anxious stimming

@candidlyautistic

how to draw the line between memories 

It’s not something I’ve really thought much about because it happens so much and so easily I just assumed everyone did it. 

When do I lie?

When I feel like a story puts me in a bad light

When I did something wrong and don’t want to come off incapable

When it makes a situation easier 

When I’m uncomfortable (e.g. with my psychiatrist) and don’t want to answer a question

When I don’t want to do something/want attention and I pretend I feel sick/worse than I do

When I don’t have anything to contribute to a conversation/don’t want to feel stupid I’ll make up facts to seem intelligent

When I don’t want to be blamed I will put the burden on someone else.

asdfghjk i probably wont answer this coherently bc i am hyper but also crashing rn lmao sorry. but anyway i love this question bc sharing stims is the BEST here are some of my more unusual stims

Body stims

twisting hands. like jazz hands but more twisty. like ur turning a doorknob but u go super fast and u feel the flap and gravity and all that

pshfjsh u kno when u crouch in full gargoyle pose? bounce on ur toes. thats some Good Shit

lightly hit ur chest as u breathe in and u feel it echo and its so good. be careful not to hurt urself tho

tap ur collarbone real fast

reading lit written in accented language. like OMAM and Trainspotting and such. disclaimer: my adhd dyslexic ass barely ever reads, but reading accented lit out loud is the best

similar: fast singing/raps. like have the lyrics up in front if u need them. go as fast as u can it is FUN

twirl a pen between ur fingers. bonus: increases dexterity. downside: u will launch ur pen at an authority figure. its inevitable

just like. dig ur head in rly hard to a sofa and like stroke it w ur face? i have no idea how to describe it but u know when a cat digs their face into soft things to rub against it? That but u r the cat

Firstly, I hold pens/pencils resting on my ring finger rather than the middle finger which I guess is “wrong”. Holding it the “right” way feels really loose and difficult to control.

Secondly, I use a LOT of pressure / very firm grip. Like, my hand cramps after writing a couple of paragraphs. As an artist and journal enthusiast, this is… frustrating.

Like my friend said she hates her dad and I said “I know” and then she said “He just doesn’t understand mental health stuff at all” and I just went “mm ya”. And then I asked where she was going (we were leaving our building) and she said “well I was going to call my mom but I’m just not up for it, I just really want to be at [building]” And I just said “oh ok, cool, see you later!” 

If you have her number you can text her and ask how she’s holding up if she wants to talk about her dad, or if she doesn’t then talk next time you see her you can ask how she’s doing.

Something like “I was worried about you and wanted to see how you were doing. I know you were upset about […] last time we spoke.” That acknowledges both that you were listening to her when she was talking to you the first time and that you care enough to have thought about her in her absence even if you feel you didn’t react well during your first interaction.

Or really just make any statement that shows you both listened to her and want to allow her to vent her feelings. If she tells you more about it then say something like “I’m really sorry. That must be really tough for you. I can’t imagine.” Or if you’re really at a loss you can say something that expresses that too like, “I really don’t know what to say. I’m just sorry you’re going through that.” And then maybe ask a follow up question or tell her she can continue to talk to you about it.