mEh.

i feel like there is a sleep in me that needs to be slept but each time i sleep i don't sleep that sleep

me 15 seconds into a male on male zoom call: actually you know what? *territorial chimp noises*

has anyone noticed that sometimes you take incorrect or undesirable actions instead of the correct and desirable ones? what's up with that

To be fair to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, if I wrote some pulp short stories for a quick buck and an obsessive fandom sprung up around it at a time when fandom culture as we now know it didn't really exist yet, and I had to witness people being insane about my characters while having very little precedent for what the fuck was going on, I would also be confused and frightened and desperately trying to escape from the situation I'd ended up in.

Being disabled sometimes puts you in a weird spot because people will use your strength and resilience AGAINST you.

mmmm the implications of the inquisitor stumbling out of the fade with "andraste" behind them in dai and then rook in datv being desperately pulled out of the regret-prison by their comrades with the likeness of varric guiding and lovingly sending them off. the maker's bride/world's spiritual leader sacrificing themselves for the inquisitor, thus stripping personhood away from them by rendering them The Holy Chosen One, in contrast with rook, a "nobody" who recruits other normies with the intent to stop what are, for all intents and purposes, ancient and religiously sanctified deities. the inquisitor, who very quickly becomes mythology that walks the land, and rook, who finds themselves up against unfathomable monsters from legend. the idea of a person made impersonal by their own greatness and another who is too human, too mortal, flailing at every turn to keep the world from falling to who the inquisitor could have been one day

to be soft with someone and not regret it

i highly recommend finding yourself a clingy (healthy) lovey dovey partner who's always super excited about you. life is too short to spend it with someone who acts like showing love is a chore.

furiously searching online "what do animals do out in a rainstorm" while it's raining

nobody worry too much because they all produce various oils and have different densities of fur to keep them dry and warm as well as seek out shelter under thick vegetation