dis-color-ious

Dulu bapak yg selalu nguatin ade kan, skg siapa pak?

Pak, ade hrs gmn?

Every single night.

Is it okay to have sleep just 1-2 hours a day for like more than 3 mos?

Is it okay if i keep smiling laughing and make some jokes while im hurting inside?

Is it okay to be me?

May i say tired? To whom? To whom can i rely on?

I feel safe with no one. No one. No fucking one.

Its okay

Im okay

Hai pak!

Kangen bgt! Kangen Bapak yang selalu tau kalo ade ada masalah dan cuma nemenin disamping sambil peluk/mijetin kaki.

Kangen bgt kalo lg ada apa-apa cuma ndrusel aja disamping Bapak.

Kangen bgt pagi siang sore malem cuma diceramahin ttg makan yang teratur dan jgn telat.

Pak, ade lagi kenapa-napa. Ade harus gmn?

Belajar menahan supaya ga muntah

Tapi 2x hampir keluar didepannya

Why so lemah 😤

Mbok yo walaupun jantung udah kayak motor racing tp kan ga harus hoek didepannya 😤🙄

Bukan krn ingin dikejar

Tapi takut

Takut kalau tlp tapi ga diangkat / bahkan direject

Takut kalau bertanya tapi dijawab dgn kebohongan

Bertahan sakit.

Pergi sakit.

Apa yang harus dilakukan?

And it turned out the dreams kept coming; I would wake up trembling, with a racing heart, rapid breathing, confusion, and a headache.

Its okay.

Im okay.

So happy surrounded by positive vibes. We laughed, we updated our life.

Its okay anggi

Its okay

You’ll be fine

I’ll be fine after all