The Scriptorium

Highlights from BERLIN.

Things are much better than they were before my bday. My dad's biopsy was a TOTAL win. He has to go back for a CT scan, but it looks like we caught it SUPER early!!! It was the best possible news.

My car is on track to be fixed and the other driver was found 100% at fault so my insurance isn't fucked.

And now I leave for BERLIN in THREE DAYS!!!

I'm feeling a little stressed and overwhelmed but that's pretty standard for me before I head out on a long trip.

I think it's gonna be so good to get out of here and just be in a place that taps into my explorer nature. Just dive into history and art and food. Leave my work stress behind.

Monday night heading to a press screening, I got into a car accident. My first collision. A girl ran a red light across the intersection and I didn't see her soon enough to stop in time and we collided. I've had to talk to her insurance and mine like every fucking day and it's exhausting and stressful. I have a $1,000 deductible and bro I can't afford that right now. I can make it work, but it will be... not good. So it's just the stress of waiting to see what happens, even if technically it's likely to go in my favor.

Then yesterday I called my dad and said "How are you?" and he said, "I've been better!!!!" and I said why and he said, "Well, I have cancer!!!"

...

I burst into tears in the street. Just cried all over the grocery store and up and down Hollywood Boulevard.

He's going back in on my birthday Tuesday to get it thoroughly checked out so I'll know more soon. But jesus fucking christ. That's my DAD. He's my favorite dad! Of all dads! I don't like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because I had a GOOD date for once. Like not fine, not not-bad, not okay, but GOOD. We did meet on Feeld though, so it's sort of instantly slotted in the "this isn't going anywhere" box, but that's okay! What I need right now is just some genuinely enjoyable romantic connection, regardless of endgame.

We flirted and made each other laugh a lot and made out a lot in the bar and that's NICE.

Actively trying to schedule another date before I leave for Berlin after my bday. I could try and make it happen next week? But honestly I don't feel like being that overbooked so I'll probably shoot for the following week. But we'll see! I'd actually be sad if we don't go out again.