peter pan

Oh, okay. Good. When would you like to do that? Fair warning for whenever you do, I don’t know too much about art.

I already know that you don’t know too much about art. I dated you, remember? I already know these things about you Ava. When are you free?

Me too, honestly. But I understand that art is a very personal thing, so I haven’t asked. If you’d like to show me though…

Of course I would like to show it to you. I enjoy sharing my art with you. 

Well, how’s your portfolio looking?

Not too bad, actually. I’m kind of surprised that I haven’t shown you before. 

Really? You’re going to follow me to the East Coast? Same school or just going to college in the same area?

I’m not going to deny that.

Maybe? I don’t know. I want to get into an art program, the location doesn’t really matter to me. 

What places are you thinking?

True. You are, admittedly, a little extra. But in a good way.

Just, future stuff, like going to college together. 

Oh, I know. You reminded me of that fact not too long ago too. I was kind of joking, though. I know that there’s places for our relationship to go.

It can be something simple, you know.

Oh I know there are. 

Wow. We haven’t even been on one date yet and you’re already in love with me. Where can we even go from here?

Really, though. We should make a date a part of the trial run.

Considering we dated before, it’s not that surprising that I’m in love with you. 

Yes, well, good luck with that. I know you find my thoroughness and extreme self-preservation very sexy.

Well of course, how could I not? I’m in love with you, Aves.

Okay, good. We can reevaluate after a week, maybe? Just to be sure.

I’m gonna try not to be turned on by how technical and mechanic you’re making a relationship sound. 

…maybe we try it? A test run to make sure that this is actually a good idea.

I like test runs of things. 

…Anton.

What would that mean? I mean… what are you thinking?

I just...I care about you, Ava. I never stopped. You can have any guy in the world that you could want, but...it would mean everything to me if you chose me.

But what if I don’t? We’re not exactly the same people we were when we dated.

I know we aren’t. You’re even better. 

I know.

I do want you to be happy, Anton.

What if you make me happy?

Because it’s way easier to pretend than it is to admit it. Our breakup was especially rough on me. I’m taking every precaution not to go through something like that again.

Alright. Well, you’re going to college soon. You’ll be a little more free of me then. 

You know I still have feelings for you, Anton. Why else would I be so not okay with this Olivia thing?

So why pretend to be over me when I told you how I feel?

…I don’t know if I should answer that.

I just need to know, Ava. Please. After that I’m gone if that’s what you want. 

…I shouldn’t have told you. Look, go move on with Olivia. It’s fine.

How do you feel about me?