In the gym listening to Inferno for the first time feeling like I’m sifting through darkness and dread in a holy battle. Wondering if the girl on the treadmill was my angel sent to impart wisdom but then an old man, balding, latino, Ed hardy looking shirt comes in playing Sade loud on his phone (small apartment gym) and starts doing qi gong. What the hell am I talking about anymore? I know exactly what I am talking about. Sade is a symbol in my relationship ending, old news (But also revealing new layers each day?) How can someone not like Sade, not even know of her? I default to thinking I made a mistake in ending it, but then I hear Sade out somewhere, and I remember. I cannot enmesh with someone who isn’t moved. Who doesn’t seek to intensify their enchantment by life

I go to the store acting all Kylie jenner and then a small woman asks me to get the marshmallows from the top shelf and I’m like sisterrrr ☀️of course

Dreamt I was shopping at a german health food store and the employees brought me to a little room to show me cctv footage of myself walking around the store to point out how dissociated I was and then told me I need to rub mustard seed oil on each of my joints

I’m eating a fucking quesadilla and listening to fucking music

In sweat lodge last night I was sat in a row of 5 women all different ages all going through heartbreak right now. I watched broader gender dynamics and tensions playing out throughout the ceremony. It was like twins in a power struggle in the womb

If you emotionally struggle during luteal phase…. Saffron. I like cycle serenity from gaia herbs