DID

god I hate drawing the body I’m never doing that ever again

This is about a younger alter in a DID system. This is NOT about age regression and absolutely NOT about age-play. 

Hi. We need some help. Even if you don’t know the answer can you reblog as someone else might.

Hi Little one. How are you feeling?

It’s okay. You’re okay now.

It was scary, wasn’t it? It wasn’t fair for you to be in that situation.

And I am so sorry. So so sorry for everything that happened.

I know it wasn’t me. I know “I” shouldn’t be the one that should apologize, but you know what?

You deserve an apology.

And more than that, you deserve a thank you.

Thank you. For being so brave.

Thank you for being so strong.

I mean it.

You were. You’re still here, and you are still going.

And if no one else has told you, then I will.

I’m proud of you. For whatever it is worth, sweety.

I’m so proud of you.

I know you might still be scared. And little one, it’s perfectly okay to cry about it.

But that does not change how strong you were. It doesn’t change the fact that you survived. It doesn’t change how amazing you are.

You’re amazing and awesome and words cannot describe how much I respect you.

Please, don’t you ever let anyone tell you that you weren’t strong enough. You weren’t good enough. Don’t let them ever try and and tell you how you should feel.

Because they can’t say anything about you.

You know?

systems formed without childhood trauma

gateway systems

system hopping

system resets

walk-in alters

alters dying

BPD systems

any system that isnt OSDD or DID actually

alter fusions

having a fictive of a character with no prior knowledge of that character

all-fictive systems

“mixed” systems

DID without amnesia

Then they came back and I was like “Wait.” and educated myself. 

With recent stigmatization of Dissociative Identity Disorder in the media, I want to prove a point that systems exist, that Dissociative Identity Disorder exists, and that we are more common than the world thinks.

People think DID is an oddity, that every person Diagnosed with it has violent tendencies and thus that we as a community are scary.

I want the world to know we are your friends, neighbors, coworkers, managers, supervisors, boyfriends, girlfriends, spouses; and we are NOT the stigma. So if you reblog to show you’re a system, put in the tag the number of people in your system.

E.g. My mother used to scream and shout when I showed symptoms of disordered eating because she just wanted me to be Normal and not need her to make any changes to the way she works.

Also while you’re the best judge of your own experience I’d argue that while your alters may upset your mother, there’s a lot of other symptoms of DID that in all are way harder to live with than a child who has alters e.g. Having trauma, flashbacks, hypervigilance, DPDR, dealing with time loss etc

Activity:

Showering= 20 Sink body wash= 5 Brushing your teeth = 5 Going into placement = 40 Sleeping 3 hours + = 10 Sleeping 5 hours + =25 Eating minimum 1 US cup of food= 10 Eating a proper meal = 20 Doing 1 hour of essay work =25 Doing 1 hour of bioscience work =20 Washing the car= 5 Ironing =15 Tidying the wardrobe =15 Cleaning the bedroom area =5 Cleaning the kitchen area =10 Cleaning the bathroom area= 10 Cleaning the desk area =10 Putting on clothes instead of pajama= 5 Putting on something clean= 10 Going outdoors =15 Not self harming for one week = 30 Not self harming for 2 weeks= 40 Not self harming for 3 weeks =50 Not self harming for 1 month =60 + one day of double points for whatever you earn Taking medication =5 Checking emails =10 Being social with someone = 15 Changing the wound dressing =10

Minus points awarded for:

Leaving before end of shift because of anxiety = -50 Binging= -15 Purging = -40 Intentionally not eating for 6+hours = -20 Hiding food= -25 Throwing away food= - 25 Messing with hip wound = -10 Putting dirty clothes on= -10 Missing a day of placement = -70

Reward:

A day nap= 100 A story (for smaller alters) = 40 1 hour TV or art time = 70 30 minutes journal time = 30 30 minutes of computer time = 50 A hot drink = 30 A film =90 Religious time/ meditation time minutes= 25

Rules:

- points can be carried over if the next day is a placement day - No “point stealing” - Points can be shared if everyone involved contributed

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Feel free to use a version of this yourself