Nevermind ya'll I was convinced back into using my main, and I felt bad
Let me just share some stuff
I kinda had a rough (like. REALLY rough) year (maybe more than a year but yeah). I dealt with all sorts of bs. Depression, anxiety, all that stuff. Then there were the wars. (I LIVE IN IRAN YA'LL) and all of the other crap that really worsened my mental state.
Then, when the Internet connections were back on, I kind of started hating all of the previous stuff I posted, and even resorted to trying to change blogs (which failed miserably) and I just despised associating with the past things I had posted here and I kid you not, I started liking other aesthetics rather than the aquatic one and thought about choosing a brand aesthetic (which isn't really ocean related) since I plan to become a creator and believe it or not, THIS also started putting pressure on me (in retrospect, this sounds pretty silly, but eh, I'm still dealing with anxiety and worry about unnecessarily trivial things, I'm working on it)
Next came the art style hate. I just hated my art style and how unexpressive it has become and the same face syndrome I'm dealing with. Basically I sppedran every way a human could despise their very own foundation of being.
So yeah... I'm still trying to recover, I've made some progress so things are a liiiiittle better I guess? I still live in a place that's currently being bombed and the sounds are fucking terrifying sometimes
I don't want to be associated with the past and the things I may have posted on this blog that were unnecessarily insensitive or just plain cringe, but I also kind of like my past? It's like seeing your own progress but also hating it, I'm not sure if it makes sense or not. I'm gonna change the whole blog and everything, and the stuff I'll post in the future will be very, and I mean, VERY inconsistent art style-wise. There also will be more original and oc art, because I kinda got over the disengaging lack of interaction and everything.
