I typically stay quiet at work - I do my work and I stay quiet, although all of our work is interactive and for the most part, collaborative. But I prefer to listen and draw and write - what I hear registers with me and it takes me time to process and it takes me time to understand and time to respond - so I listen. I draw. I write. Recently, I began to speak - share my views, my opinions - give feedback. I noticed that it energized me, to be listened to - to be appreciated for my words and thoughts. I have made a decision to not. To count my words and realize I don’t have enough to speak, I’ve changed my mind. I don’t feel I articulate myself well - not as well as when I listen, I draw, and I write. I hate my insecurity of overthinking - of feeling a little confident on something and then taking a step back to shut the door behind me and curl into a ball of anxiety. I talk myself out of doing something I know was okay, was fine, was normal and natural - but I am too anxious and I over-analyze to the point of shutting down and putting a stop to something. Maybe one day I’ll try again, but for now I think I’ll just listen, draw, and write. I think I’ll keep my thoughts on paper for me to ponder over and smile and know that what I’m thinking is exactly what I’ve written :)