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The reason Shane and Ilya play so fucking brilliantly together once they’re both on the Ottawa line is not because they’re in love - being in love with your husband doesn’t necessarily tell you what he’s going to do next on the ice - but because they’ve each spent close to the 10,000-hours-it-takes-to-be-an-expert watching tape of the other playing hockey. presumably as a sex thing. life is so beautiful.

they should make it illegal to end your story with an epilogue where your main female character is suddenly randomly married and has children when she's never once expressed a desire for this previously

"That pairing would never be canon" and what of it? I'm only supposed to ship what the church tells me to or something?

i guess i just think there’s a lot of talk in fandom about how mm romance sex scenes aren’t realistic and how by the way here’s what you REALLY need to know about anal sex and like. yeah. we know. the purpose is not realism. this isn’t sex ed. it’s a sexual fantasy and like all sexual fantasies it is written for a specific audience. it’s like being like “oh mainstream lesbian porn is unrealistic” well yeah. realism is not an intended goal of mainstream lesbian porn. and you know, nobody is out here being like oh by the way tentacle monsters aren’t real… they assume the author is aware of that. and it seems kind of infantilizing and patronizing to assume all these female mm authors who by and large are over 40 with spouses and adult children are just sooooo silly and immature and glitter gel pen heart eyed that they think they are writing truth about gay male relationships. like surely we can acknowledge that a man writing a mission impossible style thriller doesn’t think that’s how the world really works. and i think it’s fair game to talk about the politics behind the fantasy!! why monogamy is so crucial to women’s fantasies and why intimacy and sexuality are considered analogous. that’s good to pick apart. but. women also get to have fantasies and that doesn’t make them hysterical and out of touch with reality.

The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.

crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell