I grieve the little things I did not get to say to you and the things I never will.

grief is so crazy like what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. does she know i loved her. i miss her so much. i catch myself doing things she used to do. i wish i could call her. i miss her so much. i do a crossword puzzle. i cry while washing the dishes. does she know i loved her? my heart feels like a hummingbird. i miss her so much. what if i forget what her laugh sounds like. what if i forget.

the worst part about grief is that it feels like the world should be horrendously earth shatteringly changed, and to an extent it IS but its also the same. to everyone else it's just another tuesday. the world moves on. you have to go grocery shopping.

Worst : you have to go to WORK and face your colleagues and managers and clients and IT SUCKS

To grieve someone's death so strong that your body can’t take it and you throw up

No amount of time with you was ever enough.