If Drew was willing to arrange for you to be with him in Charleston and do the usual things you guys get into, such as probably catch up, drink, or something, stuff that leads's into sex, not that it always has too, sometimes people can just sleep over and be laid up, or sexual about it, would you go? And if you stated you don't have deep feelings for him, such as being inlove for him but caring about him, and his sex is not up to par for your standards, so it's not you being dickmatized. What more do you want from him at this point if he isn't the commitable type ? If he gifts you things, like he said, he does fly you out. You guys hook up here and there, and he has you sign a NDA which means he wants nothing or any strings attached what is your reasoning for coming forward with admitting you been sleeping with him because if it where me the Russian government couldn't get this information out of me taking it to the grave like if you knew he wanted something casual and you consented to that what did he do to you that wasn't okay for you to in your eyes felt like you wanted to be believed like the metoo moment women ?
I wasnāt given the impression that things were āno strings attachedā after multiple times and the stuff weāve done, itās normal to sign ndas even for jobs and even to be friends with ppl or go in their homes which I do all the time.
itās just.. my feelings matter just as much as anyone elseās and I am still having awful internal conflict about the entire situation. It hurt my feelings that people didnāt believe me in the beginning but the people Iāve spoken to with the same stories validate my feelings. like I know Iām not fucking crazy, Iām being played.
In the beginning I was salty as fuck because his actions were not lining up with his words and I felt (and still do feel) betrayed and Iāve been lied to like a mf.
I should not have been the other woman. And for him to lie about it too? Odessa fucking knows and even she wonāt talk to me or own up to any of it.
Itās giving she knew about me the whole time and doesnāt care. Or bc of her NDA, idk š¤·āāļø
If it was a simple āhey letās just hook up this one time at this placeā that woulda been fine but why would he do ALL of the things he did with me and say all the stuff he said to me, and still talk to me like nothing happened? Why does he actively reach out to me still.
I genuinely thought in the beginning that if I exposed him online like this, maybe Odessa would see it bc sheās always chronically online and maybe she would publicly be like āyeah itās trueā then D would have a wake up call, lose all his bitches, because I KNOW he has them, i know girls might come forward publicly if O did, and D would stop doing the shitty shit heās been doing behind closed doors. And stop being reckless with Xanax and bullshit like that. If he gets exposed on hollywood news level or be threatened with blacklisting he might get his act together for the sake of his career.
He did get into a disagreement with des about her following him around everywhere and I thought for sure she would be just as salty as me and finally say something about him being an ass.
Then again Odessa is under a NDA too so it makes sense why she wonāt fucking talk.
my guess is that lately she has been indirectly confirming that sheās gonna start being with other people and not D since this has happened. bc she canāt break the NDA and verbally confirm or deny that she was ever with him.
Anyway thereās nothing wrong with D being single and hoeing around just donāt be cumming in bitches like that and buying them fucking dresses and necklaces and hotels.
Like ???? You fuck around like THAT? every person Iāve talked to, their experience is almost spot on, exactly the same, WITHOUT me even telling them the details I havenāt shared with anyone. Itās uncanny. Some things just arenāt common in every single man and these women knew the details.
*Make an anonymous social media account if you want to tell me about your experience.*
i guess thereās been some progress in him because he was on set sober a lot. Iām sure everyone else who saw him in Charleston can attest to his behavior being pretty docile. And heās put on a few lbs.
(āThatās coolā āthatās really coolā ānice, thatās coolā ācool coolā he says that a lot when heās nervous or shy or caught off guard while talking to people, pretty good indicator that heās sober, and when he looks up like heās scanning his brain. when heās not sober heās in general more relaxed and makes eye contact. he has more anxiety when heās sober.)
He didnāt get out of control drinking lately in Charleston, and he didnāt act a fool. Good for him. And he was pretty happy.-
(Idk if heās on set rn but dude kooks are filming right now in the city for a little bitš
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-Anyway after the last few times seeing him, which was different, I guess thatās progress. Idk if heās just trying to protect his image after this came out because Odessa told him, or if heās actually making progress and actually feeling happy, and actually making better choices.
like Iāve said before, we donāt talk about feelings and shit. Itās just small talk and seeing each other for short periods.
Idk Iām foreal just tired. Iāve just been waiting it out, hoping shit changes. How long is too long to wait? I was almost š¤at my breaking point when I said I was going to post it all. I cried and cried and then went right back to him.
I still have every bit of information Iād need to expose him, likeā¦ bad bad bad shit.
but do I wanna give him a chance? HOW do I know what to do? This shit makes me sick. š«¤
youāre right, Iām not that dickmatized and heās been mean as hell for 50% of the time weāve been in this *era* but Iām sorta attached. Itās toxic and terrible. But I like the other side.
but itās too late to go back probably. š
itās just a constant battle. until youāve been in a toxic ass relationship as a grown adult and not a little 21yr old you just canāt understand. Especially with the pressure that comes with secrecy and paparazzi and feeling unwanted but also ONLY lusted after, not knowing where the guy youāre fucking is, and seeing him all over social media with girls who idolise him, having to watch my back in public to make sure nobody recognizes me or figures out who I am, and I canāt acknowledge him if I ever see him out in the open anywhere, it all just fucking sucks. Is it my fault? Maybe it is now, because I still canāt leave or say itās over but Iām holding onto that tiny hope that heāll straighten out his life and stop screwing around. Like, he didnāt set any expectations and now Iām hurt. Yea yea yea okay
If Odessa or anyone else were to post this exact story publicly u guys would eat it tf up. š«¤
