amanda

a year ago i was the most depressed i’ve ever been in my entire life

and when i would escape to outer banks it was like everything wasn’t as bad as it felt

now a year later im not as attached to the show and im feeling happier in my life

thank you outer banks for actually saving my life in a way i cant explain

“what the fuck are you wearing? you look fucked. did you hit your fuckin’ head or somethin? c’mere.” your eyes started welling up with tears as your boyfriend rafe pulled you by the wrist through the crowd of kooks and into the nearest bathroom of topper’s party. embarrassed by his actions, the second he closed the door you felt as though you were about to break.

“y-you just humiliated me in front of all your kook friends, rafe.” you said quietly, still taken aback by his harsh words.

“i embarrassed you! are you fucking serious right now?” he laughed cruelly as he yanked you in front of the mirror. “do you not see yourself? l-look at yourself, you showed up like a slut, y/n. you look like some wannabe kook.” the man you met a month ago, who had fallen madly in love with everything about you, who treated you like a princess and told you how beautiful you were every chance he got, was tearing away every single bit of confidence he once helped build.

now the clumps of mascara you had layered on were streaming down your tear-streaked face, blending with the thick foundation. rafe lifted you up so you were sitting on the sink. “baby, don’t cry, j-just fucking take it off. here, i’ll take it off. i think these are makeup wipes.”

“i-i’m sorry, i thought… i thought you’d like it. i wanted to fit in, look like the other girls,” you said, your voice trembling despite your best efforts to stay composed.

he sighed deeply, his expression softening slightly but not enough to hide his irritation. “yeah, well, you don’t need to try so hard, okay? just be yourself or whatever. stop trying to be something you’re not.” he roughly wiped at your face, removing the makeup in harsh, impatient strokes.

“there, better. i love you, ok? just… don’t embarrass me again, alright?” rafe pulled your slutty dress down to cover your ass, then pecked your lips. “let’s get out of here. i need a drink, and you need to get out of those ridiculous heels.”

You were born bluer than a butterfly

Beautiful and so deprived of oxygen

Colder than your father's eyes

He never learned to sympathize with anyone

I don't blame you

But I can't change you

Don't hate you (don't hate you)

But we can't save you (but we can't save you)

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