AloneWolf

I appreciate the sincerity in your words if you ever feel comfortable to actually reveal yourself and talk I'll be here cause time is all I have .

I do on so many sleepless nights I draw prints of how I feel in hope to relieve the pain ,get it out and on paper

So many Years ago one serious relationship this one girl destroyed my outlook on love after that I didn’t have long nor good relationships with any women that’s when I replaced love with lust . Then down the years I lived with this other girl who I wanted to give her so much more but I didn’t like myself at that time so I broke it off, to work on myself and be the man she deserves not wanted . But sadly that broke her and she drastically changed as a person ,to the point when we meet again and I didn’t see her as someone that I loved . That’s when I replaced love with self shame and disappointment towards me. More years passed and this lovely women fell into my life exactly like me from personality down to our ideas, the way we spoke our passion for what we want and do in life . Again sadly after telling myself I wouldn’t and shutting down all emotions towards women I fell for her . Then as quickly as she came into my life she left and I haven’t heard from her since . It broke me cause I didn’t see her with eyes of lust nor did I think about being closely intimate with her I generally enjoy being with her spending time , hearing the sound of soft voice making her laugh just to see that beautiful smile . And then that’s when love was replaced with a void . But I guess this is my curse to love and in return feel pain a constant circle that I may never brake from. Distorted distressed my life a mess words I live by 🌹

How what happened may I ask