My dearest Narcissa,
By the time you read this I will already be gone. I donât think I ever thought Iâd write something so dramatic and cliche as that, but here we are. I will be gone, hopefully somewhere safe, and I know you will be angry and hurt. No apology I could write would ever be enough and nothing could make up for this betrayal, I know this. But I am so sorry.
I donât know what Bella or Mother and Father will tell you about why I left, I am sure it will not be good. I want you to know the truth and I want you to hear it from me, not warped and distorted by rumors and scorn.
I fell in love.
A cliche, believe me, I know. But it is so much more than that. I fell in love with him, but also with myself and who I am when I am simply allowed to be. He looks at me and sees me - not family name or blood status or anything else. I love the person he gives me the space and encouragement to be and I hope more than anything that you will someday forgive me and get to meet her.
There is so much beauty and goodness and magic in the world - so much more than weâve ever been shown or allowed to believe in. It wasnât until I knew genuine joyful love that I realized how much hatred we grew up with. Please donât misunderstand me - I love you and Bella eternally and nothing will ever change that. But I wonder who we would be if we had not grown up being taught hatred? I hope you can find out.
I know how incredibly selfish you must think I am, and I had planned on waiting until you were back at school. I wanted us to have one last golden summer. But it isnât just about me anymore - I could not risk my child. I donât know what Father would do if he found out and I was still around, but I would never want to find out. I hope you can meet them, my baby, I hope they get to know you and love you the way that I do.
I am so sorry for leaving you, and I donât know if you can ever forgive me. But please, please donât let them destroy your spark. Donât let them convince you that your only worth is in your name or your beauty, you are so much more than that. You deserve someone who looks at you like youâre the sun, who builds you up and allows you to unapologeticly be yourself. Promise me you wonât let them hold you down?
I love you forever and nothing could ever change that. I hope you can forgive me, or at the very least find it in your heart to not hate me.
All my love,
Andromeda
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