An angry lady

yesterday at night while texting him i sent a audio message and he grasped that i was crying, so he asked and even tried to call me to check on me, but i didn't answer, and he was very sweet to me, but i just brushed it off by telling him to not worry about it bla bla bla, apologize to have ruined his mood and i changed the subject. But now i am afraid that i i let him know about this side of me too early on the talking stage and now he is not that interested anymore because he didn't text me this morning. i am feeling so regretful about letting him on my crying session. I always have to ruin things by being sad, no wonder people are tired and go.

i think about how lonely Dennis must have felt when he just moved to the city all alone, he must have missed home, family, and the peaceful nights he spent laying on the grass admiring the stars, it must bring him great comfort in tough times.

this is the ultimate sad angry girl anthem

We just talked for the fist time on a call, it was for 4 hours. There was no awkward moments or weird pauses, it all flowed very nicely .We both laughed very much and cracked jokes. I talked about how i didn't want kids, but still wanting a marriage ( that might my chances with him lower), women rights and healthcare , past funsies and future plans, and it all seemed to click into a life that i would want , like a puzzle fitting into place. And i am probably scared because he didn't ask me yet to be his girlfriend, but i like what we have, so i wouldn't really bother by asking too much questions!

my dearest first tattoo, in honor of Laufey's song snow white, because i might never outgrow feeling that way. sorry it's reversed tho lol

Every time i giggle and throw my feet when i see his sweet non flirtatious text i wrap it up and remember he didn't make me his girlfriend yet, so i don't know what i am smiling for. LIKE WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???? ( he listened ( he asked) to me yap about the book i just finished reading+ he read my essays and came to discuss them with me + he bought me book)

i have exams in two weeks and these terrible headaches chose now as good timing to strike me , like please let me lock in, i have got a life you know, I CANNOT BE SICK EVERYDAY