andshesback

i've been focusing on healing my IBD. and i fucking am. I'M NOT BLEEDING ANYMORE!!! from a warzone in the toilet for 6 months, to not a single drop. and i don't have to run to the toilet to have bloody diarrhea 10 times a day.

am i perfectly healed? no. if i have junk food/dairy/red meat/sugar, I'll have issues. BUT THIS IS GOOD FOR ME. It forces me to not be bulimic or binge. like I literally cant b/p anymore.

wtf!!! we're now supposed to feel sorry for narcissists because they "have a disorder and can't help it"? LOLLLL save your energy, pity, and empathy for people who deserve it.

i'm going to the grocery store every day to buy fresh produce now. i spend like an hour daily juicing veggies and fruits. I've been cooking actual MEALS. lean protein and vegetables. i'm snacking on blueberries. i had some vegan chocolate earlier. (wtf vegan chocolate is actually delicious)

i've got freshly squeezed fucking CABBAGE JUICE in my fridge. it's nasty but I drink it for my health. i also have pineapple & pomegranate juice which was my snack for the evening instead of binging and purging junk.

me: do you think my digestive issues could be a consequence of bulimia? dr: you're bulimic? what makes you think you're bulimic? me: i throw up after i eat, quite a lot dr: on purpose? why? to lose weight? me: that and to relieve stress dr: most bulimics are overweight, you're slim, you're not bulimic, if anything you're anorexic

dude are you actually...... so just because i'm an effective purger I'm not bulimic? my binges are fucking huge. it's not like I'm super skinny and throw up bc i ate a granola bar. i binge like crazy. i could go on ranting about this but damn what a dumbass.