official mad scientist

if you bite your tongue too much eventually you'll choke on it

we're going to try another er

folks i am not still at the er and havent been for 2 hours, we had to leave people were coughing on us and taking pictures of us and the nurse that checked my vitals 2 and a half hours after they already checked my vitals did it incorrectly all while having obviously profiled me as a tranny they didnt want to treat i have no idea what we are going to do

im sorry im just so fucking scared

idek what we could do. if someone sent house type money maybe a doctor would fucking see me. i just have no idea, no way to figure out what to do i just dont know im angry and flailing because i dont want to die but i dont know what to do

while im being miserable: i am so so fucking done with the "Ricky is overfed" garbage hes a normal cat people just want to attack a trans woman

i dont have time for your fucking feeble brain to understand the amount of suffering ive been in my whole life. you should have passed me to a real doctor you miserable asshole.

"should you be on pain management treatment" from a medical professional is amazing. yes. you and your field failed me on that since i was a very little child. what about what i went here for.

at this point i have to hope its fine or there's a miracle idk because ive never had surgery before and the surgeon said it was urgent

for like absolute clarity the pain is so bad that oxycodone does nothing literally nothing

im sorry its miserable for people to hear about my reality, you're free to leave but this is my life i have to talk about it while i can, maybe someone will make a change so others dont have to suffer like me

"are you feeling suicidal or homicidal" im feeling like the surgeon told me to come in for emergency examination can we talk about that