anonymouz27haven

#depressed

#hopeless

You once stop smiling from the chapters of your life

But now i see your smile is as fierce and pure as your eyes

There were tough times which you passed thru for awhile

But now you come face the world with confidence and energized

Your fierce, your fierce is in your lips

Your pure, your pure is in your eyes

Your brave, your brave is in your touch

Your love, your love is in your heart.... You're mine.

Now i got the peace in my inner energy

No hard feelings as we reconciliate

We sit and settled as we communicate

All by humility from what has been built

Now that this smile is back on track

Thanks to you, you put the glow unpack

We have moved on,and will look forward to

A better me and you, this is our reward too

I once told you either lose yourself or find yourself

I deliver a smile, bcoz, i learned alot to myself

I got the chance to know myself better

I made clarities of life deeper than ever

We explore and from there we rise and fall

We discover and from there we accept it all

We tried and from there we believe in reality

We love and from there we see the possibility

You brought me tension, even if it's not your intention

You caught me drowning by feeling of broke

You found me scattered and help me pick all the pieces

You saw me overwhelmed, either by sadness or by happiness

I reply with a smile, no words could ever define

I let you smile back, and mutually we feel fine

We synch in smile bcoz' the feeling is instinct

We hide our smile bcoz' we know the meaning they can't predict.

Just smile lovingly

And smile back unselfishly

Smile in synch carelessly

The first time i saw you i was suddenly amazed

There was something in your voice so sweet i just glazed

I know from there we could be good together

I was never wrong we enjoy our time with each other

We used to hang out each and every day,

Thinking like time has stopped for today,

We used to see our flaws and so unashame,

Wanna flex us both like screamin out of fame.

When you stare at me i'm loosing control

Can't help it but play like a rock and roll

When I stick with you im loosing my senses

Can't help it but to act so free and careless

But why did we wake up one day acting so strange

Like we never had the flame and it all got change

Is this because of the spotlight and the fame

Or it is just you afraid that we might get lame

What are we right now, do we have to put label or not

Why turned out hesitant, when we just planned of tieing the knot,

Please communicate, I cannot read your mind,

Where do I stand, I keep following you from behind.

They said life is a matter of choice, but what is the choice we made,

You told me that you'll look after me and that's how it takes

But why do i have queries, that you can't stand and fight

Why do i have doubts that you can't cry out loud and say right.

So soon I'll get wary, of the routine that we can't carry

My body's getting teary, and slowly wanna get bury

My mind's wanting to let go, but my heart beats fastly

My soul can't escape, coz i can't deny i don't wanna stay away.

Make me a martyr, say i'am a fool only to you i got all this call

How long will this be, until when we could give it all

Maybe this is the best, let's try even if chances are small

Maybe we could end this time, and wait for the future may fall

In the end the universe will conspire if it is for us afterall

We will click to the end no matter how hard it will take

I'll just go with the flow, won't push and keep you standing tall

I'll be here for you in every way, even if we fail to face.

Leave me with no regrets, give me all the guarantee

We are mutual, only we know all the possibility

I don't care anymore, only you is all I will see

This is it, this is all, the extent of everything we could be.

I'll be calm and smile, just keep track of you from afar

So unnoticeably, bcoz this will be better as it can be

We will never be broke, we will never be alone

Take it or leave it

It's all up to you

Make it or break it

Like a living dead too

Little secrets, Little things

Lovers under the spot of the moon

Lovers under the rays of the sun

No other than me and you

You're the only pure in my pseudonym

You're my taste of wine

Nothing in you is wasted

And only to you I am out of defenses.

