˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚toko fukawa

one- who am i?

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃

you already know this. why are you asking me? anyway, i am toko/toko fukawa/ame, a soulbonder, fictionkin, irl yan, jirai lifestyle individual, and stupid suicidal otaku. i like classic literature, grammar, danganronpa, spirituality, jirai and landmine culture in general, project sekai, and wallowing in my own shittiness, hehe.

however, i also take the prejudice of disliking things within my own time, which you can survey the results of within my 'dni' criteria.

two- you're an irl yandere?

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃

yes, i am! this usually entails inhibiting the characteristics of that of the fictional archetype <3 it may include obsessive love, lecherous tendencies or desires, the longing to express love via harm- whether upon oneself or upon their 'darling'- and more!

three- what's your 'dni' list? 𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

vocab. definitions: bmf: be my friend, iwc: interact with caution (in order to avoid the possibility of aggravating me or others), dni: do not interact (for safety of both you and i) bmf: danganronpa kin (whether spiritual or psychological, or you just call yourself a kin because you relate to the character and the experiences they have faced), enjoyer of thought-provoking conversations, seeker and/or active pursuer of intelligence, lover of classic literature and/or advanced vocabulary in general, sourcemates, soulbonders, fictionkins (unless from a source on my dni list (;w;)), fictosexuals, other similar identities and personas iwc: uncomfortable with sudden/ nonconsensual venting, not mentally ill in any way, uncomfortable with hypersexuality, 'respect yet not support' dni: darkshipper/proshipper (shippers of any illegal or 'taboo' ships), anti any of the previous things that i have mentioned in the bmf section, homophobe, xenophobe, cruel individuals in general, flaky/ may suddenly abandon or otherwise leave me (i understand why you may do this, however this would be VERY risky for my mental health and it may send me into a spiral and make me possibly attempt to end my own life afterward, which would be very unpleasant for you to hear of as well)

four- anons

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

no anons as of yet!

five- in what ways do you communicate?

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

i may communicate in methods which are somewhat dissonant to previous experiences- for example, during toko kinshifts, i may seek to communicate as her in order to experience euphoria, or at least a greater sense of it, whilst during other times i may speak eloquently and with sufficiently conformed grammar, aaaaaand other times i might just talk like ame-chan LOL, i deeply apologise for any issues that may arise during any given moment of inconsistency observed within my behaviour

six- do you need someone to talk to?

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

i aknowledge and support the fact that during your time here on tags such as jiraiblr and similar, you may be enduring a time of extreme mental turmoil. whatever the time it is that you choose to contact me in search of a form of contact, whether or not you are or have been at immediate risk to yourself or others, or whether you yourself percieve your issues as monumental enough to commemorate the occupation of time of another, i proclaim that i will always be here for you. i will always try to understand, even if you are on my iwc or dni list, even if you percieve yourself as unworthy of such care, and even if you deem your issues as too complex to handle. no matter what you need from me, no matter what the outcome you wish to take is, i will be here with you until you are okay. my discord is @ametopetya, or you can dm me on tumblr directly if neccesary. thank you for being here, and for everything that you do just to remain present and compliant. i love you, no matter who you are. please do not be afraid to contact me, and thank you greatly for reading this far.

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄀𝄁𝄃𝄂𝄂𝄃𝄃𝄃𝄂

꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ "Even the withered colours, I still find them so dear." ꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱

like what am I even supposed to say to him that won't make him think I'm having (at least in his opinion) another delusion?

'okay so do you ever remember following instructions that... weren't really instructions?'

'son what'

'well, let me put it this way... have you ever built something inspired by the drawings of a toddler or young person against their wishes?'

'??????????'

'do you have any memories of taking antidepressant medications in unsafe quantities?'

'??????????????????????'

'do you ever remember working in a hall where the walls are only painted teal, with absolutely no other colors present???'

'son i am calling the crisis line on you'

or something like that