Air Venting

🎼I really 🎼fucking hate 🎼my parents🎼

My mother is Video and my mental health is a Radio Star

Lol that moment when your parents are in so much shit for money and they have to sell a house but they blame you as the reason they haven't left the area because of your school and are also blaming you that they can't leave because the type of job you want isn't where they want to move to and they also blame you for not deciding which house to sell because you said you don't want to sell one of the houses but in reality you couldn't care less where you live and you've made it clear that you don't mind where you live haha yeah good times

I feel shitty cause I'm an animation graduate and all my drawings and ideas are trash and I'm like coming to terms with that I'll never make it into this kind of industry

Every five mins my parents are like 'what do we have that's keeping us here' and I'm just like 'fuck I dunno maybe my friends' and it's like 'but you hardly see them' and I'm like 'that's not the point'

"I couldn't go to this place last week because YOU were doing something, and I couldn't go this week because YOU were doing something, and you didn't even go and see your friends anyways!' Yeah mum thanks for making me feel even more of a loser who friends don't want to see her and thanks for twisting the knife in at how I'm a burden to you

I'm an animation graduate who can't animate, or draw original characters in a good style, I'm in 50k debt and can't even draw a face

because our lives have spun so out of control we cling to what little things we can control onto with our cold dead hands

Maybe my parents should've divorced when I was 5 years old when they should've, instead of divorcing now so our lives wouldn't have sucked and I wouldn't have been subjected to all the arguments and all the shit we've unnecessarily been through over the last fucking 17 goddamn years

It's got to the point where I just realised I heard myself say after hearing the traffic news of an accident 'God I wish that were me'

I want to just jump off the world for a few days

I cry at my kid pictures cause they remind me of a time when I was hopeful

I don't want to be here anymore