🩷anah🩷

I have been restricting since around may 2024 and hope to keep it up for as long as I can :)

Hello! I'm anah! Im 16 years old, and I have ednos, I chew and spit, restrict and sometimes take laxatives when I feel like I ate too much. Weight loss has been slow for me unfortunately, but I know if I keep restricting I can get there eventually!!! I have t1d so I unfortunately cannot fast for longer then 20 hours (most I've gotten without needing a juice, and then caving in to eating) I also have a thyroid disease + pcos which messes up my weight loss.

I binged for like 4ish months where I just absolutely destroyed my kitchen everyday and ate 5 meals a day because I really didn't care anymore, and thanks to that along with my pcos I gained 30 pounds. My body is DISGUSTING and I have huge gross purple stretch marks all over from rapid weight gain. Since I was eating probably like 2k-3k calories a day im gonna start slow in my restricting and have a goal of less then 900 calories with a max of 1200. I'll probably start to lower this soon though since I've been doing around 1200 a day for the past 3 weeks now and I feel like that's too much.

Any tips would be appreciated.

💔Sw:160

💔Cw: 184 (4/21/25) (binged for a few months...)

Hw: 191

Gw3: 140

Gw1: 160

Gw2: 150

Gw4: 130

Gw5: 125

Gw6: 120

How do I throw up with no gag reflex? Like, I have a tiny bit of a gag reflex but not enough to throw up. Like I've stuck my fingers down my throat as far as I could and even used my toothbrush but nothing more then a light cough came out.

It's not even abt binging and purging rn I just genuinely feel so sick and know throwing up would make me feel less sick since it usually does when I feel like this...

It's my 16th birthday yay!!! So ykw that means! Hating my body for how much weight I put on over the years!!!

I started recovering in September cuz I wasn't loosing any weight after eating 800 cals for a few months, but I found out the reason I wasn't loosjnf weight is because I have pcos 😖

I got put on metformin which should help me loose weight bcz it's like ozempic but pills??? So far have been the same weight without tracking my cals (160 lbs 🐷) but am gonna start tracking again cuz I feel like now I can actually loose weight.

Got triggered to relapse today bcz my health class was talking about eating disorders and I had to read a story abt a bulimic women who went to 60 lbs 😞 just made me feel like everything I did wasn't enough bcz I didn't loose almost any weight.

Gonna start like I did last time at 1000 ca| and lower it. Might follow a 4n4 diet from here if I find one I like tho >_<

Probably gonna take l4xatives again if i keep over eating

Also started c_tting a few weeks ago but they r jus cat scratches rn >_>