Vincent

June 4, 2026

Hi Vinz,

I actually forgot this blog existed :(

I haven't forgotten about you.

Not a single day.

I miss you.

It all feels like yesterday.

I miss you so much.

I met a guy, we haven't seen each other in person but I already love him. He loves chess, like you. I remembered you won in high school, right? I wished we played more growing up. :(

I wish you were here.

Please visit me in my dreams

I love you

November 4th

Vinz, I am going to meet our cousin later

I miss you

I am keeping my mind off things

I feel like I need to explore because my time will come

Sooner rather than later

If I die, I am prepared

I am happy because you are here

I love you

I love you so much

Please take me with you

Let me be with you and granny

Please

Please

November 3rd

Vinz, I love you

I am working on nights again

I love you so much

Please Please take me with you

I cannot find joy in living anymore

I just want to be with you

Please take me with you

November 2nd

Vinz, I love you

Please take me with you

Please Please Please

I cannot live like this anymore

I just to get wasted

Mess with this life

Then die

I wanna die a rebel, a sinner, because | deserve it

Never ending punishment is what I should get

I love you and I did this to you

I don't want to go home I don't want to face the hard truth

I can't

November 1st

Vinz, I miss you

I told a friend about it

I cried

I am not open to it

It's not my proudest moment

I am ashamed of myself

I love you

I love you so much

Drinking helps

Worst the next day but it is a punishment for me

Suffering

I love you

October 31st

Vinz, I am wasted

I don't like today

It's a slap on my face

I miss you

I really really miss you

I love you so much

October 30th

Vinz, I am so sorry.

I don't know why I wasn't able to write here on this day.

Am I preparing for the 31st?

Maybe.

Rest assured you are always in my mind.

I love you.

I love you so much

It's that time of the year.

I miss you Vinz.

October 29th '22

Vinz, I just cried

I miss you

I downloaded the pics I have of us, of you

I miss you

I miss you so much

Idk why I am looking for someone to share my life with

I am prepared to die

I don't see myself getting old

I don't see myself living much longer

I miss you

Please take me with you

Please

October 28th

Vinz, I couldn't wait to see you

I love you so much

I miss you

I miss you so fucking much

Honestly, i don't want to live anymore

I just want to be with you

Please take me

October 27th

Vinz, Hi

Still on Night

I love you Vinz

I miss you so much

I dreamt about you I think

I didn't know

It felt so real.

I wrote this down on the note in my phone

October 26th

Vinz, hey

I love you

I am so sorry again for this super delay

I am back on night shift

I barely slept

I just came back from the city

I miss you

I really really miss you

I am so sorry

Please take me with you

Please let me be with you

Please

I am begging you

October 25th

Vinz, I miss you

I really really really miss you

I am not fully happy of being here

Of living

I feel empty

I feel fucking empty

Please take me with you

I want to die

How I wish I am dead

October 24th

Vinz, I miss you

I fucking miss you

I tried drinking but it is making me feel full

It is not working

I think shots are better

I wasn't in the mood to sing or to join the fun

I feel sorry for my friend's birthday

I feel sorry that he has to deal with the likes of me

No one can ever understand what I am going through

No one

I love you

October 23rd

Vinz, I am here in the City with my friends

How I wish that I am not here

I want to waste my life

I will soon

I just need to help our sister with her studies plus the debt then I am free

I just want to rebel

I do it mildly

October 22nd

Vinz, I was sleeping.

Most of the time this is my problem with night shifts

I oversleep and not write here

I love you

I miss you so much every single day

I cannot imagine going home without you there

I cannot

October 21st

Vinz, I was on Night shift this day

I am so sorry that I wasn't able to write

But always remember that I am thinking of you

All the time

All the time

I miss you

October 20th

Vinz, please take me with you

Please fucking take me with you

I miss you so much

I talked to mom

I hate it that she can move on that fast

I don't like it

Because I cannot forget

I am still in denial

I will never accept it

Ever

I love you so much

I really do