Aprilalskar

So today, well in about ten minutes it will officially be my best friends birthday and i can't see her and it really sucks because i really wanted to be able to see her on her birthday she was there for mine. 

So i am writing her the BIGGEST letter ever, just hope the thought counts :)

Well i am 14 weeks tomorrow, and i will say things are a little better then the beginning and I am just talking about my pregnancy in general i don't have that bad of morning sickness anymore. Still am emotional but it really doesn't help that i have anxiety. Oh and i got the job i wanted, except i have to do overnights and i'm not too excited to switch my sleeping schedule especially whenever the baby is here i'm going to want to be there to hold him/or her and stuff like that. I'm weird like that, oh boy do i have so much on my mind. I've had questions asked to me but honestly my phone does not let me answer them, so i will brisk through some on here.

No, i'm not going through this pregnancy alone i have my families support, yes the baby daddy isn't in the picture and if you were me you'd agree it's only for the best. I think some of the things people have asked me are a lot to do with this whole ordeal and I have been asked why i did not get an abortion it's because everything happens for a reason and if god did not want me to be a mother right now it wouldn't of happened and i have a lot of faith in that, and i'm not even that religious but i know that everything happens for a reason. And i honestly don't believe in abortions i think it is selfish and unreasonable i know its a woman's right but i wouldn't do it and i don't have much respect for people who do. Because i do know a lot of people who cannot conceive and people are always looking for adoption and abortion is just the easy way out. And i could go on for days about how i don't agree with it but i just don't and i am deeply sorry.

Hmm, oh i got asked what kind of diet do i eat. I'm such a picky eater and i love vegetables, I have honestly had fast food maybe three times and it just makes me sick, well unless if it is taco bell ha ha. But normally i eat salads, I am not big on meats but if i do eat meat its normally chicken or turkey or occasionally i will have steak. Oh and i eat yogurt like it's going out of style as well as apples and other fruits. YUMMY. But I cannot wait for Thanksgiving! 

1. Are you currently in a relationship? No relationship, and I don't plan on being in one. I enjoy being single :) plus I have priorities now that I'm due in May.

2. What is your favorite animal? Dolphins :)

3. What is your favorite movie? Hmm, all time would be little rascals its just always been my favorite.

4. If you could go to any 5 places in 6 months, where would you go? 1. Switzerland 2. Paris 3. Germany 4. Australia 5. Ireland

5. If you only had a week to live, what would you plan on doing within that last week? Just crazy things like sky dive and enjoy my last days on earth with my family and close friends. Celebrate then life I had.

6. Do you have any regrets? When I was younger and didn't know how to deal with my stress and depression I use to cut and now that I'm having a child I am scared for when he or she asks me about my arms. That's my only regret.

7. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you want to live? Somewhere beautiful and far away from here.

8. If you were to see a homeless person around in any place, they have ripped clothes, no shoes, and they aren’t bathed (you don’t actually know if they are really homeless or not) what would you do pass-by, lend change/money, talk to them or give them food? If they tried talking to me I'd talk back maybe give them some spare change I've met good homeless people and bad so it all depends on the vibe I'm getting at the time.

9. Would you break a law to save a loved one? If I really had to I think I would most definitely do that.

10. What is your favorite childhood memory? Going sledding

11. If you could go back to any point in your life and change one thing would you, and if so what would it be that you would change?