Annie Vu

Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love it and move on and be better for it and run as far as you can in the direction of your best and happiest dreams across the bridge that was built by your own desire to heal.

Why I fall so hard, so fast. a lot of people don’t understand how I can fall so hard for someone, so fast. for a while I didn’t understand it but now as I get older it all makes sense to me. the truth is i grew up in a family where love wasn’t always present and to this day it has changed me. I didn’t know what a healthy relationship looked like or what love was. the reason I fall so hard for people is because I crave the love I didn’t get to see when I was younger. the love I should’ve seen my dad give to my mom. my “home” isn’t considered a home for me, so I make one out of girls who make me happy and care about me. girls that shower me in affection and give me what I’ve always wanted. whether it’s holding my hand, cuddling me, making me smile or laugh, kissing me, tracing your fingers over my skin, putting your hand on my thigh, tickling me, taking me for drives. doesn’t matter how big or little. it’s not something I’m proud of or happy to be like at all. it confuses people and upsets them. but I have a big heart and I can’t change that about myself. people will come into my life and have a huge impact on me but I will end up meaning nothing to them in the end. I think that’s what hurts the most. so please when you tell me you don’t understand why I fell so hard for you this is why. I’m not sorry for having a heart too big, I’d rather rip myself open and give someone everything, then give them nothing at all.

Do you know what happens when you hurt people? ….When you hurt people, they begin to love you less. That’s what careless words do.