anaccumulation

"If we can’t work toward not abusing ourselves, we’re more likely to abuse or manipulate others to get the support we need when we’re emotionally overwhelmed.”

Me: thanks i made this one special just for you

glen canyon dam overlook page, AZ

“In a way, I’d been asking this question privately, for years, of a couple male writer friends I believe to be actually great. I write them both charming emails, but really I am always trying to find out: how selfish are you? Or to put it another way: how selfish do I need to be, to become as great as you?”

all the blog posts i did and didn’t write (summer 2017 pt 3)

all the blog posts i did and didn’t write (summer 2017 pt 2)

all the blog posts i did and didn’t write (summer 2017 pt 1)

missing the summertime already

“We are halved by our traumas, and the fact that parts of us don’t make it through to the other side is simply logic. I don’t feel the need to analyze this as some might — perhaps because I, too, was once one person and then another.”

“Joy alone will not grant anyone safety. It can, however, act as a small bit of fuel when the work of resistance becomes too much. My activism is at its best when it takes time to laugh over FaceTime with a beloved friend on the morning after people were murdered, because it allows me, even briefly, to imagine a world where that happiness can still freely and comfortably exist. Joy, in these moments, is the sweetest meal that we keep chasing the perfect recipe for, among a world trying to gather all of the ingredients for itself. I need it to rest on my tongue especially when I am angry, especially when I am afraid, especially when nothing makes sense other than the fact that joy has been, and will always be, the thing that first pulls me from underneath the covers when nothing else will.”

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This, of course, was Lebron’s response to “nigger” being spray-painted on the fence outside of his Los Angeles home. Instead of declining to comment or dismissing it as a distraction — which he would have been perfectly justified to do considering both the timing and the explosive gravity of the incident — he used his considerable platform and influence to remind America (and the world) about ourselves and the pervasive sickness that permeates our bones and vessels. Perhaps Lebron is the most famous athlete in the world; a soon-to-be billionaire with unfathomable access and opportunity and privilege and power. But to many Americans — too many Americans — he’s still just a nigger. Just like Emmett Till.

baby cousin off to college :’)