Uniquely Strange

When you’re trying to rub one out but your bf tries to sext you and now you’re not even in the mood anymore because you’re too focused on not seeming doofy. 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

I’m not sure what I want… part of me wants a future with you, the whole 9 yards.. kids, a family, a life together… but another part of me just wants to go off on my own.. move somewhere nobody knows me and just start over again, travel, do what I want to do without any responsibilities… and I’m torn between the two.

😔 I don’t know if you’re ready for the type of relationship that I’m ready to give you… and it makes me sad to know this.. because I really do love you and I show it to you. I don’t just say it, my actions show it. My friends tell me to ask for a break.. some time for you to think about what you want but what I fear the most is that you’ll realize you won’t want me.

Just realized.. I don’t know what I want 😬😬😬😬

I make my own skin crawl with how possessive I am… Why am I like this???? 😭😭😭 I hate this.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. I’m numb.. idk if that’s better than feeling everything or worse 🤷🏽‍♀️ maybe I’ll feel something later.