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i feel like that's why (on account of me not usually being too interested in old men existing) gerson being there makes me so happy? idk. i know he's like dead and the whole point of his character being like, gotta let the past rest for a bit and he won't be there for you to rely on forever, you gotta start relying on yourself, but even then i wish someone like that existed in my life lol.

anyway idk why i'm writing here, i think it's probably because i know no one i really care about will read it ?? none of my irls follow this account, i think twitter friends are mostly active on twitter and not here. i kinda miss having a diary or blog to talk about my own shit but i also feel like it being on paper makes it difficult to organise. if it's on the internet it's on the internet and accessible forever you know.