It's too late

But I can be a better person

No cause why even now if you said to me

'I'm sorry, let's figure this out'

Am I still willing to say

'I forgive you'

What's wrong with me?

Why do I love you so much more?

Why do I want to fight till I'm out of breath to save what we've built?

It's not the comfort I'm afraid of losing

It's just you, losing you, I've lost you

I don't want to beg

I always believed in you

I still believe in you

'tonight will be the night' on repeat in my head

But I don't know what to put in the letters

I don't know what my final words should be

Should I leave anything or just let everyone wonder

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Then I hear your voice

And I put it off another night

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In the past

I've only stayed because of us

The future we'd have, I didn't want to miss it

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I miss our bed

I miss feeling you toss and turn

I miss your sleep talking

I miss being able to reach for your hand

I miss the smell of your pjs

I miss seeing your sleepy face

I miss Kenobi cuddling into you

I miss kissing you goodnight and stealing your vaseline

I miss hearing that you love me

....

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11 years later the person who put me together has ripped me apart. And there's just silence. I have no choice but to bear it on my own.

I was once you're everything.