Warm Ice.

Update//04

Update//03

Up or down? / Liverpool / Hasselblad cx503i / Rollei CN200

Update//02

Based on the practice from last year, mental health will still be focused as the main subject in this year’s practice. There have some mental health awareness discussions between the range of children, teenagers and young adults, but the voices targeting on the ages after becoming adults (before mid-age) are not well-spoken enough. Therefore, instead of expressing the emotions of one individual,  I would like to bring the issues of growing and ageing into my art practice.

The initial idea of this project has two part as final result. he first part is to make a series of semi-documentary photographs capturing memories of my mother, grandmother, and also myself when I was under/around 20. It would be presenting as a photo book. The second part of the project was to make several short films using the method of photography, by its stillness and pausing the moments, and music/sound design, by the its material of looping and repeatability, to present the idea of memory, ageing, and current state of mind. As an result, all of the individual moving images can be shown as one short film.

Update//01

I’m currently stuck in the stage of not knowing how to keep making progress. Maybe going back to Taiwan for a month was not a wise choice, most of the key dates are around the end of this year. Curating an exhibition by myself is quite a challenge especially when I’m doing everything in a different timezone. The original ideas of holding an exhibition in Taiwan were to test how my project could be worked in my country, and to discover the potential collaborated opportunities for my future career. However, as the time went through, I started to confusing myself with tons of questions.  “Am I doing this the right way?”  “Is this exhibition really necessary?”  “Maybe I should try harder finding more artists?”  “Who should I invite to the opening and who I should not?” I kept thinking about how did my classmates do when the last time we held the testing time exhibition, it was well-organised enough for the amount of art works. But what makes an exhibition successful? The one I’m working on is more like a family/friends reunion for me, instead of an art exhibition. To avoid that, I tried to organise a small talk/seminar session on the opening day. I’m not sure if having a small talk is often happening in UK or not, but in my experience, it’s quite frequent to have it in Taiwan. 

Self-portrait / Hasselblad cx503i / Delta 400

I remember a dream from last night

I remember a dream from last night, it seemed I shaved half of my long hair walking on the street unbalanced. Then a black taxi from yesterday stopped, the beard driver looked like a north european with really heavy taiwanese accent. "You've already missed a lot, if you don't get in you will miss even more." He said. But I don't know how far the destination will be, I might not able to afford the price. "It's alright, I don't know how long will it takes to there, but you can pay me back in the next life." But the next life seems even blurry than that location, are you sure you want to do this? "You are such a dumb, I don't believe in next life, the point is do you want to get in or not?!" So I sit next to him. Just when I fasten my seatbelt, he speeded up the car immediately. Looking at his profile face, with back light and foggy light ringed his shape, I suddenly noticed that I don't even know where I was heading to.

York,England / Konica C35 / Kodak BW400 Stay brave

It might look beautiful but only with those obvious flaws, they make it as perfect as you want it to be seen.Sometime to make things, there's always a limitation if you are doing only on your own. The picture might be big and beautiful, but you doubt it's real even when it's right there you can almost touch it. It is okay to reach out to others, and it's totally fine if things turn out not what you planed, you just have to face no matter what is coming toward you, regardless how heavy it will press on your shoulder and your back. Things will have a way out eventually.I'm talking to you, and I'm talking to myself. Stay brave.