Munchkin_Hound.F3ral

I should probably do this on my main blog but I'll do it here first (I will update this as time goes)

I'm Munchkin, main account is munchkinhound

I'm a he/him transmasc, and gay demisexual.

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About me :

*⁠.⁠✧ Getting tested for autism and ADHD, and DID, all neurodivergences and mental illnesses/disorders are undiagnosed, only suspected.

*⁠.⁠✧ I'm an artist, I do mostly concept and comics, and OC art. I also write stories (or atleast plan them and write bits and peices). I play a lot of videos games.

⁠*⁠.⁠✧ Therian (canine based) - Mainly Fox, Bull Terrier, Caucasian Shepherd (maybe livestock guardian dogs in general), Silken Windhound

*⁠.⁠✧ Otherkin - Trico

*⁠.⁠✧ Fictionkin - Spider-Cat, Mae Borowski

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Interests :

✪ Marvel - Spider-Man, and his villains (specifically Shocker, I'm rabid for that man)

✪ HTTYD

✪ Games - Oxenfree, Night In The Woods, Stardew valley, Spider-Man, DBH

✪ Jurassic World, Camp Cretaceous and Chaos Theory

✪ DND

Like wdym I'm outside in a dog mask and buying a spidey dino plushie and absolutely loving life

Missing things about my body I never even had.

Sometimes I hate how animalistic I am

Because it ultimatley makes it harder for me to communicate, I absentmindedly rely on things I dont have to show how I feel, and then get frustrated when people dont know what Im feeling. I don't have a tail to wag or tuck in, sharp fangs to show when I'm angry or scared, I don't have ears that pin back or can show when I'm listening to you, I can't raise my hackles when I try and defend myself. I cannot show when I need someone to back off, cannot show my true anger or frustration in a situation, cannot show my fear, cannot show my happiness. As an autistic person, sometimes I'm very non-expressive, and having my animal features back would really help me.

And then theres all the things people do see - the hissing, the barks, the yelps, the litle cat noises, and it gets me judged. (Not always tbf, multiple people in the past have asked me how I do my trilling cat noise, which is mostly a stim that I don't have control over and cannot do on command)

I wanna run around on all fours and feel the freedom of running fast and without care through the fields and woods, jumping over obstacles, but my body physically wont let me comfortably do that because of the fact I dont have the right anatomy, my muscles and joints are fucked and sometimes painful (still don't know why, may be genetic) and I fell out of practise doing quads because of the bullying I faced in high school.

I wanna run in the snow, but I get too cold because I dont have a thick fur coat to keep me warm.

I hate how animatilistic I am on the inside because it reminds me how much I am not what I wanna be and how I feel I should be. It reminds me of the judgement I got that caused me to hide myself, and the bullying I got for simply trying to exist comfortably.

I wonder why cant I just be happy as a human - Why do I identify more as a canine? But then I remember human beings can be so awful, and theyre like one od the most unnatural thing on this planet and sometimes i dont know how anyone can be so proud as to identify as one

Yes I think I should be a fox, on some days I think I should be more of a dog (Bull Terrier, or Caucasian Shepherd). I want to run in the woods, or roll in the grass, and jump in the snow.

Yes I am internally a dragon who wants to spread his wings and fly.

Yes I believe I am Spider-Cat in the wrong dimension in the wrong body. I want my claws back. I want to climb buildings and help people.

Yes I am Mae Borowski. I want to be back in Possum Springs, and the town I live in is just a shit knockoff.

But I am also aware I am human. I'm aware I will never be these things. But that doesn't make the pain any less painful.