space to share this… i am having sex with a man that has GOOD ass dick n he real freaky 😭😭😭

i wanna text him from my new number so badly. i know better; i’m drunk and have no business trying to speak to anyone… but i miss him. i miss who he is in my heart. i’m single, have been for almost two years n some change. and any man i actually like n enjoy… is nonchalant and distant and so obvious with their feelings for me all at the same time. its insane. same situation, different face… i don’t know what to make of it. i want to remember us without the desire to be close. i want to hold space for the woman i saw myself becoming with him, without drowning who i’m supposed to be. i love you. so deeply it’s in my bones. still. but i hope not this way, always.

bringing nothing but feminine necessities in ya purse, rolling up fat woods of premium weed, late night car rides, never going home, kisses all over my face.. ❤️