Win For Asexuality Fans Everywhere

Oh my god. Oh my god. People don’t even get it. “This character sucks, look at what he did to [these two], I bet [the character I am] hated him!” I did the same thing 20 years later?? That was my mentor. That was my dad. He Raised me. He took care of me he guided me. He was fucked up and did some bad shit, don’t get me wrong, but so did I! How are you all drooling over me but hating him for stuff I did as well?? Urgh. I forgot that I hated [meee :3] fans. -#🩺🧪🥫

Jean is so important to me. This isn't a surprise. This isn't news. I will not get into some tangent right now, but she's loved and cared about. In it together... (-#🩺🧪🥫)

I love my wife. I hope she knows -Cyclops (#🩺🧪🥫)

Kinfirmed from Yandere Simulator :/ this sucks. I should’ve expected it frankly but. I didn’t! I don’t want to publicly affiliate with the game and yet. The urge to talk about it. Urgh -info-chan (yandere simulator) (#🩺🧪🥫)

It’s a little funny looking at my old fesses and seeing how my feelings have changed with time. Oh, you mean that as I grew distant from the individual that reminded me of liquid, I also started to grow resentful of liquid? It’s like that happened before or something. It’s like even though I was attached (literally linked to) liquid, I hated him for how much I had to rely on him. Lol

Canon-clarifications: I was not being controlled against my will. Oh my god. There are only two times when that’s even suggested, and one instance immediately self-contradicts while the other instance is Revolver Ocelot. Sorry, we’re trusting Revolver Ocelot as a reliable narrator now? Someone who had [at the time] never met me, and who had [at the time] hypnotized himself out of his own gourd? We’re just gonna take his word for it that I’m being forced to act? I may not have been enthused about my work, sure, but all of my hosts were frankly better for me than I was for them. They kept me safe.

It’s kind of cool (/sarcastic) that people are so unwilling to depict me the way I actually looked. That certain aspects of my appearance go un-depicted and actively brushed over. A lot of it isn’t even the parts of my appearance that I disliked, instead being. Parts of how I intentionally styled myself. Surely this is not indicative of people in fan spaces often brushing over what I was like in favor of what they consider attractive (/said with resignment and dread)

Curious about how I’m going to be handled in 2x2. If I’ll even be addressed or if it’ll all be hajime. Shrug. We’ll find out

I don’t like feeling jumbled. I don’t know what either of us did to each other. I know if he hurt me, it wasn’t early-on, but I don’t know if he Did hurt me or if I just resented him for other already-known reasons. Frankly I might have hurt him. Depending on what it might’ve been and when it might’ve been, I might even stand by it. I hope that either I gain clarity or I stop caring.

I’d like to be recognized as my own person. Though I do consider myself an extension or part of 8️⃣, I am not *him*, I simply *stem* from him. I am identifiable on my own, and would prefer to be acknowledged as such. -#🩺🧪🥫

I’m drained right now. I’m fairly sure that ultimately, Hajime and I were [essentially operating as] a system. I know he cared more about being seen as the host and the owner of the body than I did. I want to go retreat for a bit and let him take care of things, I think.

Ugh. I’m frustrated by “modern au” and “domestic au” type fanworks a lot of the time. Sometimes people are not willing to explain why I’m there. When and where is this set? Can you explain why I am not in the town I was born in? The town I would’ve grown up in, if not for the fire? Why are you putting me in the USA. Justify this. -#🩺🧪🥫

Warm wishes for my hosts.

Idk I’m a little frustrated by how many people say I’m Czech. No I’m not. And I didn’t speak Czech in a meaningful capacity. My first language was Russian. Later I learned English and Hungarian. Russian because that’s what was spoken where I was born/raised (hint: it was Russia), English because of Eli and also its prevalence in general, and Hungarian for my old host (<— used as a term of affection, not used in any teasing way)

This shift is Not good for my eating disorder -#🩺🧪🥫

Finally started reading an ongoing long fic about myself. Despite seeing questionably characterizing art from the author, I was optimistic. Shock of all shocks: it’s bad. I mean, don’t get me wrong. When he and I split up, one of us was emotionally shredded due to feeling tied to the other and suddenly abandonded. One of us didn’t know how to be our own person or how to communicate normally. WASN’T HIM THOUGH!

Stephen, I miss you. Not in any romantic way, it’s for sure good that we broke up, but I do hope you’re doing well wherever you are. -Julie