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So I’ve been in a bad place lately. I haven’t been a great friend, mum, daughter, sister and partner. I have let the pain control my life. I have let pain get in the way of enjoying life. I have let pain push away everyone I love. I’m trying to dig myself out of this hole I’m stuck in. CRPS is not going anywhere any time soon. I have been given the opportunity for help and I think I’m going to take it. Just to those I have pushed away I’m sorry, I’m working on it. To my family I’m sorry, I’m working on it. To all of you that I have connected through here who are also suffering everyday I’m sooo sorry that you have to go through this, it has to get better soon and I wish more good days then bad for you. This picture shows that even tho I look like everyone, this is an invisible illness. We need help. We need awareness. #crpsawareness #crpswarrior #invisableillness #weneedawareness #crps #imsorry #timetostandstrongagain #timetofight #ineedtodobetter #fuckthisshitimout #lovetoeveryone https://www.instagram.com/p/ByM-u6RJJkq/?igshid=19v2w9xaa4s3b

Let’s share awareness. We need progress in the understanding and treatment of CRPS. I’m not the only person that suffers, everyday my family suffers along side me. I’ve had some hard times in my life but this is the biggest challenge that’s been thrown my way. Taking Morphine is not a good enough treatment plan. Doctors not even knowing what CRPS is not acceptable. We need more people talking so others in the future don’t have to suffer. Not only with CRPS but so many chronic conditions. https://www.instagram.com/p/BxrHPPQJ0XD/?igshid=1nnmi1kq0xjxg

#crpsawareness when life gives you 🍋 cover it up with makeup and take one step at a time. Been awake for over 24hours. #whenlifegivesyoulemons🍋 #gottokeepgoing #coveritupwithmakeup #onestepatatime #makeupmakesmehappy #esthermakeup #expectationvsreality #nosleep #tomuchpain #needsleep #stillmanagedtomakeup #onlyhalf #evenwhenitshardtosmile #needtostaystrong #crpssucks #committedtofight Today’s makeup #yslcosmetics #makeuprevolution #thebalm https://www.instagram.com/p/BuVD13Vh-Lw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=90e46i6grcrs

#crpsawareness today’s been tough I look at this picture and I look fine but in reality I’m in immense pain, I feel like being sick and I’m tired and dizzy from the morphine. This is why they say it’s a INVISIBLE ILLNESS. #invisibleillness #invisibleillnessawareness #cantjudgewhatyoucantsee #ilookfinebutimnot #iwillgetbetter #iwillnotgiveup #iwillgetbetter #ichoosemylife #myillnessmythoughts #myillnessdoesnotdefineme #iwillwinthisbattle https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt74cb-A4uq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10fr18jcxwi7w

#crpsawareness MAKEUP ONE HANDED When life gives you 🍋 don’t give up. Todays a tough one ☝️ in lots of pain. So getting up and doing an easy look was not an option, I had to push my self. Been getting lots of motivation from @danimansutti her IG stories are so motivating. #makesitallbetter #evenwithpainismile #gottokeeppushing #notgoingtotaketheeasyway #lovethelook #gladidit #motivateme #iwillgetbetter today’s makeup #starstruckminerals #makeuprevolution https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt4NFpRgzKv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=eqrvdabksfca

#crpsawareness When life gives you 🍋 laugh at corny jokes.#dailyjokes #needalaugh #makeupandlaughs #onlywaytohealthy #donthatethecorny #cornyjokes #cornyjokesarethebest https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt0NLHzhkzy/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1is2mu95izyfs

#crpsawareness MAKEUP ONE HANDED When life gives 🍋 online shop with awesome makeup on 😂 #onlineshopping #ishouldnt #shoppingtherapy #lovinglife #evenwithpainismile #shouldi #donttellthehubby #lovemymakeuptoday #goodmakeupday #makesitallbetter #iwillgetbetter #needtopushmyself today’s makeup 💄 #makeuprevolution https://www.instagram.com/p/BtzQnVxBDKE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1wvgl84i98ie7

#crpsawareness MAKEUP ONE HANDED When life gives 🍋 you put on lashes. I’m so proud I did this look one handed. Also first time I did a wing eyeliner.#feelingproud #lovingthismakeup #bronzemakeup #lashesonehanded #thoselashestho #wingedliner #changedmymood #makeupistherapy #happyevenwiththepain #iwillgetbetter #painwillnotwin #tryingtostaypositive Todays makeup 💄 #bys https://www.instagram.com/p/BtwsGcfhvET/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12x15q84vml4x

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#crpsawareness MAKEUP ONE HANDED When life gives 🍋 match your eyeshadow to your eyes and pillow case. Total accident 😂 #justrealized #nextlevelmatchymatchy #matchymatchy #greenvibes #totalaccident #satisfying #gottokeepsmiling #pushthrough #iwillgetbetter #needtopushmyself #gottokeepsmiling Todayd makeup full face of #maybelline https://www.instagram.com/p/BtuQPyshMwb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ayfcc7fd10wh