Anazen Art

Art as therapy, this one on my deconstruction of a certain religion.

Rainbow doodles (I’m trying to make my art fun again)

Trying to get back into my art hobby. It’s slow going 😅 (I started this back in November 2025)

New profile pic for other accounts

New profile pic

Original characters (updated designs and lineup)

A bit late but here is my Dia de los Muertos pic for the year

My current state of mind

Some flower nymph like beings, featuring cool and warm and mixed pallets :3

“I wish I could be Numb” (aka, being empathetic sucks).

One trait of my autism is hyper empathy. One way to describe it is I’m like Tinkerbell: there’s only enough room to hold one emotion at a time, but I experience that emotion with every fiber of my being. When I’m happy, I’m ecstatic. When I’m angry, I’m enraged. When I’m sad, I’m depressed.

And when I’m around people, I absorb their emotions.

When I first started my current job, there were some intense meetings I attended (because I felt I didn’t have the choice to not go). These meetings were full of angry and frustrated individuals, and I was forced to sit through hours of their negativity. At the end I would get so overwhelmed that it would trigger what I now know to be a meltdown. I would huddle in a bathroom stall, shaking and crying, the experience only made worse because I didn’t understand why it was happening.

Finally, things at work calmed down. I was officially diagnosed and was granted accommodations at work - given a private space that shelters me from all the stimulus in the main office and allows me to interact with my coworkers less (the toxic gossip that everyone was so bent on spewing was making my mental health suffer).

But even with the accommodations, I still have to go to meetings. I still have to interact with my coworkers. I still get subjected to the poison of negative emotions. Because something about me seems to scream to people, “I’m a great listener and will gladly help you relieve you of your suffering by hearing all of these things I didn’t want to know.”

And I’m left feeling heavy, gross, and tired.

So there are times when I wish I was Numb

My old phone case broke and it was as good of an excuse as any to create a new piece lol

“They both want out”

Done on a day where I couldn’t express myself any other way. Even I’m not entirely sure what it means, but this was the feeling and visual in my head.

I’m feeling better now, btw. It helped to put it on “paper”.

My Girls’ Eyes

A quick sketch for ironing out my Star Wars persona :3

Had to redesign my Belle OC… again lol. Because I’m wasn’t happy with the latest attempt.

Saw Belle again and had to have another go at designing an AS/Avatar

This was going to be inked and colored like my other digital pieces but the lines and flat cell coloring just wasn’t working for me. So I decided to see if I could make it work as ‘sketchbook’ style