Only to you i can submit myself

Only to you my insecurity is concealed

I feel the comfort to ourselves

I am selfless and i surrender

So bright by your intellect

So genuine by yourself

So moved from being imperfect

So brave from embracing yourself

I got bunch of queries

Noone but you could answer

I got mind buggling mysteries

Noone but you can solve

Why begins and ends with why

How introduces and concludes with how

When anticipates and assumes with when

Who indentifies and confuses with who

Can we be together

My heart says yes

But my mind says no

Who to follow, who to listen

Can we last forever

My heart says stay

But my mind says go

Who to trust, who to believe

Can we love each other

My heart says follow your desire

But my mind says think righteously

Who to love, who to choose

Imagine me and you

In the verge of our emotion

There's noone but us

To depend on our motion

Tension is high

And so do I

My esteem becomes low

And may shape is below

You left me with this scar

It marked and was written in the star

Pain is hard to conceal

Butwhy am I looking for you, and still

Can't put into words just to show how I feel

Better say it loud but nobody hears

When you keep it to yourself they wanted to interfere

Don't cross the line, loosing control will never be

We know we're in good terms

That is something we can affirm

I hope God will leave some patterns

Thoughts are clear at our best, it shall be our turn

We could create our own fantasy

Happily are you and me

But villains are part of the story

And we have to wake up from reality

No matter what it takes,

I'll support you all the way,

You are the captain from sea or lake

Fly high, sail far, i will cheer every day

I'm gonna keep loving you

Without you I feel broke

Dark horses longing for me

Without you I feel doomed

Shadows of the past felt so grey

Laughters of the past felt so yellow

Sadness of the past felt so blue

Passion until today felt so red

I keep dreaming of you

Please undo all the loneliness

I keep thinking infinitely of you

Please gravitate me in you headspace

Figure me out and comprehend

I am craving all night to get apprehend

We're so inevitable yet with consequence

We're on the same side, but differ to assess

So damn obsess to be with you

But circumstances are not in our hands

We are raw, soon will grow

We are broad, our deepness will blow

If geniune, by then we'll realize

If toxicating, by then we'll escape

If suffocating, by then we'll fly

But why still stuck, cuz without you I'm paralized

You are to me my wonderwall

My medicine and my only cure

To my emptiness you're my overall

You give cover to my deepest hole

You're a poison runnin' thru my veins

A drug which could live me or die

I got the name you can refrain

But now it seems this name you can't regain

Let's sit all the time and communicate

This is the only tool and it's delicate

Lovers or friends as long as we can relate

I can be your anybody, I just don't need a duplicate

I'll do everything for you

Again and again just for you

Not gonna get tired nor give up

Whatever it takes i will stand up

I miss you, l'll be missin' you

All of your energy, and i really do

Don't push away, and i will crawl

You're my every breath and my inner soul

As long as your happy and smile

My heart will melt away

All the circumstances are worthwhile

Let's endure the moment and be gay

Fill me by a rose, flower of your mouth

Want nothing but to hear you out

Ignore all the roughs of their whereabouts

Loving in our ways is all we shout

Oct.10,2019

I just learned in love, there is no mistake

I just learned in love, only there's confusion

I just learned in love, we must give and take

I just learned in love, there must be a fusion

We may not be innocent yet fragile

We are strong and experimental

We used to explore even for a while

We are careless, not knowing it's terminal

You are my karma and amy in this faking world

Fakes are everywhere, and so we are

Truth shall be find to those with a trail

By then you will know how real can be freed

So hard to express a single word by mere pretension

Only in this mouth purity runs from my veins,in my mind,my heart and soul

I am flying in happiness, and drowning in pain

Save me, and please send me home

Enjoy me, like no one else is around.

Can't stop this feeling, revealing

Love me, seduce me, do not expose me

I'm bursting with emotion, can't hide it

Take control, my insanity feels

Please stay, turn your back

Love me, see someone else

We're a single breath close, inch by inch

But how can't i say it loud, i'm so pinned

I know you're mine, so please be mine

And I am yours, so do the honors

Take the lead and i will follow

How can it be possible, if in this glass we are in trouble

Stay in my bed,with my sheet in red

Hold me tight as i feel you naked

In my head, you are in a wed

While holding my tears in shed

I'm trapped, wanting to get out,

Holding your hands, trying to reach out,

How long, how soon

When the eclipse of the sun and the moon

We are cha-cha on the move,

We step backward then forward and again

I am loosing my senses, feeling doomed

Hesitation arises, acceptance to regain

I want you but we can't be that way

We are head space, want to stay away

Roads are twisted, what we're going through

Keep your grip, l need someone like you.

Let us steal this night,

Far away from the light,

Let nobody be in our sight,

So that we can hold each other tight.

Let me in, unrestricted

You are most welcome at my worst

Coz you're always been my best

Let me in, feel the magic instead

With you i am willing to be torned

With you i will take all the pain

With you i can live and reborn

With you i can die so much in vain

Fill my emptiness, fill my sadness

Give me breath, and i will give you sweat

Without you i am half alive

My alter ego that noone can dive

We both crossed the line

Who knows of the right time

Show us what's the sign

So we could be aligned

Let me be your slave,

All you want is I will serve

Just stay, please be brave

Coz to me you are all that it takes

Like me or hate me, but rather love me,

Stay with me, away from me, but rather join me

Together we build, a fantasy we can be

Together we live, in the world that we agree

Oct.01, 2019

Unfated to love you

Unfated to be with you

I wanted to stay with you

And wrap around my arms to you

How could i explain to you

That the world doesn't want us to

All i know is i love you

All i know is i need you

Please complete me by only you

Please fulfill me by your endless love

Show me how our world should go

Please stay, cuz you are all that i have

So hard, why we are tested by time

I feel, like the universe conspired

So hard, why I want you in my life

But how, if this world never ever desired

I wanted to feel you

I wanted you to be inside of me

I wanted to show you

How our love was supposed to be

You are like the sun

And I am like the moon

All I really wish upon

That we could meet so soon

And by any chance

We could take a glance

As we meet just once

Even if nobody wants

Except for us, in our world

Except for us, we are gold

This love, i wish i could hold

Even if our minds are so bold

Please don't be confused

I want us to stay focused

We may be torn out and loose

But that's not the path we choose

I know it's not impossible

Might be careless but we enjoy

I know we are beautiful

We are true, thus we can't avoid

I may not be perfect

But let my imperfection affect

I may not be in silence

But let my loudness move your senses

Many are the pretensions

But sometimes it envisions

We know what our intentions

And its sucks with the tensions

To you i will only fall

My life will stand tall

I will face once and for all

Mostly when despair is on call

We may both feel hurt

Please hold on don't be afraid

We may both feel dismay

Inside we know what we ever wanted

Thank you, I am me

Thank God, and lead me

When pain came to lime

I hope it will heal in time

Sep 29, 2019

Introduction:

There are so many people in the world. Some of them may be different from the rest, while some are the same to each other in whatever ways it would be.  For each day that comes your way, there are people you met without noticing out in this world who are happy in their life, others are sad by the fate that they have.  Some are satisfied of what life brings them, while others are not contented and longing for something from what their heart desires.  Some are so sure, of the path they want to lead, others are confused.. wondering about what is it.. who is it... and what life would bring as they live their lives.  You may ask yourself, which among these do you belong? Which among these do you experience?