Twisted Mind

Snowy lashes weather that was.❄️

Working on the drawing, I was going to write quite a caption about the new year resolutions to draw more since 2020 was a creative flop for me and all that stuff and blah blah blah but I decided that I don’t really want to.

So, as per the resolution, here're two cool dudes and their car.

P.S.: This is surely the beardest beard I’ve ever drawn.

P.P.S.: approved by Alex Lynn himself 😎 adjeshkwkdbwkksbofnomg

Last time I made a post here was in August and then I disappeared into the void again being overwhelmed by all the troubles and depression and anxiety all together and then a couple of months after that I discovered a nice message from a person welcoming me back. I’m sorry, an incredibly kind and caring human being and fellow follower, I failed you and your trust in me.

I’ve checked the inbox before writing this post, there’re even more nice messages and I can’t thank you all enough for being so good and nice to me even tho I’m pretty dead here.

It’s no news that 2020 had been terrible for everyone - our family and I had it all too: we had troubles, we had issues, covid, depression, losses, etc. I had thoughts I wasn’t supposed to have. But eventually I found myself with lots of loving and caring people around and, I don’t want to jinx it, it looks like there’s hope for me there after all.

I was miserable. I’m trying to learn to love and accept myself as I am, however, I’m searching for the ways to improve myself too. I’m trying to go back to my old “drawing routine” when I could produce a proper piece from time to time and not once in several months. And when it would really bring me joy. I want to be better, I need to be, I’m trying to and, I hope, I’ll get there.

I should have gotten used to the fact that whatever I do and wherever I go, I face challenges that I cannot avoid, it’s never an easy day out there for me. Since it’s not something I can escape, better turn those challenges from something that breaks me into something that makes me stronger. This is some banal shit thoughts but I better hold on to them, tbh.

Anyway, I hope all of you here are doing well and staying safe 🖤

Drew this pic in May and posted it to my insta with the “Cause in this weird time we all need a smiling Seb, right?” in the caption.

It’s the end of August now and the things haven’t changed, we still do.