Ummmm

Yes you are still toxic and immature if while you are in a relationship (or even just interested in someone) you are unable to maintain healthy relationships with other people

Do I even make anyone happy? Have I ever?

Idk maybe when we were getting to know each other and I told you about my history and trauma, how people behaved that caused it and how people have behaved that has triggered me since, you learn from that and don’t treat me in those exact ways???

Why does this keep happening to me??? You can’t even say I do this to myself when it’s other people’s behavior and how they treat me. I literally set boundaries and tell them what I need or don’t like and they fucking do it anyway

I did not abandon you lmao I literally told you I wasn’t leaving and want you around but that because you made my effort feel unwanted I did not feel safe initiating contact. I was not being controlling or manipulative, I was literally giving you full control of the relationship. I expressed a boundary and what I needed from you to feel safe, and you chose to leave me alone and not repair. You said you care about me and would be there for me and then immediately did neither of those

It’s just amazing and perplexing how you reblog so many sentiments and desirable behaviors that you actively push back against when they’re given and offered to you 😅

Telling me you’re doing something and saying I’m welcome to join is not an intentional invite and not the same as telling me you want to do something with me. The former is convenient for you, whereas the latter is making time to spend with me. I appreciate that you still welcome my presence but I hate feeling like an option and you’re only available to me when it’s convenient for you