S T R A N G E R

wow i just realized that i skipped the whole year of 2020. understandable. i dont wanna talk about what happened in 2020 bc thats not gonna do me any good. 

but i came here bc my mind has just been everywhere. not gonna lie im very happy. im happy with my family, im happy with my friends and im happy just to know that theres a future for me. 

but what i dont understand tho is that i still feel like missing you and i fucking hate it. healing fr isnt linear. youd think rn id be over you but im still out here thinking about you and i hate it. its actually really shitty to do that to someone and i know that thinking about how shitty that was should push me away from you but it isnt working LOLL. okay dont get me wrong im over you but maybe im just bored?? 

but my mind can think about anyone/anything else tho ugh why you.

is it sad that id probably take u back if that ever happens??