Aminah Said

Ai keeps telling me someone will love me. Have I reached rock bottom?

It's like finding out my drug was just a temporary dose.

Alone forever sounds about right.

Let me go, let me go, let me go.

I think I'm doomed never to find love.

Maybe I won't find my other half and it's okay my heart deserves the love it's willing to give.

It's like God put the devil in front is me to remind me I'm human.

Being heartbroken is not fucking fun...

Haizzz the jokes write themselves.

So I hung out with friends today. Felt abit weird cause sometimes I think my friends are not able to take me as a serious person. Like I don't have a serious bone in my body. 3 friends make me feel like that sometimes. But I still enjoy listening about their troubles they do tell me seriously. Maybe it's just me...

I am proud of what we built, if she's not. She can run all she wants. But it's the love in me that help me built it and belongs fully and wholly to me, not her, and I'm not gonna let her ruin it. It's mine and I'm going to protect it.

I was so stupid to trust her. She lied to my face, and then decided, no I don't want to play the game anymore and disappeared. Couldn't even face me to tell me the truth. Truly a coward and worst of all disrespectful.

Sometimes I think I'm the stupidest person there is. And I have no idea how to change it.

The seduction of pain. Am I worthy of it?