Life...

Even tho I am depressed... I remember.... I CAN DO IT WITH A BROKEN HEART </3

I am just typing to get my feelings out. I haven't been on here in a while. Things have gotten very hard. I find myself jobless (and I have been applying for everything I can) for over 3 months now. I am struggling not only financially (thinking of bankruptcy) but emotionally and mentally. I am dealing with complex PTSD and anxiety and depression. I cannot even afford the proper medical professional to take steps to help with all this. I feel stuck. I try and I find it had to get up and smile each day. I am so glad I have my 2 beautiful cats Minion and Berlioz, along with my supportive partner. He works so hard to keep us afloat but our relationship is strained due to me. I need an outlet and a job to support my family. I am 29, and feel like a lost child. I feel lost in a rabbit hole... drowning. Thank goodness I can cry it out with Taylor Swift music. Makes me and my cats smile... at least once a day.

Happy International Women's Day 🤓💀👩‍🔬 #womeninstem #internationalwomensday #internationalwomensday2021 xoxo (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMLnveUlw0N/?igshid=1n0hg1feo0x8t

Me as a Pixar animation. ☺️ Happy Holidays all! (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJXXuP9luCG/?igshid=ze16ovndjzik

You're God's good boi now. I will love you forever and always my dear Baloo. Rest easy. Until we play again. #mansbestfriend #goodbye #sadness https://www.instagram.com/p/CH1LQbrljY3/?igshid=1w2swp57ye0mx

Lemon/Lime Gatorade. Green or Yellow? (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGf5pk2lr8E/?igshid=5xtih7fh56i9

Feeling vampirish today https://www.instagram.com/p/CGYMBa-F-li/?igshid=1xbpatmc2b5jd

I look like I'm about to drop my new debit punk rock album lmfao 🤣😂😝 what do ya think? (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGNkz_Plqwi/?igshid=nqudbopb14t6

Happy Thanksgiving! (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGNgAFrleSO/?igshid=i6gfos9edr7j

Nature really is beautiful and vibrant https://www.instagram.com/p/CF5c7ySF_Sg/?igshid=1jskghbly1tjp

This is Minion. He is my eldest boy. I love him. (at Sudbury, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/CF0cSmVFpjO/?igshid=11p2drtmn6ixb

Play! https://www.instagram.com/p/CFmu9GvFkcJ/?igshid=1ubk62jam2k2y