pls break my heart

Am I in the frame from your point of view?

Do you feel the same? I'm too scared to say

And it isn't like the last time?

We kiss and you don't feel the spark anymore

Or worse it doesn't go that far

What if this is just all in MY head.

My unfulfilled wish

friends or not

blocked or not

hated or not

You have created a space in my heart that's yours alone.

if u ever find urself lost, come and find me

No one could ever fill or replace your space in my heart

But maybe I am just in love with a version of u that I have in my head

The version that wrote me the most heartfelt (drunk) texts ever

And every new year's eve I hope it will be a year where I get to see u

But somehow I am only stuck with the idea of us

Maybe I am only in love with the idea of us?

I wish I would have yearned for u like this years ago

Because now I only get to do it from a distance

In secret only in between thoughts, at night or just when I have the time to write every stupid thought down.

No one else made me feel like this

I mean, it pains me to miss u, to text u, to write all of this

To hope for a teeny tiny answer or just a reaction

It's just pain, but I live with it. I enjoy it.

Because that means I still have a teeny tiny part of u in my life.

But did u ever knew me?

Can we really call this love?

I know so much about everyone

But does somebody really know me?

Like I know them?

I wish no harm outside these arms you'll soon forget (soon forget)

I must refrain from seeing your face

Though I want to (though I want to)

I won't wish you a merry Christmas, but I'll send it anyway

From a distance

Mourning you and everything we could've been (could've been)

The taste of your name used to go down easily (easily)

Then turned into a ghost that I'll just have to grieve

I'll miss you longer than I've known you

So long, my love, we weren't meant to be

I don't know when or even if I'll see you again (see you again)

I wish no harm outside these arms you'll soon forget (soon forget)

I must refrain from seeing your face

Though I want to (though I want to)

I won't wish you a merry Christmas, but I'll send it anyway

Maybe I should delete all the pictures, the chats, the memories that keep reminding me of u

I mean us, that there once was an us

Almost did it a few times, but deleting everything, getting rid of everything feels so final