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I have the same miserable feelings stuck on a loop I never let myself be happy I don’t deserve to be loved or happy I have no real skills I feel guilty for complaining and not doing anything about it over and over is insanity and exhausting like if I have an out, why will I not take it??? I’m so scared, and overwhelmed and I feel emotionally immature because I don’t want to deal with it I’m lazy and when I think about feeling like this for the rest of my life I CANT do it there’s no way I make it out of this alive I feel so broken

“There are no angels in this world to accompany the dying in their final moments, only pickpockets and carrion birds” - S.T Gibson, ‘A Dowry of Blood’